अपराधीपणा व्यक्त करणारे न पाठवलेले मेसेज

To Menta M.,

The fact that you refused to acknowledge what your sister was doing and write it off hurts. Especially considering how you were one of my safe spaces. You laughed in my face, called me dramatic and still expect me to run to your arms with the same childish ignorance from before. It's horrible how you've done it before but it was a matter of time for me because you chose Auntie over your daughter and my mom. Things will never be the same. I hope you understand why. Understand where you messed up.

— Red M.

To Risotto A., 16, Friend

Lizi baby why didn't you tell me what was happening... I would've helped you. It hurts to think you're not okay. I feel like I've failed you as a friend for not noticing. I know I never say it but I love you and you're honestly my favorite friend. You've always been.

— Anonymous

To someone,

i wish u had given me another chance, not because I deserve it, I know I don't, but because seeing u every day and not being able to talk to u and call u and laugh with u feels worse than I ever could've imagined. I want u to know how sorry I am, everything I did was unexcusable, and u deserve so much more. and I want u to know I really want to change, regardless of if u let me back into ur life, I'm going to change. when u hugged me over and over yesterday, Ik u were not sober but I love you sm

— Anonymous

To Blue N., Ex

Why are you shutting me out again? I don't mean this with anger I mean it with guilt, I thought we were getting better. We all hung out for an entire night and we laughed together, danced, sung and everything, it was all like before but now when I try to talk to you privately it's a brick wall. Please I just want my friend back, I wish we never happened. I wish I never messed it up to begin with.

— Red A.

To Shanna, Ex

You were the best thing in my life. I'm sorry I didnt recognize it until I lost you. I spent my life looking for something that was right in front of me. I wish I could rewind time and fix the pain I caused. I know I don't deserve you, but I wish you would give me another chance. If not me, then at least I hope whoever is in your life does not make the same mistake.

— Anonymous

To R C.,

Its 12:35 am, I just woke up from a nap, and i wish you were here. I wish I could hear your sleepy voice and I wish I could have my hands in your hair and I wish I could rub your arm, your softness gives me comfort. I bet when you laugh when your tired it sounds cute. I wish we could be corny and dorky together, but thats always the case when we are comfortable together, I just miss it at this moment. I love how everything feels so natural with us, nothing feels forced, I never feel that way

— K B.

To R C.,

We saw eachother again today and sooo many times i wanted to tell you I love you and how much I love you. It honestly is really hard to hold back sometimes. You looked really nice today and I always like looking in your eyes and seeing the love you hold in them. Its been nice allowing myself to be a bit touchy, it feels so natural when im with you and your skin is so soft. I also love seeing you slightly smile and your eyes get sparkly. I wish I could be with you tonight, i love you, take care ♡

— K B.

To R C.,

Today i told that ive been writing to on a website and you told me to write about today, and tell future you the things I wanted to say. Today we had alot of fun at work and im glad you came to visit. It went alot different than how I imagined for sure lol. Today I really wanted to tell you that I love you (so many times). I had to hold to myself back alot from saying it, and grabbing you and kissing you. I love your eyes and how big and sparkly brown they are. If only you knew how I felt

— K B.

To Girish D., Crush

You're so beautiful, Girish, and I've liked you for about a month(?) or so. You're so polite, smart, silly, and quite similar to me, and you make me happy even if you don't notice I'm there. We haven't had a class together since 9th grade, so you probably don't remember me. I love you so much, and I may sound weird right now, but Girish I do genuinely love so many things about you, I wish I could tell you...but I'm just the quiet girl. You're so beautiful, and I really want you to know that.

— Anonymous

To You,

You'll never know the pain I went through, I'll never know yours. I just wanted to be friends and I messed up... I didn't mean to hurt you. I ghosted you, I didn't want to deal with that, I know you were worried and unstable. I never felt anything romantic towards you. I can't go out to the theater on cold nights anymore. I start shaking, have panic attacks. I was accused of things I never did. You'll never know, but I still reread your last note to me. And I don't know if I should've responded.

— Anonymous

To R C.,

Lately ive been thinking about all the things youve done for me, whether that's buying me things, or taking me into considering, just everything you do. The sewing class, the music studio stuff, hayley tickets, the flowers, the semester box, random gifts. You deserve someone much better than me. Im not worth your time or love. You've done incredible things for me and I DO NOT deserve it at all. I wish I was able to accept you fully into my life, and show you how I feel I wish I could reciprocate

— K B.

