{"messages":[{"id":1507,"first_name":null,"last_name_initial":null,"their_first_name":"Nickles","their_last_initial":null,"recipient_type":"Ex","location":"Lexington NC","date_sent":null,"background_color":"#ff4015","hearts":0,"word_count":6,"created_at":"2026-07-17T00:54:08.964102+00:00","message_body":"Maurice. You owe me aftercare now.","emotions":[],"timeAgo":"just now","previewMessage":"Maurice. You owe me aftercare now."},{"id":1506,"first_name":"Tempy","last_name_initial":null,"their_first_name":"Me","their_last_initial":null,"recipient_type":null,"location":null,"date_sent":null,"background_color":"#e63b7a","hearts":0,"word_count":102,"created_at":"2026-07-17T00:53:04.334498+00:00","message_body":"I realized the reason I never fit in is because I’m abrasive. Not in the way I trained my mind to identify. In the quiet ways. My silliness is not perceived in the way I mean it. I don’t come off as a goofball that says silly things. I come off as someone who cares too much and gets too involved. I guess Ohio is the final boss after all. I get to learn to not over share. Drop the act, the stories, the little facade I still throw out. I have to actually be accepted as me. I can’t keep pretending","emotions":[{"color":"#ffeb3b","score":10,"emotion":"Confusion","category":"contextual","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":4.8,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":0.5,"confidence":0.95,"matchedKeywords":["contextual_pattern"]},{"color":"#424242","score":0.1,"emotion":"Despair","category":"contextual","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":4,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":0.5,"confidence":0.95,"matchedKeywords":["contextual_pattern"]}],"timeAgo":"1m","previewMessage":"I realized the reason I never fit in is because I’m abrasive. Not in the way I trained my mind to identify. In the quiet ways. My silliness is not perceived in the way I mean it. I don’t come off as a goofball that says silly things. I come off as someone who cares too much and gets too involved. I guess Ohio is the final boss after all. I get to learn to not over share. Drop the act, the stories, the little facade I still throw out. I have to actually be accepted as me. 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I dont have anyone close to me except you(or had you) and its such a blessing to have. Im really sorry for being ass. I hope you dont hate me because i still love you and I cant bear it that you hate me. Im really really sad these days. I barely eat. I stay in my room. I wish you keep doing your stuff but please come back I really miss you and IM SO SORRY I dont kknow what else to say to you but i cant cope losing you","emotions":[{"color":"#ffc107","score":10,"emotion":"Guilt","category":"complex","metadata":{"matches":3,"rawScore":33.92619203347029,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":1,"confidence":1,"matchedKeywords":["sorry","hurt you"]},{"color":"#4caf50","score":2.61,"emotion":"Hope","category":"future","metadata":{"matches":2,"rawScore":11.171497387511852,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":1,"confidence":0.81,"matchedKeywords":["hope"]},{"color":"#ff5722","score":1.98,"emotion":"Anger","category":"primary","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":9.22834322481212,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.99,"confidence":0.63,"matchedKeywords":["hate"]},{"color":"#424242","score":0.74,"emotion":"Despair","category":"syntactic","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":5.4,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":1,"confidence":1,"matchedKeywords":["syntactic_pattern"]},{"color":"#e1bee7","score":0.77,"emotion":"Longing","category":"desire","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":5.495329850015803,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.74,"confidence":0.55,"matchedKeywords":["miss"]},{"color":"#ff1744","score":0.1,"emotion":"Love","category":"primary","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":3.1191623125197534,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.58,"confidence":0.49,"matchedKeywords":["love"]}],"timeAgo":"18m","previewMessage":"im sorry i hurt you. I dont have anyone close to me except you(or had you) and its such a blessing to have. Im really sorry for being ass. I hope you dont hate me because i still love you and I cant bear it that you hate me. Im really really sad these days. I barely eat. I stay in my room. I wish you keep doing