what i meant

To david A., 20, Ex

there’s honestly not a lot to say ab u. i never told u how much of a pos u actually are. the selfishness, the way u used people when it benefited u. u spent so much time pretending to be someone else that i dont even know if theres a real version of you underneath all the lies. cathfishing people&using girls pictures, that’s genuinely disgusting. i look back now and realize i never knew u. cs everything ab u was fake. shows how empty and dishonest u are. it’s pathetic. nothing ab u was genuine

— Anonymous

To Girish D., Crush

I can list so many things I like about you, given the slim chance you actually know about this website and found my message to you and are curious about what I love about you. I'll list them; Your eyes, your smile, your voice, your laugh, your happy face, your focused face, your intelligence, your manners, you're polite, you were never rude to me, I love your culture tho I still want to learn about it, I love your name, your curly hair, your style, & I feel joy when I see you. 🩵

— Anonymous

To Girish D., Crush

You're so beautiful, Girish, and I've liked you for about a month(?) or so. You're so polite, smart, silly, and quite similar to me, and you make me happy even if you don't notice I'm there. We haven't had a class together since 9th grade, so you probably don't remember me. I love you so much, and I may sound weird right now, but Girish I do genuinely love so many things about you, I wish I could tell you...but I'm just the quiet girl. You're so beautiful, and I really want you to know that.

— Anonymous

To alicja,

Im desperately trying to move on but i cant your always on my mind, but i know it'll never be me

— Anonymous

To someone,

Je ne vous rien dire, et tu m'as rien dit. Je vais partir la prochaine fois, pour de bon, pour toujours. Pourquoi nous sommes... fini. On accélérait sans freins, l'amour a été empoisonné. Je ne vous penser a toi plus jamais. Nous sommes fini pour toujours, mon amie. Je pars. Gute reise et bon voyage.

— Anonymous

To You,

You'll never know the pain I went through, I'll never know yours. I just wanted to be friends and I messed up... I didn't mean to hurt you. I ghosted you, I didn't want to deal with that, I know you were worried and unstable. I never felt anything romantic towards you. I can't go out to the theater on cold nights anymore. I start shaking, have panic attacks. I was accused of things I never did. You'll never know, but I still reread your last note to me. And I don't know if I should've responded.

— Anonymous

To C, Ex

I will always love you

— Anonymous

To R C.,

Lately ive been thinking about all the things youve done for me, whether that's buying me things, or taking me into considering, just everything you do. The sewing class, the music studio stuff, hayley tickets, the flowers, the semester box, random gifts. You deserve someone much better than me. Im not worth your time or love. You've done incredible things for me and I DO NOT deserve it at all. I wish I was able to accept you fully into my life, and show you how I feel I wish I could reciprocate

— K B.

To R C.,

Thinking about you leaving (and yes I know its not even official yet) makes me so sad. I was sad when you left here to go to your store, and we werent even anything at that point, just coworkers. I was so sad, I was depressed. Work didnt feel right. Being at my store after you left didnt feel real for a while. This place felt so empty and again, thats before any of this ever happened. I missed you alot, and cried alot. I just enjoyed your presence alot and being around you kept me motivated

— K B.

To R C.,

If you end up going to Maine, or any other location out of state, im definitely leaving here. You are the only person that makes this place bearable. Whether we are friends, just plain ol coworkers, more than that, I dont care what out relationship dynamic is, your presence makes this hell hole okay enough for me to stick around. If you left I would not be able to handle this place without you, your guidance, your company, your pep talks, your help. I just cant do this without you

— K B.

To R C.,

I need you here today :(

— K B.

To R C.,

I wish things could be different, or at least how they used to be

— K B.

To Manja, Crush

This writing is sincerely from my heart..... Aby minta maaf sangat dekat manja walaupun dah berkali kali aby minta maaf tapi kalini aby betul2 rasa sedih and menyesal sangat. There's so much things i lost from you because of my behavior..... Aby tak mintak pun jadi macamni :(. Please dont break the promise to marry each other sayang.... I love you so much sayang. Take your time and please let me try again to be a better person for you....

