what i meant

To Esmee, 16, Friend

I love you, I fucking hated Brielle, because you kept changing yourself for people who don't care about you. I saw yyou for you, yet you never wanted me. I stayed nights crying about you and I'll never forget you. I miss you. I miss the nights we'd stay awake to talk about Arctic monkeys. Remember when you said we're miles Kane and Alex Turner on discord? Those were my best nights. Come back, I miss you. Why did you leave with no word at all?

— You'll know

To Sirius,

Beneath the moon's soft, silver gleam, A wolf's heart held a star's bright dream. A bright spark, a fiery blaze, A quiet, moonlit haze. Their souls entwined, a whispered vow, But fate's cold hand, it pulled them now. A wolf howled low, a star's light waned, Apart forever, love remained.

— Yours.

To C, Crush

I never even told you how I looked, how I felt, how I sounded. Yet you told me your deadname, sent me your face, sent me voice messages almost every week. You thought I was dead and still kept writing to me because I begged you to keep telling me your stories, and you did. Who could want someone more than that? But I have a girlfriend, and you do too. Sometimes I wonder what could’ve been if I wasn’t weird, if I kept starving to be perfect for you, even if you didn’t care. Talk to me, please.

— S

To john hunner,

i wish i could stop thinking about you. i miss you.

— Anonymous

To steph S.,

We used to be soooo close, but i think im happier not being friends as much as it hurts. you let your insecurities get in-between our friendship. i cannot forget things you said to me. nor can i forget actions you chose to take. im happy, though. sincerely. and i wish the best for you and ben. maybe in the future we can laugh about this over some wine. hmu when im 40, lol p.s. sorry for the drama. yk how the telephone game works lol

— e

To someone,

dear K, in the beginning, i thought it wouldnt be a big deal. but now, i cant stop thinking about you. every now and then, i wonder what are you doing. i still like you, even if i wont see you anymore. i really thought you might just come to me and say something. but, of course, it didnt happen. im just a girl, not the girl, right? miss you.

— Anonymous

To niki B., Friend

we havent talked much since graduation. ive noticed you stopped reaching out, and stopped wanting to hang out. if your goal was to hurt me, you won. there’s this little girl at work that looks just like you when we were in kindergarten. it hurts my heart when i see her, i think of you. i hope you can tell me if i hurt you. i never meant to. i still consider you one of my closest friends. please reach out niki. me and my family miss you dearly. - e

— e

To ari R., Friend

I truly adore you as a friend. Never once have you made me feel lesser than you. although i do worry what you think of me, considering the erik situation. i tried my best to be honest and transparent. i hope you guys dont see me as a bad person. i love you guys. i know i get distant, but never question my love for you and g. you guys rock.

— e

To vic H., 18, Ex

don’t let your ego too high. I am the reason you have changed the way you are. you told me to my face i was hard to love, but did you ever consider how hard it is to love someone like you? to love someone who was always so constantly negative? you know how hard it was to force myself to love you? very, very hard. i suggest you reflect on your actions and take a step back. lower your ego before someone does it for you. best wishes. p.s. im much happier now. thanks for being a pos :3

— e

To mara, 18, Friend

thank you for always being here for me even tho we went through a lot i hope you will find great people in poland, but i'm sure none of them will shine as bright as you!

— kid

To matcha latte, Ex

you will actually never see this but i always think about the cross necklace that you gave me. when something wasn't right for me, it always broke and i took it as a sign every single time. thank you for guiding me back to the right path.

— anuta

To geo,

this color really reminds me of you for some reason. i unfollowed you recently just because i felt it wasn't right to keep contact... even tho i wanted to. you are really special to me. when i met you i thought you were the one for me. i noticed that i'm like gravitating towards you in some way. lots of songs remind me of you, but u blocked me on spotify so i guess not anymore. i actually liked you, maybe even more geo. summer and december 2025

— a M.

To emi, 18, Ex

that hug meant everything for me. i hope i never lose contact with you again. i loved you and always will! i'll never do anything about it tho, you got exactly what you wanted.

— A M.

To erika,

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— Anonymous

To Trae G., Ex

Oh I hate you I hate you I hate you. Why am I such an idiot to ever believe you could possibly want to change and be a better person for me. I really believed it this time. Things seemed completely different. I thought we both grew into better people. Thought, maybe I was overreacting & just crazy. But no. No. This whole time. Nothings been different. You just learned how to hide it really good. Made me look a fool. You are a selfish, evil, sadistic man.

— Ex

To Ozzy,

I know you'll never see these. But I need to get this all off my chest. I just feel heavy and exhausted from everything that happened. I wish you actually got to know me as a person. I feel like you never really got to know me. Maybe that's why you don't understand me. I'm sorry I was so awkward. It wasn't anything to do with you. It was just the feelings I had inside about myself. I would've never gone out of my way to hurt you and still wouldn't even though I think you don't give af about me.

— Ex Friend

To Ozzy,

Sometimes I hate you and never want to talk to you again. And sometimes I really miss you and want to forgive you. I don't know how to feel because this whole situation confuses tf outta me. Sometimes I wonder if our friend lied. Because it doesn't make sense. But I don't want to assume she's lying. I just wish I knew the reasoning behind this. I know there's something being hidden from me. Is it true you said you wouldn't care if I got back with him? Was that a lie? Is that why you hate me?

— Ex Friend

To Ozzy,

It just shocked me cause I never expected you to do that. I thought you were someone I could trust. I'm sorry I told you what I was going through I didn't know it would get your boyfriend in trouble. I would've never asked you for help if you didn't offer it. I thought it would be fine cause I didn't think you'd offer that to me if you didn't mean it but ig I should just never ask for help if I'm in danger again and just kill myself next time. Since nobody cares what I go through.

— Ex Friend

To Ozzy,

I thought so highly of you. I thought you were so sweet. Even though we weren't extremely close, I really valued you and our friendship. Then you lash out at me when I'm in my most weakest, vulnerable, darkest point. And ignore and abandoned me when I try to talk to you about it. It feels like you never cared about me as much as you led me to believe. I might've seemed emotionless in the moment, but I was in shock from a lot of things. But what you said surely destroyed me on the inside.

— Ex Friend

To Ozzy,

I don't get how you could talk to me that way when you knew what I was going through. That was one of the worst days of my life. Everything I ever knew died and fell apart. And you acted like my suffering didn't matter and was just an inconvenience to you. I don't know if I could ever trust you again. Just why. Why would you do that. You really don't know most of what I've been through. And even if you did...would you even care?

— Ex Friend

To Ozzy,

I really wish you talked to me when I tried to reach out. I really wish I knew the reason why you hate me and got so angry. I really never meant to hurt you. You hurt me really bad... and when I was already going through one of the worst moments of my life. I feel like you don't care about me. I also worry I might've hurt your feelings by going back to him. But our friend insisted you wouldn't care...I feel so confused and lost. I wish I knew the truth.

— Ex Friend

To Addi S., 14, Ex

I love you…. Like. I know we ended things because of a specific reason which you’ll know but i miss you. You and S are kind of together according to her and i want it to be me. Yours truely. L.

— Anonymous

To Jimena,

Please I just want to know what was going on in your head when you saw me or thought about me. If you ever thought about me. Did those looks mean anything. Was it good? Or was it bad? I don’t know why ive been thinking about you. I stopped liking you months ago so long. Maybe I just need closure.

— Anonymous

To Nickles, Ex

I can’t sleep. I wish I could call you. You always made me feel better.

— Anonymous