your stuff but please come back I really miss you and IM SO SORRY I dont kknow what else to say to you but i cant cope losing you"},{"id":1503,"first_name":"T","last_name_initial":null,"their_first_name":"tia","their_last_initial":null,"recipient_type":"Other","location":null,"date_sent":null,"background_color":"#871012","hearts":0,"word_count":85,"created_at":"2026-07-16T23:36:45.700432+00:00","message_body":"He did scare me. He scared me so much and i knew you wouldnt get it. I hate him but you still dont get it. You dont allow anyone but yourself to suffer. Acting like you wouldve done any better. You ruined a part of me. I part you’ll never get back. Why did you ignore me. Why did you lie. Why wont you ever tell me the truth. I love you with all my heart but at the same time i fucking despise you.","emotions":[{"color":"#ff1744","score":10,"emotion":"Love","category":"primary","metadata":{"matches":2,"rawScore":6.809581156259878,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.83,"confidence":0.95,"matchedKeywords":["love"]},{"color":"#ffeb3b","score":9.05,"emotion":"Confusion","category":"syntactic","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":6.300000000000001,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":0.75,"confidence":1,"matchedKeywords":["syntactic_pattern"]},{"color":"#424242","score":6.81,"emotion":"Despair","category":"syntactic","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":5.1,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":0.75,"confidence":1,"matchedKeywords":["syntactic_pattern"]},{"color":"#00bcd4","score":2.61,"emotion":"Anxiety","category":"mental","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":2.8516370020918935,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.38,"confidence":0.55,"matchedKeywords":["scared"]},{"color":"#3f51b5","score":2.18,"emotion":"Heartbreak","category":"primary","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":2.621497387511852,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.36,"confidence":0.54,"matchedKeywords":["ruined"]}],"timeAgo":"1h","previewMessage":"He did scare me. He scared me so much and i knew you wouldnt get it. I hate him but you still dont get it. You dont allow anyone but yourself to suffer. Acting like you wouldve done any better. You ruined a part of me. I part you’ll never get back. Why did you ignore me. Why did you lie. Why wont you ever tell me the truth. I love you with all my heart but at the same time i fucking despise you."},{"id":1502,"first_name":"t","last_name_initial":null,"their_first_name":"Karma","their_last_initial":null,"recipient_type":"Friend","location":"School","date_sent":null,"background_color":"#a4ac7c","hearts":0,"word_count":42,"created_at":"2026-07-16T23:31:08.284618+00:00","message_body":"I shouldnt have treated you like that. you hurt me and apologized, but i still didnt forgive you, and im afraid i never will. We’ll always and only be bad for each other. Forgive me but never come in my life again.","emotions":[{"color":"#ffc107","score":10,"emotion":"Guilt","category":"complex","metadata":{"matches":2,"rawScore":4.402182669455858,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.54,"confidence":0.94,"matchedKeywords":["forgive me"]},{"color":"#00bcd4","score":8.33,"emotion":"Anxiety","category":"mental","metadata":{"matches":2,"rawScore":4.0010913347279295,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.52,"confidence":0.92,"matchedKeywords":["afraid"]},{"color":"#81c784","score":5.24,"emotion":"Closure","category":"resolution","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":3.2577796618689754,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.34,"confidence":0.64,"matchedKeywords":["forgive"]},{"color":"#ffeb3b","score":1.67,"emotion":"Confusion","category":"contextual","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":2.4,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":0.5,"confidence":0.95,"matchedKeywords":["contextual_pattern"]},{"color":"#424242","score":0.1,"emotion":"Despair","category":"contextual","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":2,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":0.5,"confidence":0.95,"matchedKeywords":["contextual_pattern"]}],"timeAgo":"1h","previewMessage":"I shouldnt have treated you like that. you hurt me and apologized, but i still didnt forgive you, and im afraid i never will. We’ll always and only be bad for each other. Forgive me but never come in my life again."