— Ai

To T,

I remember faces well. I remember what my doctor looked like in second grade. You know, for the life of me, I can't remember your face. I see you, and then I think for a second, and it's gone. You seem to evade me even in my own mind, maybe that's a sign. Edit: I just came back to this tab a while later. You texted me back, we had a nice conversation although you carried it lol. I can sort of picture you now, at least more than before or something. Maybe i'm getting somewhere.

— ARP

To R C.,

I know Im acting like a robot and that "i dont care" but man, I am sad

— K B.

To R C.,

Tonight told me youd applied for another store, in a different state. I gotta say, my heart hurts. But truly, I want you happy and I want you successful, and if this is what you wanna do, please do, I won't tell you what to do or try to stop you and I genuinely mean that. But I am sad, and it hurts, but id take sadness if it means you'll be succesful somewhere else. Thank you for telling me. Go be awesome in Maine, ill be supporting you.

— K B.

To dad, Parent

GCSEs are here and you havent said goodluck to me even once. prom is coming up yet you havent contributed a single thing towards it. not money, no emotions, not even suggested your presence. maybe i should be used to it by now, but its like a shack to the system ever time you let me down. i love you but if you dont want to be a dad then dont, just stop bringing me down into your sad selfish pity parade expecting me to help even though you do nothing for me.

— Anonymous

To T, Crush

Rowing's over and I won't see you again. That's not true, I might physically see you, but talk to you? No. I texted you and you haven't responded and it's been days. Maybe I'm too anxious.

— ARP

To R C.,

Also, i cant get what you said out of my head. Back when you were in the hospital and said you deserved better. After that you said it was just from being delusional and on hospital meds and you didnt mean it...but I think you did. I agree with you even if you insist you didnt mean it. Idk...i just think that your feelings for me want you to think those words were false but deep down you know you meant it. Though I agree with your words it still hurts, you deserve better, just let me go now :(

— K B.

To R C.,

Come on...ive told ive been anxious and panicky a few times and ive gotten nothing out of you?? And then I tell you that I appreciate your help for working out some scheduling issues and all you say is "no problem"... again, Im just acting like I dont care and that how your talking to me doesnt upset me...acting like your robotness or whatever youre doing doesnt phase me and acting like everytbing is normal but...you always help me when im anxious...why aren't you now?

— K B.

To R C.,

Ive been really anxious all day and all I really want is your help. Whether its a pep talk over text, a phone call, your company in anyway. You always know how to calm me down But I feel like you're pushing me away? You've felt so cold and distant to me...idk what to do. All I know how to do is act like I dont care and act like nothing is bothering me because I dont want you to know you're hurting me...but I also need you? Make that make sense. I cried this morning on my way to work :(

— K B.

To someone,

I did everything I could to prove my parents wrong, to make myself proud of myself, for my friends to like me, and for my husband to appreciate me. I have never discredited the help I received to get to where I am today but why does it feel like I am nothing without it. I have done everything I can but It’s never enough. I am never enough. I will not stop trying but it hurts me every single day when I am just short of being seen. I hurt so bad.

— Anonymous

To ayansh S., 15, Ex

is it ever really gonna be over between us? /p after jill ofc - your early wednesday morning of January 31 2024. ❤️ (not a blue heart btw)

— Anonymous

To vivi, Friend

i like you. like a lot. i think about you all the time and almost every little thing reminds me of you. i love the way you smile at me in the hallway in between classes. i love all our inside jokes. i love when you say frickle frackle. i love your laugh. i love your music taste. i love your hair and beautiful eyes. i love your chocolate pretzels, frickle frackle, vivi, i love you. i am never going to tell you this because i value our friendship so much that i don’t want to risk losing you. ily.

— Anonymous