उलझन के अनकहे मैसेज

To Blue, Ex

Too often I wonder if you still think of me like I think of you. We didn't end on bad terms but I definitely took a step away. I needed time but I guess saving my flame lit our bridge on fire. I still think the world of you even if I don't seem like it. I wonder at night what goes on in your head. I dream of what could've been but I know it can never be. I just want things back to how they were. Please acknowledge me. Talk to me, anything. Please. I want my friend back.

— Red

To Nathaniel B., 15, Ex

Im sorry I didn't message. I loved texting you but sometimes I get so tired and silence is so much easier, I should've told you at the start so you never misinterpreted my silence. I'm like this with everyone and no matter how much I try I just can't change this part of me. I know its hard for you to start conversations, I should've still tried but it really is too late for that now. It's been months since we broke up and since we last spoke. Please stop ignoring me. I'm sorry I hurt you.

— AI M.

To Bas G., 21, Ex

I think about what happened all the time, you are constantly in my head. I still love you but to be honest I don't think I could ever forgive you I hate the way everything was my fault. You had no consideration for my feelings and I hope that everything that I went through will come back around to you. Whether that's directly to you, your future daughter or anyone you love. When it completely destroys them I hope you think of me. I hope I never leave your head and I hope your stuck with regret.

— Hana K.

To Universe,

Hello World, it’s me, purple. With lowercase. Because I know that the World doesn’t know me, or ever will, and I want to keep it that way. Anyway, I was told that lowercase names demonstrate how unimportant someone or something is. I used to write my name in lowercase, before any of that, simply because it was too much of a hassle for my little child mind. I was never good at writing nor reading, but it means so much to me now that I can. Purple.

— Purple

To my husband, 61,

I was told you past last year. We never got a chance to reconcile. You told me I would never forgive you. You were so wrong. I have actually fought for you. I have actually taken what happened and wrote to the government asking them to make additions to programs in schools for extended information on the dangers of pornography. You were sick. I am not angry with you. In fact, I admire your strength that you went and worked on what you were experiencing. I miss you and love you.

— Anonymous

To Orange,

“How’s it going?” No, that’s not the right way to start a conversation after years of silence. The truth is, I have no idea what to say to you, and I’m guessing you feel the same. I’m sorry you had to deal with me. I blame myself for my decision to tell you how I felt even knowing that it wasn’t true. But, I can tell you that the reason I did it was desperation. When I saw we were growing apart. I feared I would loose you as a friend. My best friend, thank you. Goodbye.

— Purple

To Pink,

I never really liked the color pink. Maybe because I thought it was ‘girlish’, or it was because I was purple, and you were pink, and when I was little I thought they were similar, or because I actually liked the color blue. Or it was because I wanted to be different. I think I wanted so badly to be noticed, that I would change who I was just to have ONE friend notice how similar I was to them. That maybe they would understand me more if I became them. Thank you for being there. I like red now.

— Purple

To Madysen, 16, Ex

You hurt me through our whole relationship and you were toxic but i was to blind to see and now i see it all but i cant help but still love you and want you, im with someone new but my heart still yearns for you, i would do anything to get my pretty baby back, to have you with me, and it hurt how you moved on in 3 months while i was still stuck loving you. You said we would try again. But i guess not everyone keeps their promises, i promised to love you forever and i will. I love you baby

— KJ

To Sunset E.,

Hey Sunset, I know it might be a surprise to get another letter from me. But this is my way of showing you, of telling you, how much I love you. I love you with everything I have, actually, more than I ever thought I could. Yes, I broke the deal. Say what you want, but it’s true. Even if you don’t believe me, I love you. I accept you, I see you, completely. I always struggled with love because I thought it was just a distraction, but ever since you came, I understand why it’s worth everything.

— Bee

To Hardy, 29, Crush

When will you ever notice me? It's like standing on the platform, holding words I never got to say. My heart feels like it's about to burst because I've been holding this in for so long. i just want to tell you that I LIKE YOU SO MUCH, I LOVE YOU. I don't expect anything in return. I guess 15 years is long enough to wait for a chance, do I still have to continue counting? I'm getting married soon, and it feels unfair to leave these feelings unsaid.

— Sway Late

To Hardy, 29, Crush

I switched your name from the silly nickname to your real one. Maybe someday you'll come across this and smile. I've been craving a food just yesterday, but I won't tell what is it, or it might be too obvious. I was kinda hoping to see you yesterday, but no luck. BUT STILL, at least I got a little closer to where you are, so I'll take it as a little win? I guess? I've got a bunch more messages for you under my nickname, sway late hehehe. See you..not too soon, but hopefully not too late either.

