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To K L.,

I don’t know why I miss you like this, why I’m desperate and can’t stop asking. You are the glowing streetlamps and the setting sun hiding behind sheets of cloud and rain. I want to dance with you in a field again like the summer won’t crash over us. You haunt me at all times and I am left sleepless even now years later. Is there a way for me to receive absolution? Please don’t tell me this is it, do not leave me here where I cannot find you. I miss you, and I’m sorry I miss you

— N G.

To Ethan-Dasher P., 16, Ex

Dasher/Ethan, I never really got over you. Let's be honest here, I'm still not over you. I love you with everything I have left in me and there's no replacing what we had, however short it was. But you're a horrible person. You smoke and make fun of people who did nothing to you. You were the best love I had, and the worst realization ever. Hope you know that you're horrible and we literally talk about you every day. In a bad way. Finally done w/ you and all you did to me, Rudolph/becca

— Enoch B.

To someone,

Tate, If I wrote myself in, I wouldn't be a princess in a safe castle. I'd be the one at the machine---the one who knows where all of your meetings/classes are but stays in the shadows. I'm writing a version of us where you actually look at me and see me and like me and choose me, not just the game.

— Anonymous

To Tate C., Crush

Tate, And you do that little greeting and you have no idea that you're inhaling all the oxygen in the room. You take up so much space, and when you leave, I'm left with the vacuum. How am I supposed to breathe when you've taken all the air with you? I made Kieran cruel so I could justify why she stays away. But you aren't cruel; you're just "Haiiii!!" and kindness, which is a much harder thing to survive.

— Anonymous

To someone,

Still to that one boy in 10th grade: I keep trying to write a chapter where Malix/Kieran (the 2 characters based off of him) don't appear but you're like a recurring motif. I can't describe a river or a lake without using the color of your eyes, and I hate that I've given you that much power over my vocabulary.

— Anonymous

To tate C., Crush

To that one boy in 10th grade: I like you a lot. Like, obsessive type of like. I don't think it's even a like, really. It's more like.... limerence or mania (limerence and mania are obsessive types of love). That sounds wrong. Let me restart. I really like you. I don't wanna tell you because you don't wanna date and you obviously don't like me, but it's okay. I also know Kirby doesn't have any love interests in the games or shows, but we can write one in. That's what we're good at, right?

— Enoch B.

To Cassandra, 22, Ex

I thought leaving you and thinking "you'll find someone better" was a good idea. I guess I'm wrong. I've red your letter and I'm too late. I'm sorry for being so selfish. I'm sorry for hurting you and I know my apology can't do anything. But I will never get tired of seeking for your forgiveness and I hope you forgive me someday even if it takes years. I hope we cross paths again if the universe lets us. Maybe.

— Anonymous

To tommy T., 13,

it's stupid, really. I thought you'd just be a person I'd like for a month or two, move on and forget your existence. But no, you became more then that. You became someone I could never forget, your voice and laughter carries through the wind wherever I go, your presence in my dreams haunting me, how long until I can breathe without you? How much longer do I have to wait for my heart to stop beating for yours, and my soul to yearn for you? I'm only so young, and yet I feel years of longing.

— emily P.

To Ace, Ex

I know you’ll never read this, but I want you to know that I loved you. I will always love you. I just couldn’t keep destroying myself to keep this relationship alive. Please don’t hate me. Maybe one day you’ll understand. I hope you come back to me someday. I love you, Ace

— Gela

To rukaiya, 17,

3 years meant nothing right? surely it didn’t cause you said we were “nothing”. just so you know I was waiting. waiting. just to find you betraying me. I regret loving you and I know for a fact that you never loved me, you never did. you can’t do this to someone you love. you never can. I would never. amar majhemodhde tomake ask korte iccha kore, keno? keno. k.e.n.o. I hope I get answer to that one day. I hope you don’t ruin us in another universe. I’ll never forgive you, never.