},{"id":1501,"first_name":"Kristina","last_name_initial":"S","their_first_name":"Irena","their_last_initial":null,"recipient_type":"Other","location":null,"date_sent":null,"background_color":"#87ceeb","hearts":0,"word_count":35,"created_at":"2026-07-16T23:24:42.147679+00:00","message_body":"I am really sorry cause i can never be enough. you are made for so much more and i now i can only bring to table my depression and anger issues. sorry i love you","emotions":[{"color":"#ffc107","score":10,"emotion":"Guilt","category":"complex","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":8.71278390107417,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.83,"confidence":0.72,"matchedKeywords":["sorry"]},{"color":"#ff1744","score":3.1,"emotion":"Love","category":"primary","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":4.079441541679836,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.52,"confidence":0.56,"matchedKeywords":["love"]},{"color":"#ffeb3b","score":0.6,"emotion":"Confusion","category":"contextual","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":2.4,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":1,"confidence":0.95,"matchedKeywords":["contextual_pattern"]},{"color":"#424242","score":0.1,"emotion":"Despair","category":"contextual","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":2,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":1,"confidence":0.95,"matchedKeywords":["contextual_pattern"]}],"timeAgo":"1h","previewMessage":"I am really sorry cause i can never be enough. you are made for so much more and i now i can only bring to table my depression and anger issues. sorry i love you"},{"id":1500,"first_name":null,"last_name_initial":null,"their_first_name":"Iman","their_last_initial":null,"recipient_type":"Ex","location":null,"date_sent":null,"background_color":"#ffb5af","hearts":2,"word_count":30,"created_at":"2026-07-16T21:18:45.950019+00:00","message_body":"i miss you cheesecake, i don’t think i’ll ever be able to forget you when everything reminds me of you. i pray that you’re acing in your life, stay happy:)","emotions":[{"color":"#e1bee7","score":10,"emotion":"Longing","category":"desire","metadata":{"matches":2,"rawScore":3.2317766166719344,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.47,"confidence":0.87,"matchedKeywords":["miss"]},{"color":"#ff9800","score":0.1,"emotion":"Nostalgia","category":"temporal","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":2.0794415416798357,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.26,"confidence":0.56,"matchedKeywords":["reminds me of"]}],"timeAgo":"3h","previewMessage":"i miss you cheesecake, i don’t think i’ll ever be able to forget you when everything reminds me of you. i pray that you’re acing in your life, stay happy:)"},{"id":1499,"first_name":"Nura","last_name_initial":null,"their_first_name":"Jenna","their_last_initial":null,"recipient_type":"Friend","location":"Malaysia","date_sent":"This year.","background_color":"#914375","hearts":2,"word_count":59,"created_at":"2026-07-16T12:44:55.800285+00:00","message_body":"Jenna, i am sorry.. I wish I didn't crashout gng in small things or badminton yk? So.. I had a fucking sad small sensitive cry like lwky wth is Wrong with me? Like bro i feel bad and you had that deep secret finally i heard... I dont fucking know how i am like this living in this world.","emotions":[{"color":"#ffc107","score":10,"emotion":"Guilt","category":"complex","metadata":{"matches":2,"rawScore":6.27414707196613,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.89,"confidence":0.87,"matchedKeywords":["sorry","wrong"]},{"color":"#9e9e9e","score":0.1,"emotion":"Regret","category":"temporal","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":5.060751143353351,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.57,"confidence":0.6,"matchedKeywords":["wish I"]}],"timeAgo":"12h","previewMessage":"Jenna, i am sorry.. I wish I didn't crashout gng in small things or badminton yk? So.. I had a fucking sad small sensitive cry like lwky wth is Wrong with me? Like bro i feel bad and you had that deep secret finally i heard... I dont fucking know how i am like this living in this world."