— Sway Late

To Universe,

It's hard to hold on to the good feelings to get past the bad ones, I feel i'm going crazy after each day. I keep remembering my awful trip to Mangaratiba, even though it sucked for various reasons, i can only remember starring at the starry sky, the wind from the sea, the shaky leaves of the neightbour's palm tree, i felt peace, it made me feel that i belong there, the only place that made me feel no worries at all. i miss you, i hope i see you again, wonderfull city.

— Enzo F.

To Hector M., Crush

I wish we were more than bestfriends. Other people flirt with you and it makes me so jealous even when you aren’t even realizing they are. I hate that you think your not good for dating just because u got left, its not true and i want to be your lover forever

— Anonymous

To Adonis R.,

I see all of your messages and I always want to reply. I see you typing and it breaks me every single time. You won't let me go and I don't want you to but we can't ever speak again. I don't know how to handle this. I know you want me to be happy for the both of us but how can I when my heart breaks all over again every day. I don't want you to stop messaging but seeing it is tearing me apart. So here we are. ..I just wish... It was different

— Anonymous

To marcus, Child

there's not a day i didn't think of you since we last saw each other. i'm sorry for everything i did, i know how hurt you have been. i wish i could go back and do things right so that maybe we didn't have to hurt so much. i've been recovering from everything, and didn't want to reach out until i'm out of the woods completely. take care of yourself always. and i'm always here in case you need me. i love you so much. forever and ever.

— k A.

To Clay A.,

i write to you in a lot of anonymous messages sites and its lowkey pathetic but i'd rather do this than be unfair to you and reach out again after all i've done. im sorry for being a hypocrite, i miss being friends with you. and i hope you never find my messages

— Spongebob

To Kyle T.,

Hi kyletot, you may or may not know who sent this but just know that I've been admiring you ever since we met. I love your humor, your love for cats and syempre yung pagiging ikaw mismo. Tbh I didn't know na aabot ako sa ganito kasi even I myself only saw you as my friend dati, not until makuha mo ako sa iyong mga funny jokes at banter mo, lol. Idk tho if you will ever reciprocate this feeling nor if you feel the same way, pero one thing for sure is that I love you, always in all ways.

— Amria T.

To R C.,

Hey, I just wanted to say im missing you. We've been good on our "no contact" again and while im impressed, its still sad. Ive been doing good trying to get back into my positive mindset and focusing on happy thoughts and focusing on myself and what I want, my life, etc. I just hope you know that even though im also being good at no contact, im still thinking of you, missing you, daydreaming of you, I know we'll talk again soon. Until then, I hope you are happy and taking care of yourself ♡

— K B.

To Jhon M.,

I miss you broskie, miss ko na bonding at kulitan natin at mga corny jokes mo. 😆 Kahit corny man yung iba mong jokes I will not deny na napapatawa at saya mo pa rin ako, lovelots your mowm.

— Amria T.

To Jhon M.,

Hi, Jhon if you're seeing this I just wanna tell you that I think I'm starting to like you, there's feelings growing everytime we talk and I can feel butterflies in my stomach because of your banters and jokes. I like talking to you, it's one of the things I look up to everyday when I wake up. Tbh, I'm just shocked and sad because you unfollowed me on ig and you changed. You're not the Jhon I used to know, you don't talk to me now like and don't chat and spam me reels like u used to. I miss it

— amria T.

To Adonis R.,

I wish we had more time. I wish we did things right. I wanted it to be you so badly. I don't know what the future holds but I know that I'll always be on the other side of the moon. I'll always feel you in the wind, the rain, everything. I will never forget you for as long as I live. They chose me to go where we talked about, I'll be thinking of you. If I don't return, just know...you were always on the other end of my red string. Je' taime et Désolée.

— Anonymous

To Elin, Friend

I know you’re okay know (at least I think so), I can’t help but worry. You confided in me your depression and suicidal thoughts, and I’ve helped you. At least I tried. I know there’s only so much I can do for you but I keep on worrying. I made myself appear strong for you and now I don’t dare to be weak. Perhaps it’s my own mistake for not setting boundaries. But I’ll be weak here instead, where you’ll never know. I love you. Please don’t leave me.

— Anonymous

To ryan S., Ex

i loved you. you were everything i did NOT need. I was blinded by “love”. However, i thank you for giving the girl i once was the most love she had ever felt. Ive moved on now. Thank you rya. i dont miss us, but i wish you the best🤍

— Anonymous

To Noah B., 17, Ex

Hey.. I don’t know if you’ll ever see this but I miss you. I can’t bring myself to delete our chats, my sketches of you. I’m trying to move on by compartmentalizing, but it’s hard when I still don’t have answers. I’m sorry you felt that becoming strangers was the only way to fix things. I’ll always be your energy and your cheerleader, even if it’s hard. It destroys me that I can’t say this to the face I never got to see, but you still have a home with me, okay? I love you, always & forever, bye.

— Kavya