— s

To Louie, 67, Ex

I know you like someone new but I just know no one else will love you the way I do

— Anonymous

To Melanye M., 14,

When i first met you, something sparked. i may not know how to express it but i truly love you, sorry if i confuse you, i fear rejection, i care of what people think. I fear getting called slurs when walking down the school hallways. Directly or non-directly. I fear of people finding out that i am queer. Its 2026 but homophobia is still a heavy thing, in my household, at school-- i love you deeply, always. I love you, i hope we build a future together. <3

— Anaya W.

To Calvyn, Ex

Looks like you got over me real fast, huh? I really thought you actually cared about me. Was I really that worthless to you? Just don’t break this new girl’s heart. She doesn’t deserve that same pain I went through. I didn’t realise until now how worthless you made me feel. I really did mean nothing to you, did I? I told myself I’d never be angry at you. But I am. I am angry. Because you took away the purest parts of me and made it into something disgusting.

— Anonymous

To Dan, 14, Crush

Dear Dan, i know you never really liked me and all, but i always wished to be able to see you again and whisper in your ear every single cute thing i did while thinking about you. Every single one of those 11 love letters i wrote to you that i wont show, i never regret writing them. still think about you after all this time. I hope we see again and that those cute dreams of mines once day come true. I still remember little things u think u never told me, i put ur fav color as the back round btw

— Marie

To Kiara Marisa R., 18, Crush

what do you do when you want to give someone the world but you barely have a grain of sand? do you know i love you? i don't know when i fell in love. after breaking down crying on the staircase outside my apartment door after you stopped talking to me i realized i'd been in love with you the whole time. im going to make myself better. i want to be the right one for you despite my flaws. im going to work hard like you. i hope you notice. they say imitation is the best form of flattery. ilyssssssm

— bare-hands

To A A., Ex

Love like that is rare, but it happened with you. I've grown so much since we last spoke, I wish I could show you. But you wont let me. It's weird knowing you're out there but not knowing anything else. I guess I'm starting to accept this new life without you. It's not what I want. But it is reality.

— Him

To sydney,

i couldn't even explain myself. im not doubtful of you im only doubtful of howd youd preceive me had you known my situation. broke and unemployed and mentally done with everything. i wouldnt be too surprised if i ended up on the streets. come back for more, or don't!

— jude

To joseph, Ex

I'm not over it, but I'm over you.

— m

To hannah,

im proud of myself for breaking away from your abusive gaslighting. you were way too old to be so creepy to others like that, you knew better and im not gonna ever let some bum talk to me that way ever again. i hope you grow and feel guilt so you dont hurt anyone ever again, and that you find joy in being a good person instead of a gross grooming weirdo.

— Anonymous

To Z,

i take comfort in knowing that no matter how big you and your friends get online, you'll slip up and accidentally show everyone how hideous you all are on the inside. grown adults shouldnt be talking to freshly 18 and 19 year olds the way yall do, humble yourselves and grow up.

— Anonymous

To Arghyasmit, 19,

yk what actually hurt me the most its the fact that you gave into her bs thinking she can change, you never ONCE thought about the other way around. you made you choice, so whatever you say to me now sounds like manipulation.

— ghost

To Victor, 16, Ex

I want you so bad, it’s not even funny anymore. You’re so infuriating, this cycle happens over and over again—I become increasingly infatuated with you because you start to give me attention, then I get angry because I want you to initiate shit that will probably NEVER happen because you would NEVER initiate anything. I’m also scared of you yet I want to hear your heartbeat to calm my nerves down. I want to hear your rhythmic heartbeat against my ear whilst you hold me tight.

— A P.

To someone, 16,

why weren't you more clear with what you wanted? i never knew if you actually liked me or just liked being flirtly. now it's too late. i'll watch you get married. and you'll name your daughter like me. and she will have your eyes and your laugh. and everything will be over. and i'll smile cause you'll smile and we won't regret anything. and i will stop waiting.

— Anonymous

To my parent,

your words hurt too, you know. i'm not a cold mean bitch with no feelings even though i never show them. i know i'm lucky to have you but sometimes you cross the line and you don't even notice, cause i never tell you. cause i'd rather excuse myself and cry in my room. i love you but you're mean sometimes.

— Anonymous