what i meant

To erika,

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— Anonymous

To erika,

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— Anonymous

To erika,

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— Anonymous

To erika,

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— Anonymous

To erika,

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— Anonymous

To someone,

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— Anonymous

To erika,

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— Anonymous

To erika,

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— Anonymous

To erika,

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— Anonymous

To someone,

Hey! I was just thinking about you and realized it's been forever since we actually talked. I was wondering how you've been and what you've been up to lately. No pressure or anything if you're busy, I just thought it'd be nice to catch up. Hope everythings been going good for you :). If you know who this is you have my socials -MB

— erika

To erika M.,

I feel like I dont know you at all which is crazy cause at some point I knew you so well. Sometimes I feel like you see me as just another person on earth while I see you as someone I once felt so deeply for. Someone i spent 8 months with. Im talking to this guy and hes amazing. Sometimes I'm scared that if I give him my all like i did with you it would end up terrible. gosh I wish i typed this out before sending it. Anyways 6/7

— Anonymous

To erika M.,

Before It was because they werent you but now its more of a I dont want to go through all of this again just to get my heart broken again which sounds so cringy. I feel like I'm not explaining this. I always have the perfect way to explain it in my head but when I start to talk about it boom its gone. I feel like our relation made me more avoidant then I already was. Sometimes I feel i cared about about you then you ever did for me. Sometimes when I would talk to you or even look at you 5/7

— Anonymous

To erika M.,

Still it wasnt enough. I always looked for you in other people. I think thats what held me back a ton too. I was looking for something that was gone. You arent the person I dated anymore. You changed a ton which I still find you to be as perfect as before. When it comes to relationships its hard now. Like i said before I could go to person to person. Now I cant even flirt with someone without feeling some kind of feeling of irk. 4/7

— Anonymous

To erika M.,

I sat in my room crying for days and even months. Thinking over and over again what I could have done to be better. To be the right person for you. I was so down in the dumps but after a while I tired to get up and put myself out there again which I did. I talked to some guy but all it did was made me feel guilty. Which before you I never felt this way. I was able to hop from one person to the next without really caring all that much. I even had this guy who would have done so much for me 3/7

— Anonymous

To erika M., Ex

I only really started to care once I met you. I started to focus more on trying to get better grades, I started to stop doing stupid things like smoking or what not. I started to learn how to communicate better in therapy cause I knew that I wanted to be something with you. I didnt want to be the person I was while I was with you. Which in the end I feel I was still that person and I didn't get better or really change until after. Cause after we broke up something changed. 3/7

— Anonymous

To erika M., Ex

I'm going to try and not ramble as much. I always wanted to talk to you about how our relationship affected me and not cause I want to make you feel guilty but I feel like maybe you can understand or get what I'm saying more then anyone since you are the person I dated. Truly it changed me a ton. I remember before we dated I didn't really care about a lot. My grades were bad, I would make out with anyone who asked, smoked, drank and did stupid stuff. 2/7

— Anonymous

To erika M., Ex

IF YOU SEE THOSE MESSAGES DISCARD IT I WANNA START OVER. 1/7

— Anonymous

To someone,

The moment I realized I didn't love you in a romantic way anymore is when I found out you went on a date. I sat there and thought of who it could be and I went to your following and knew. I will admit i shed a tear but after I realized I it wasn't really affecting me. I think all that time I was just holding onto the idea of what could have been. I was also upset cause i felt like I cared more about our relationship more then you ever did. What i felt for you was real and always will be. 3/??

— erika M.

To someone,

I guess what I’m saying is I loved you and sometimes I feel like I still do but I know I could never be with you romantically ever again. I always said that if you truly loved someone then that love never fully goes away, It just softens. I never told you fully how I felt cause I was afraid you wouldn’t want to be friends. even with my friends I never fully admitted what i feel. i always felt so guilty being your friend cause I felt like a fraud. 2/?? (the first message with 2/?? is act 1/??)

— Anonymous

To Kishan N., Crush

Maybe we should've gotten to know each other the first time we saw each other. So many missed opportunities and choices we had yet we chose the wrong time and we chose the wrong person to love. Me and you were never meant to be. I know that yet I can't help it.

— Angrypikachu

To erika M., Ex

I need to send this out into the world so I can stop thinking about it so much. I mourn our relationship more then I should. If I could go back and do things differently I would. I sometimes read our old messages from before we broke up and I noticed how unhappy we both were. I loved you. Even against my own religion and what my family wanted for me. I always felt like I would marry a man and never fully commit to a girl but you were the exception. message 2/??

— Anonymous

To gwen,

thank you for saving me. you’ll always be my best friend in my heart, soul, and forever in my life. you’re the brightest star in my universe. i miss you so much, it’s not even funny anymore. i love you so fucking much. i wonder if you’ll ever see this. you’re so pretty with your curly hair and so damn funny and talented. you’re everything a girl could ask for. you’re my best friend. my first soulmate. thank you for being there with me, since 6th grade. since everything. ily so damn much.

— Anonymous

To Herbert, Ex

Did this break up give you what you hoped for? Is it exactly what you thought it would be? Did you get what you wanted? Knowing you hurt me. Knowing you ruined us. Knowing you broke my trust. Knowing you just broke two years of love. I wanna hate you. I have no reason to not hate you. But I don't. I love you. So much. I want you back. We could work on us. We could fix everything broken. Come home H. My family misses you. I miss you. Just show me I can trust you and come back..lets fix it. Fix us

— T

To Herbert, Ex

I hope you think of me as much as I think of you. When you see the color pink or someone who's not afraid to be themselves. In hello kitty, in fashion, in the way people hit to show love. I hope you see me the way I see you. I see you in anime, Pokemon, that one song I won't name. I haven't listened to it. I can't. It would hurt too much. I miss you. When I hear about the marines I think about you. Please just come home. I wish you'd call. I wish you'd reach out.

— Still me.