Messages wey pipo no send about guilt

To Mum, Parent

Mum you say i can trust you with anything but I dont. I haven't told you about my crushes, or maybe Im a demigirl, or that I want to build a website kinda like this one. And theres no logical reason I shouldnt trust you. But I think that if you know about my crushes, you'll overreact & monologue about dating safety. and you'll always be checking my feelings and stuff. and you'll make sure i know internet safety. i should trust you, but i dont. and im sorry. Im just too sensitive sometimes.

— MK

To Noah, Crush

I love you. But is it really love? Can I really love you? Could anyone love me? I don't know. I don't think I'll ever know, right up until the day I die. But do you love me? You probably don't. You just see me as a friend, if anything. I don't know if I'll have the courage to tell you. And I know that if you don't like me, it will tear our small friend group apart. And I know we'll each find our other half. So I'm sorry. I'm sorry I don't want to be honest with you. I'm sorry, Noah.

— MK

To adrià M., 16, Crush

it feels wrong to pick the crush option cause i think you were way more than that. i wanted to tell you that i wasn’t being casual about any of it. that i was paying attention to every small thing, that it actually mattered to me. but i saw how easy it was for you and i didn’t want to make it heavy or awkward, so i just went along with it. i think you left thinking it meant less than it did, and i didn’t correct you.

— Anonymous

To Allysa Q., Ex

I should've asked you for help when I needed it. I should've told you that I still loved you and still wanted you in my life. It just seemed so hard to fix. You've moved on and it's been long enough that we don't know each other anymore. But I miss you. And I'd get to know you all over again if I ever got that chance. But I know I don't. I'm sorry I was so immature. I'm not 17 anymore. I'd like to believe I'm good now. I'd be good to you.

— Anonymous

To Josiah, Ex

I'm sorry we had to end, please still love me.

— J

To lincoln P., Ex

if you're ever reading this, I'm sorry. I never wanted anything to go the way it did and I'm sorry that it did. I hope you'll see this one day. I'm sorry. please reach out. I miss you.

— someone

To Tzvi,

i really hope you never find this, i really hope you dont care that much, i wish i could do something about all of these feelings but i need you for that. I always acted as the ''better one'' like i had already got over you, like if the other he was more important than you, ive been always a mess, i wanted and needed you to fix me even if its impossible, i still want and need you to, im not going anywhere with this. My dogs are okay, i hope youre okay. think about me. please, even if it hurts.

— its obvious

To Tzvi, Ex

Your name is so unique, if you ever find this itll be obvious who i am wich makes all of this less special. I love your name, i know you dont like yours, but i adore it. Im probably disturbing your peace by this, im selfish for writing this, maybe youve already moved on and im the prideful one thinking you will seriously spend your time trying to see if i did i love you, wich was one of your biggest concerns. I do, i do love you, and i need you to know that+

— its obvious

To Adrian, Ex

I’m sorry I didn’t show up. I hope you don’t hate me. Idk if you want me around still but regardless, I hope life treats you with the love and care you deserve. I may not be there physically, but I’ll always be rooting for you, even if we forget about each other. Because you deserve nothing but the best. <3

— Anonymous

To bholuu,

I am sorry for being so damn irresponsible

— Anonymous

To Lily M., 13, Crush

Lily I know we’re still friends, but we’re JUST friends. I know it’s selfish of me to want more even though you like someone else. I know you think of me as just your best friend, but I don’t know how long I can keep acting like I don’t love you. You always speak so casually, telling me how much you love me. I know you don’t mean it like that, but I still cling onto that little hope that just maybe you really do love me back. I love you, please don’t ever leave me.

— Skylar M.

To R C.,

I soooo soooo badly wish I could visit you at the hospital. I wish I could show you that I care for you the way you care for me. I wish my situation didnt make me feel so restricted when it comes to things like this. Im sorry this is happening to you, im worried for you, I just wish you knew. One day ill be able to be there for you in the ways you want and need and im extremely sorry I cant do that right now. This is making me feel so bad. I hope you feel better soon. Stay healthy for me please♡

— K B.

