पछतावे के अनकहे मैसेज

To adrià, 16,

i could've sworn you liked me back. i just wish i’d been brave enough to love you out loud. btw i used your favorite color.

— croqueta

To Fatin, 15, Friend

hi tin, it's raina. i wanted to thank you, for being someone i can open up to when i'm at my lowest. someone i can run to when the world is mean to me. someone who's lent me a shoulder for years now. i'm sorry i go to boarding school, and i can't spend as much time as i used to with you. but i want you to know that i'm so grateful and happy that i have a friend like you. someone i can call a best friend, someone who has the biggest heart ever. i love you, fatin -rhh

— RH

To L J.,

Never knew love at first site nor never been heartbroken. But now i know what both feel like. It was brief but it was the best few weeks of getting to know someone ever in my 40+ years of living. Never knew my soulmate until i met you. Right person wrong time. Wish we could have given it a shot to see what could have happened. Disappointed but get it.

— Anonymous

To mia, Crush

putting this here bc ive got more to say. i really wish i had the courage to reach out. to say something, anything. i really liked you. i was a coward. you were cool as hell. we were young. you helped me learn a lot about myself. we've grown, we've changed. i've moved on. you never knew. we graduate this year. i thought about you again yesterday. i still listen to your song. i kept that first (and last) text you sent me. i hope adulthood treats you well, wherever you are and wherever you go.

— Anonymous

To Damia, Ex

Hi. Yes, this is Garnet. It's been almost 3 yrs. I stumbled into this site and was writing messages so I thought I'd do 1 4 u. It took me 2yrs to forget. I didn't know struggled with depression and severe attachment issues. I'm doing better, I think. What about you? I hope I didn't make you entirely hate me. We were kids, I understand. I'm sorry if I was acting stubborn back then. I'm really embarrassed about it. I wish we could catch up again. Well, if you'd evn 👀 this. That's all. Contact me?

— Garnet A.

To Afia M., 19,

It was always you.It is still you.It will always be you.I left without words, consumed by fear and guilt,because I thought our love was prohibited.I tried to make myself believe being with a guy would fix me ,erase my feelings for you, but he only ruined me.I lost myself trying to escape what I truly felt, from whom I truly loved. In leaving you,I hurt you and destroyed something beautiful, and I regret it deeply.I am truly sorry for everything. I still love you, and perhaps i always will<3

— Anonymous

To T, 22,

it’s me. i hesitated sending that moon photo to you. i know, i know —i look so desperate when i do that, i am unfortunately fully aware of it. but hey, at least this time i did not remove it like how i always do because i regret it a second later. i want to tell you all the good and bad about my life right now, but i won’t simply for my sanity. i don’t know why i do this, i hope the day that i begin to not care about you comes quickly. i miss you.

— A

To tyler, Friend

watching you slowly destroy yourself with drugs is killing me. please get help before it's too late

— Anonymous

To dakota, 19, Friend

you moved away to university and promised we'd stay close but you've become a stranger. i miss who we used to be together

— Anonymous

To luna D., 17, Friend

you're dealing with body dysmorphia and i wish i could make you see yourself through my eyes. you're absolutely stunning

— Anonymous

To Thomas, 22,

You don’t know it, but I added your city in my Weather App. Maybe that alone speaks so much how much I want you in my life, but you don’t want me and I understand that that’s all you can offer me. I am still navigating my way into moving on and figuring out if what I felt was already something deep, but one thing’s for sure — I miss you so much, Thomas, I hope I held you tighter and kissed you longer until I can’t anymore. I wish I looked back at you that night.

— A

To ethan M., 20, Ex

you broke my heart into a million pieces and somehow i still love you. three years later and i still think about what we could have been

— Anonymous

To sage, 20, Friend

i know you're struggling with your mental health and i wish i could take all your pain away. you don't have to carry this alone

— Anonymous

To Finn, 20, Friend

i know you think therapy is bullshit but watching you destroy yourself with alcohol and drugs is killing me. please get help before it's too late

— Anonymous

To best friend R., 27,

i can never forgive myself for not checking in on you more often when you stopped responding. i thought you might wanted to be left alone, wondering what i did wrong. it took weeks until your last online stat updated. in 2 months, i only asked you once how you've been. 2 days later you were dead. i didn't know you were in the hospital fighting for your live. if i only messaged you more often. perhaps you would have told me and i would have had the chance to visit you. i'll miss you forever.

— Anonymous

To becca, 17, Friend

you were right about him. he did cheat on me just like you said he would. i should have listened to you instead of calling you jealous and crazy

— hannah

To phoenix, 20, Ex

i wish i could go back and fight harder for us instead of just giving up when things got difficult. you were worth fighting for

— Anonymous

To sage, 19, Ex

you said you'd never leave like everyone else did but here we are. i should have known better than to trust someone with my heart again

— Anonymous

To blake, 19, Friend

you're the most genuine person i know and i feel so fake compared to you. i wish i had your confidence to just be myself

— mia

To cam, 18, Friend

i replay our last conversation over and over wondering if there was something i could have said to make you stay. probably not but i can't stop thinking about it

— Anonymous

To alex, 17, Parent

i wish i could tell you that i'm bisexual without you making it weird or asking invasive questions. i just want you to know the real me

— Anonymous

To my parent, 17,

i wish i could take back every time i said i hated you when i was angry. you're my mom and despite everything, i love you

— Anonymous

To mom, 20, Parent

i still flinch when people raise their voice because of how much you used to scream at me. you fucked me up and you don't even care

— Anonymous

To my parent, 17,

i wish i could tell you that your constant criticism is the reason i hate myself. your words echo in my head every single day

— Anonymous