गोंधळ व्यक्त करणारे न पाठवलेले मेसेज

To Manja, Crush

This writing is sincerely from my heart..... Aby minta maaf sangat dekat manja walaupun dah berkali kali aby minta maaf tapi kalini aby betul2 rasa sedih and menyesal sangat. There's so much things i lost from you because of my behavior..... Aby tak mintak pun jadi macamni :(. Please dont break the promise to marry each other sayang.... I love you so much sayang. Take your time and please let me try again to be a better person for you....

— Ai

To T,

I remember faces well. I remember what my doctor looked like in second grade. You know, for the life of me, I can't remember your face. I see you, and then I think for a second, and it's gone. You seem to evade me even in my own mind, maybe that's a sign. Edit: I just came back to this tab a while later. You texted me back, we had a nice conversation although you carried it lol. I can sort of picture you now, at least more than before or something. Maybe i'm getting somewhere.

— ARP

To R C.,

Tonight told me youd applied for another store, in a different state. I gotta say, my heart hurts. But truly, I want you happy and I want you successful, and if this is what you wanna do, please do, I won't tell you what to do or try to stop you and I genuinely mean that. But I am sad, and it hurts, but id take sadness if it means you'll be succesful somewhere else. Thank you for telling me. Go be awesome in Maine, ill be supporting you.

— K B.

To dad, Parent

GCSEs are here and you havent said goodluck to me even once. prom is coming up yet you havent contributed a single thing towards it. not money, no emotions, not even suggested your presence. maybe i should be used to it by now, but its like a shack to the system ever time you let me down. i love you but if you dont want to be a dad then dont, just stop bringing me down into your sad selfish pity parade expecting me to help even though you do nothing for me.

— Anonymous

To T, Crush

Rowing's over and I won't see you again. That's not true, I might physically see you, but talk to you? No. I texted you and you haven't responded and it's been days. Maybe I'm too anxious.

— ARP

To R C.,

Come on...ive told ive been anxious and panicky a few times and ive gotten nothing out of you?? And then I tell you that I appreciate your help for working out some scheduling issues and all you say is "no problem"... again, Im just acting like I dont care and that how your talking to me doesnt upset me...acting like your robotness or whatever youre doing doesnt phase me and acting like everytbing is normal but...you always help me when im anxious...why aren't you now?

— K B.

To someone,

I did everything I could to prove my parents wrong, to make myself proud of myself, for my friends to like me, and for my husband to appreciate me. I have never discredited the help I received to get to where I am today but why does it feel like I am nothing without it. I have done everything I can but It’s never enough. I am never enough. I will not stop trying but it hurts me every single day when I am just short of being seen. I hurt so bad.

— Anonymous

To ayansh S., 15, Ex

is it ever really gonna be over between us? /p after jill ofc - your early wednesday morning of January 31 2024. ❤️ (not a blue heart btw)

— Anonymous

To vivi, Friend

i like you. like a lot. i think about you all the time and almost every little thing reminds me of you. i love the way you smile at me in the hallway in between classes. i love all our inside jokes. i love when you say frickle frackle. i love your laugh. i love your music taste. i love your hair and beautiful eyes. i love your chocolate pretzels, frickle frackle, vivi, i love you. i am never going to tell you this because i value our friendship so much that i don’t want to risk losing you. ily.

— Anonymous

To Charles S., 18, Crush

You hurt me, yet I still want you so bad. You made me feel so special and wanted. You made me think you wanted me back. How dumb I was to think that you were different from other men. How foolish I was to think you would be better. But at the end of the day you're just a man. I was stupid to think that you wouldn't have hurt me. Cause at the end of the day, who would want someone like me. Apparently not you.

— Anonymous

To jahnarr,

you haunt me even though I know you never loved me. but it was too intimate. reach out someday and give me closure. I wont reach back. im in love with another.

— Anonymous

To mark s, Ex

i'm thinking of you and sometimes i read messages back and we were so perfect i dont understand what went wrong but then i realised that maybe i was the only one who actually cared and you were js lying to me all along. i wonder how many girls you were actually thinking about when you were telling me you loved me cos i know it wasn't just me. i have bad dreams about you every night it scares me so much and i need comfort. i guess you finally achieved your goal of ruining me.