To dad, Parent

GCSEs are here and you havent said goodluck to me even once. prom is coming up yet you havent contributed a single thing towards it. not money, no emotions, not even suggested your presence. maybe i should be used to it by now, but its like a shack to the system ever time you let me down. i love you but if you dont want to be a dad then dont, just stop bringing me down into your sad selfish pity parade expecting me to help even though you do nothing for me.

— Anonymous

To someone,

I did everything I could to prove my parents wrong, to make myself proud of myself, for my friends to like me, and for my husband to appreciate me. I have never discredited the help I received to get to where I am today but why does it feel like I am nothing without it. I have done everything I can but It’s never enough. I am never enough. I will not stop trying but it hurts me every single day when I am just short of being seen. I hurt so bad.

— Anonymous

To R C.,

Ive been thinking about you. Theres so much I wanna tell you. Ive been really deep in thought about alot of things. I wish I could put my thoughts into words and actually process my emotions. I just hope you are doing well, and theres alot I wish I could say, but one day...we'll get there. I hope you have a good night.

— K B.

To Bluejay M., 27, Ex

I'm so sorry I'm sorry for making the wrong choice I'm sorry for driving you away I'm sorry I cared so much so fast you were ripped from me the second everything clicked in my mind now I sit here everyday and think about you over and over and how beautiful my life would be if I got to share it with you you will always be the one that got away you will always be my most heartbreaking goodbye and last kiss. I know I'm hated now and that kills me slowly each day. I just want to hold you. So bad.

— ObiAni K.

To mark s, Ex

i'm thinking of you and sometimes i read messages back and we were so perfect i dont understand what went wrong but then i realised that maybe i was the only one who actually cared and you were js lying to me all along. i wonder how many girls you were actually thinking about when you were telling me you loved me cos i know it wasn't just me. i have bad dreams about you every night it scares me so much and i need comfort. i guess you finally achieved your goal of ruining me.

— Anonymous

To Mike H., Crush

My world revolved around you and you forced the responsibility of saving your life. The trauma in my life began when you took yours. 25 years I lived with the guilt of not understanding you were asking for help. I was only 16 and thought I loved you, and I had no life skills. No one offered me help, no one asked me to talk about it, no one knew you told me. I've lived with guilt, fear of abandonment, fear of allowing someone to get close to me, and you took my life when you took yours.

— S

To someone,

People get born into things they don't ask for. Oh, if only my name wasn't in records. If only I knew whose.

— Anonymous

To .ru,

i wish i knew where my blood is from and i wish i could believe ancestry.com but i know someone is lying

— Anonymous

To T,

I was never good at moving on from things. Max, for one. Not moving on from liking them, but moving on from that horrible feeling of betrayal that can only be described by the drawing on my wall. The black and blue and purple one. If only my name wasn't known to some people, if only my name wasn't in records and if it didn't loom over me and make me pick my words, I'd be free. If only I wasn't afraid of coming off to people like Max did to me, I'd be free. If every day was evening at rowing, I'd

— ARP

To T, Crush

Idk if i run my mouth about this website then you might end up seeing this message. I prolly will, but rowing is over and i don't think i'll ever end up in a conversation with you again. Dammit. Damn my social anxiety. Damn my stupid mind and my stupid pessimism. Damn the fact that i only like myself at rowing because i can be free there and nowhere else. Damn hating myself after max. Damn my aggression and damn not thinking before i speak. I don't love war and that text wasn't a bet. Sorry. Cya

— ARP

To Cyrus,

I guess it all started with a mistake, continued with illusions and ended with nothing. It was just me, all alone, holding a pen to write a script that no one, including you would ever know. From the very moment as you hide behind someone when I saw you, I knew the script must be ended. For the final act of the script, I’ll disappear in your sight. No more monologues from me; no more scattered dialogues from us. Goodbye.

— S

To kko, Crush

i wish we could go back to how it used to be. i much rather lose anyone but you. its all my fault. i would choose to be by your side in every lifetime. i love you so much.

— rjl

To kko, Crush

from now on, i will write you at least one letter per day. theres so much i wish i could build up the courage to tell you.

— rjl