},{"id":1498,"first_name":"yunyuna","last_name_initial":null,"their_first_name":"net","their_last_initial":null,"recipient_type":"Friend","location":null,"date_sent":null,"background_color":"#ffff00","hearts":0,"word_count":105,"created_at":"2026-07-16T10:46:59.298503+00:00","message_body":"ive never met anyone as understanding and as relatable as u i prob dont mean much to you but you did a rlly big impact on my life lol i wish we can talk and play rblx together again but i guess you're just too busy now it's crazy that the game that made us meet eachother is problematic now (dandys world) \ncan we talk again? i miss u sm idk why \ni miss the times when we would play with no care in the world haha\ni dont think we'll ever make a come back and thats okay, ive kinda grew to accept it","emotions":[{"color":"#e1bee7","score":10,"emotion":"Longing","category":"desire","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":4.757169916723982,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.46,"confidence":0.7,"matchedKeywords":["miss"]},{"color":"#ffeb3b","score":1.87,"emotion":"Confusion","category":"contextual","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":2.76,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":0.57,"confidence":0.95,"matchedKeywords":["contextual_pattern"]},{"color":"#424242","score":0.1,"emotion":"Despair","category":"contextual","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":2.3,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":0.57,"confidence":0.95,"matchedKeywords":["contextual_pattern"]}],"timeAgo":"14h","previewMessage":"ive never met anyone as understanding and as relatable as u i prob dont mean much to you but you did a rlly big impact on my life lol i wish we can talk and play rblx together again but i guess you're just too busy now it's crazy that the game that made us meet eachother is problematic now (dandys world) \ncan we talk again? i miss u sm idk why \ni miss the times when we would play with no care in the world haha\ni dont think we'll ever make a come back and thats okay, ive kinda grew to accept it"},{"id":1497,"first_name":"cute duck.","last_name_initial":null,"their_first_name":"abner","their_last_initial":"C","recipient_type":"Ex","location":"Reno","date_sent":"Summer 2026","background_color":"#d6d6d6","hearts":0,"word_count":6,"created_at":"2026-07-16T08:44:42.04256+00:00","message_body":"do u ever miss me lol?","emotions":[{"color":"#e1bee7","score":0.96,"emotion":"Longing","category":"desire","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":0.9565431091727244,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.21,"confidence":0.34,"matchedKeywords":["miss"]}],"timeAgo":"16h","previewMessage":"do u ever miss me lol?"},{"id":1496,"first_name":null,"last_name_initial":null,"their_first_name":"Audrey","their_last_initial":null,"recipient_type":"Ex","location":null,"date_sent":"High school","background_color":"#87ceeb","hearts":0,"word_count":14,"created_at":"2026-07-15T23:25:17.025689+00:00","message_body":"I hope you find peace you had no right to treat me that way","emotions":[{"color":"#4caf50","score":10,"emotion":"Hope","category":"future","metadata":{"matches":2,"rawScore":2.4238324625039507,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.41,"confidence":0.75,"matchedKeywords":["hope"]},{"color":"#ffeb3b","score":1.4,"emotion":"Confusion","category":"contextual","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":1.2,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":0.5,"confidence":0.89,"matchedKeywords":["contextual_pattern"]},{"color":"#81c784","score":0.38,"emotion":"Closure","category":"resolution","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":1.0545177444479563,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.2,"confidence":0.44,"matchedKeywords":["peace"]},{"color":"#424242","score":0.1,"emotion":"Despair","category":"contextual","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":1,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":0.5,"confidence":0.89,"matchedKeywords":["contextual_pattern"]}],"timeAgo":"1d","previewMessage":"I hope you find peace you had no right to treat me that way"},{"id":1495,"first_name":null,"last_name_initial":null,"their_first_name":"ronie","their_last_initial":null,"recipient_type":null,"location":null,"date_sent":null,"background_color":"#ff292a","hearts":0,"word_count":84,"created_at":"2026-07-15T22:59:53.107632+00:00","message_body":"I’m so sorry i love you so much… I had so much pressure on me bc i was moving but i really do miss talking to you. You were always such an amazing girl and I can’t believe we were so damn close to getting together but I just had to screw it up. We used to talk every day and now when we see each other we just freeze. i hope i fix it. i hope you realize how much i love