— Anonymous

To Mike H., Crush

My world revolved around you and you forced the responsibility of saving your life. The trauma in my life began when you took yours. 25 years I lived with the guilt of not understanding you were asking for help. I was only 16 and thought I loved you, and I had no life skills. No one offered me help, no one asked me to talk about it, no one knew you told me. I've lived with guilt, fear of abandonment, fear of allowing someone to get close to me, and you took my life when you took yours.

— S

To Robert M., Ex

I was falling for you. I know that wasn't the plan. I have no resentment from the choice you made to walk away. I know you've made mistakes in your life, but all I ever wanted and deserved was the truth from you. Instead I got no answers, no explanation, and no closure. I am reminded of this everytime I look at my son and somehow I dont have the ability to hate you.

— Anonymous

To Jason L., 19, Ex

please reach out again. life is short and you are important to me. it's always your choice, but i never want to shut you out. i need you to know the door is ALWAYS open for you. please don't misunderstand but i have to much i want to clarify to you. i just dont want you disrupt your life. i hope we talk again but it's okay if we don't.

— J B.

To someone,

You’re a waste of a human. You cheat , lie , threaten , steal , blackmail . And god knows what. You gave your daughter PTSD . Single handedly ruined your youngest son’s mental state of mind. Didn’t give them a future to look forwards to. Couldn’t create a savings for them couldn’t teach them couldn’t care for them and be there for them. Yet you call yourself a mother and a grandmother ? That title has been no where near earned for you what so ever . You failed tremendously as a mother

— Anonymous

To someone,

People get born into things they don't ask for. Oh, if only my name wasn't in records. If only I knew whose.

— Anonymous

To T, Crush

Maybe one day I'll be able to tell you. But, uhh, otherwise, i dunno. I've noticed the way I write changes with whatever I've read last. Even on paper, I guess, nothing is mine. Not even my style.

— ARP

To Maxwell, Ex

You had no right to ask them for that. Any of them. They were hurt by it, annoyed by it, and they want to be left alone. The words you thought dripped like honey from the corners of your mouth dripped instead like clotted blood. You are disgusting. I hate you, all of them do too. You were a sheep dressed in sheep's clothing, and you thought you were a wolf.

— ARP

To T,

I was never good at moving on from things. Max, for one. Not moving on from liking them, but moving on from that horrible feeling of betrayal that can only be described by the drawing on my wall. The black and blue and purple one. If only my name wasn't known to some people, if only my name wasn't in records and if it didn't loom over me and make me pick my words, I'd be free. If only I wasn't afraid of coming off to people like Max did to me, I'd be free. If every day was evening at rowing, I'd

— ARP

To T, Crush

Idk if i run my mouth about this website then you might end up seeing this message. I prolly will, but rowing is over and i don't think i'll ever end up in a conversation with you again. Dammit. Damn my social anxiety. Damn my stupid mind and my stupid pessimism. Damn the fact that i only like myself at rowing because i can be free there and nowhere else. Damn hating myself after max. Damn my aggression and damn not thinking before i speak. I don't love war and that text wasn't a bet. Sorry. Cya

— ARP

To T, Crush

I love you. I wish you knew. I hope you do. After Max, I thought I couldn't love. I thought my only love was the feeling of rowing on the river. You've been so kind to me, more than you'll ever know. Even if it was just being nice. But no one just picks up my glasses off the grass after I get my hat back from R and gives them back to me, especially after watching from such a distance. Idk. That was so effing cool of you and you'll never know. Thanks.

— ARP

To Cyrus,

I guess it all started with a mistake, continued with illusions and ended with nothing. It was just me, all alone, holding a pen to write a script that no one, including you would ever know. From the very moment as you hide behind someone when I saw you, I knew the script must be ended. For the final act of the script, I’ll disappear in your sight. No more monologues from me; no more scattered dialogues from us. Goodbye.

— S

To Erin, 19, Ex

Happy birthday, I wanted to wish you a happy birthday to show I do still care and support you even if you will never speak to me again. I know you won’t see this but I wish you the best of luck.

— Anonymous