To Munazzah, Friend

I hate you for leaving me like that. Imysm and i hate it. I wish i could just forget about you just like you forgot me i still love you so much and i really hate myself much more now

— K

To bholuu,

Your smile is the most prettiest thing i have ever witnessed, i wish i could capture you red blushing cheeks every second you smile.

— Anonymous

To Nyx C., Friend

It's not your fault, I was just overthinking everything. I don't believe you tho, were you excited to see me or him? I should've never said anything,and I'm sorry for being "rude" that's just the way I am.

— Anonymous

To Deima, 19,

I miss you, I’m sorry for everything and the things I said. I don’t want u to see me as the person I was before because I’m not like that anymore, I’ve changed a lot. I still want you to be a part of my life as friends, you were the closest person to me and u were my best friend. I regret confessing to you and ruining our friendship because we could’ve been better friends if I didn’t say that to you. I wish you’d know that you can talk to me anytime, I’ll always be there for you, no matter what

— Anonymous

To Hardy, 29, Crush

I don’t even know why I did that, just to see you. I know you don’t really care, but at least I got to see you. I even went up to your room after three years. I know it was wrong, especially since I’m in a relationship. Still, I kept everything to myself. I’ve hidden these feelings for 15 years, and somehow they’re still here. Maybe one day I’ll have the courage to tell you, even if I already know this love is one sided.

— Sway Late

To Charlotte H., Ex

I wish I'd never let you go, at the time it felt like my only option and what you wanted. I should have tried harder to keep you in my life. I see you sometimes online and I wonder if I should reach out. But I never have the heart. If anything I'm still that shy boy who asked you to the Christmas dance 3 days before Halloween in 6th grade. Who spend a good 4 to 5 months building up that courage. Who couldn't go further than hugs.

— JT G.

To Kankana S., 18,

I was thinking about us a lot past two years, what we were 'love'? i am cynical about the term now but i longed for you. i forgot what happened and what could have been i cannot fine them the fine line disappeared long ago . i am no priest but i feel strange almost wrong heading other, maybe too young too hold on and too old to let go , i have accepted it all my fragility your ambitions our future but i still .... i will wait i won't ask i won't demand in my absolute silence i find you

— M M.

To Hardy, 29, Crush

I feel a strong urge to go out right now. Maybe I could see you somewhere. How do I stop this? This is so wrong. KAIRITAAA HAHAHAHA

— Sway Late

To ..., Friend

I'm sorry but we need we need to be friends I can't live without you I might just do it But that's guilt tripping isn't it and I can't say it even if it's true I'm just so sorry And I want to be over so bad

— Anonymous

To someone,

To my former teacher, who I view as my father figure for his gentle guidance. To my adfam, who was constantly there for my every achievement. And to the other people who believed in me, and helped me out. With my entire soul, Im so sorry for letting you all down. Recently I didn't passed my entrance exam to a university I've always mentioned and dreamt about. And I fear I would also fail my other CETs. It feels embarrassing that I've wasted yalls support. Im sorry for being a failure.

— Frencis

To Jason Z., 13, Crush

We masked our magnetic pull with jagged barbs, trading petty insults in third period to hide the cowardice that kept us apart. Every afternoon, we’d fall into a silent orbit on opposite sides of the road, tracing the same path home like satellites locked in a dance of avoidance. I’d adjust my pace to stay parallel with you, watching your backpack from across the asphalt, waiting for a bravery that never came. Then your desk was empty. No goodbye, just a hollow silence where our hello should have

— lola M.

To Ayden S., 15, Ex

Its not fair that you were always allowed to be upset with me but anytime I got even slightly upset with you it was a huge problem. You're the one that never defended my name and got to go out and talk to 20 girls but the second I talked to ONE guy you lost your mind. I miss you more than anything but I'm still so God damn mad and lost and confused about how things ended. Im sorry that I will never stop loving you Ayden.

— Dahlia