you","emotions":[{"color":"#ff1744","score":10,"emotion":"Love","category":"primary","metadata":{"matches":2,"rawScore":20.387510598012987,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":1,"confidence":1,"matchedKeywords":["love"]},{"color":"#4caf50","score":9.84,"emotion":"Hope","category":"future","metadata":{"matches":4,"rawScore":20.104003746319645,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":1,"confidence":1,"matchedKeywords":["hope","believe"]},{"color":"#ff9800","score":3.44,"emotion":"Nostalgia","category":"temporal","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":8.658883083359672,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.65,"confidence":0.52,"matchedKeywords":["used to"]},{"color":"#9e9e9e","score":0.62,"emotion":"Regret","category":"temporal","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":3.5999999999999996,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":1,"confidence":0.95,"matchedKeywords":["temporal_pattern"]},{"color":"#ffc107","score":0.95,"emotion":"Guilt","category":"complex","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":4.203274004183787,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.66,"confidence":0.52,"matchedKeywords":["sorry"]},{"color":"#e1bee7","score":0.1,"emotion":"Longing","category":"desire","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":2.495329850015803,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.54,"confidence":0.48,"matchedKeywords":["miss"]}],"timeAgo":"1d","previewMessage":"I’m so sorry i love you so much… I had so much pressure on me bc i was moving but i really do miss talking to you. You were always such an amazing girl and I can’t believe we were so damn close to getting together but I just had to screw it up. We used to talk every day and now when we see each other we just freeze. i hope i fix it. i hope you realize how much i love you"},{"id":1494,"first_name":null,"last_name_initial":null,"their_first_name":"Aakanshya","their_last_initial":"G","recipient_type":"Crush","location":"Us","date_sent":"Last month","background_color":"#b51a00","hearts":0,"word_count":48,"created_at":"2026-07-15T22:46:56.367325+00:00","message_body":"What I wanna say to u twin is that don’t care to much about me and focus on yourself Because I know u can achieve a lot and I know u have a bright future so keep working hard and always remember I am always proud of u","emotions":[{"color":"#ff9800","score":10,"emotion":"Nostalgia","category":"temporal","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":1.789720770839918,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.31,"confidence":0.5,"matchedKeywords":["remember"]},{"color":"#4caf50","score":0.1,"emotion":"Hope","category":"future","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":1.6857486937559263,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.3,"confidence":0.5,"matchedKeywords":["future"]}],"timeAgo":"1d","previewMessage":"What I wanna say to u twin is that don’t care to much about me and focus on yourself Because I know u can achieve a lot and I know u have a bright future so keep working hard and always remember I am always proud of u"},{"id":1493,"first_name":"svetlana","last_name_initial":null,"their_first_name":null,"their_last_initial":null,"recipient_type":null,"location":null,"date_sent":null,"background_color":"#87ceeb","hearts":0,"word_count":3,"created_at":"2026-07-15T22:44:19.891788+00:00","message_body":"iste buuu 😭😭","emotions":[],"timeAgo":"1d","previewMessage":"iste buuu 😭😭"},{"id":1492,"first_name":null,"last_name_initial":null,"their_first_name":null,"their_last_initial":null,"recipient_type":"Myself","location":null,"date_sent":null,"background_color":"#525252","hearts":1,"word_count":23,"created_at":"2026-07-15T22:11:19.443103+00:00","message_body":"im lonely with no friends. if things start going my way, i will mae a new post thats pink. 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Someone broke up with me and I still don't know why. I go to a party and just make it unfun for some people because I just sit in a corner thinking about how stupid I've been, knowing what I'm doing and constantly regretting it. I push everyone away and I think maybe I should just stop trying to make people happy, because it seems to make them hate me. I'm only venting on here because it's anonymous and untraceable. 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I wanted to love you, but it felt like you didn't really like the real me. 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