what i meant

To Vincent, Ex

I hate you, so fucking much. You tried to make me your little lapdog, and when I became independent, you stopped being nice. You’re a pathetic little creep, and I can’t understand how any of my friends can stand you. I don’t know why they still stay by you. You made me feel like a whore (I still do), and I get scared being near you. I do not love you, and I’ve realised how much I hated loving you. Can’t understand how I broke up with my ex and insulted her just to be with you. Stay away from me.

— Melodie

To Chloe Y.,

Rlly embarrassing if you find this btw. I really, really want to text you back and beg you to forgive me, to forget I ever sent that stupid fucking message to forget I ever wanted to not be friends! I'm an attention seeker. That's probably it. We were best friends and I just had to ruin that didn't I? I might kms soon so I hope someone reads this ig. Pls don't make fun of me if u find this. I fucked up. Badly. And this guilty feeling is going to haunt me forever. So I'll get rid of it.

— Anonymous

To Chloe,

We made so many amazing fucking memories together so why did it have to end? I think you of so fucking much it's pathetic man we didn't even date. We are just friends. And yet, I miss you and I hate myself for sending you that stupid fucking text. I want to be friends I lied I fucking lied! Its probably because everyone was telling me you were an attention seeker and I thought so too. But maybe you really were going through something. Maybe I'm a bitch. Please...please don't hate Or forget me.

— Anonymous

To Lizza x, 14, Friend

Lowk gonna pull a Han Jisung 5 Star cause life is too hard. I'm so so so sorry that I had to be here and I hope you'll be ok without me in the future cause I'll be younger than you someday. Ily- Kai

— Kaiii

To Chloe, Friend

I can't tell if I like you or not. You were two different people all of the time. I miss all the memories we made. So many I cant think of without crying y'know. I miss you, I really do, even though I know if I go back it'll be the same gut wrenching days. But why do I feel guilt? Why do I feel I never should've cut you off? Maybe you would've changed. Maybe I should try again if you'll let me. I wonder...if you miss me to. And I wonder if I'll live long enough to feel this feeling go away.

— Anonymous

To someone,

Lowk gotta stop spamming on ts 😭 sorry y'all

— A

To someone,

I wanna pull a Han Jisung 5 Star soon since school just let out today...

— Kai

To L, Friend

You gotta stay with him and forget me, we're just friends dude. You don't need me when you have J...I'm fine single anyways Ig the flirting got too much cause it made me feel things for you when you said you'd get with this girl if you and him broke up hypothetically. I hate this feeling, stay friends

— Anonymous

To Lux, 14, Friend

'She likes a boy, she likes a boy, she likes a boy, and I'm not a boy, I'm not a boy, I'm not a boy' ~NXDIA I'm sorry that you have a crush on me cause I don't like you back like that, we're still friends- right??? <3

— Kai

To Oscarrr W., 14, Crush

Oscar! I've always liked you since year 8 when we had music then in art when I was sitting next to you and when I shared my sweets and crisps with you. I've still got those photos I took then- I hope you're ok dude. I want to be friends but idk how we can, you and Jorgie are so cute together. I've given up on crushes, please, please, please can we be friends???

— Kai

To Destin T.,

mr. tunca, this message I will actually be specifying what made u so special/what I thought would b too corny to put in the email. I hope u never find this but it’s ok if u do. I don’t mind. I think it all started when u gave me that coin shortly after the school year started. I felt so special. u noticed things about me no one else did! or at least what no one else noticed for a while. when you chose the iPod for ur today in history I was so happy. like so happy. Im running out of r

— L C.

To mommy C G., Parent

dear mommy i send you this letter saying fuck u fucking fuck you ,fuck ur hatefull speech fuck ur bs fuck ur favoritism fuck ur insuts fuck ur victim issues and fuck ur fucking fuck clothes that u have force me to wear fuck u lmaoooooo

— Anonymous

To kob,

i think about you often and wonder what would’ve happened if you didn’t just disappear like that. i am waiting on the day you come back into my life, and i want you to know i forgive you completely.

— taytay

To vikram N.,

i hope this feeling of second place leaves soon

— Anonymous

To zuhair, 22, Ex

i keep finding every niche unsent site to write to you on, on the off chance you come across one of them and realize i have never forgotten you, and never will. i love you juju, and that will never change. i try so hard to not reach out, i'm itching to tell you i love you and i miss you. i'm sorry.

— Anonymous

To Tabitha, 29, Friend

I still message you. I wish you had gotten to know I still monitored your socials before you died. Heather and I checked up on you borderline daily. I always loved you and I never stopped making sure you were okay. I think you would’ve found it funny…I didn’t check on your socials the week you died. I was in the Caribbean. I got home and got the call. Your funeral was happening. I said “oh. No. That’s rude”. I stopped that day. How can you be dead?I’ll be older than you soon. Please. Stop it.

— T

To Nickles, Ex

Maurice. You owe me aftercare now.

— Anonymous

To Me,

I realized the reason I never fit in is because I’m abrasive. Not in the way I trained my mind to identify. In the quiet ways. My silliness is not perceived in the way I mean it. I don’t come off as a goofball that says silly things. I come off as someone who cares too much and gets too involved. I guess Ohio is the final boss after all. I get to learn to not over share. Drop the act, the stories, the little facade I still throw out. I have to actually be accepted as me. I can’t keep pretending

— Tempy

To gentry P., 13, Crush

i really want you. but i know you don’t want me. i will always have my door open to you if you need me. i know we never dated but i still miss you. i just really hoped you could let me in but i guess not, cuz you stopped responding. like i said my door is open for you, ive tried to close it but i just can’t. miss you, love you forever.

— paisley F.

To Huda, 20, Ex

im sorry i hurt you. I dont have anyone close to me except you(or had you) and its such a blessing to have. Im really sorry for being ass. I hope you dont hate me because i still love you and I cant bear it that you hate me. Im really really sad these days. I barely eat. I stay in my room. I wish you keep doing your stuff but please come back I really miss you and IM SO SORRY I dont kknow what else to say to you but i cant cope losing you

— Hussain

To tia, 14,

He did scare me. He scared me so much and i knew you wouldnt get it. I hate him but you still dont get it. You dont allow anyone but yourself to suffer. Acting like you wouldve done any better. You ruined a part of me. I part you’ll never get back. Why did you ignore me. Why did you lie. Why wont you ever tell me the truth. I love you with all my heart but at the same time i fucking despise you.

— T

To Karma, Friend

I shouldnt have treated you like that. you hurt me and apologized, but i still didnt forgive you, and im afraid i never will. We’ll always and only be bad for each other. Forgive me but never come in my life again.

— t

To Irena, 26,

I am really sorry cause i can never be enough. you are made for so much more and i now i can only bring to table my depression and anger issues. sorry i love you

— Kristina S.

To Iman, Ex

i miss you cheesecake, i don’t think i’ll ever be able to forget you when everything reminds me of you. i pray that you’re acing in your life, stay happy:)

— Anonymous