what i meant

To pipa, 15,

hi pa, i never thought i'd write you one of these. aku sebenarnya nak mintak maaf, sebab aku held so much weight and hate for you, i never realised that when we actually became friends again, and you were going through sm pain and suffering, i feel bad for you. i realised that the 'kifarah' or karma i wanted you to receive didn't actually give me anything. it didn't benefit me. so im sorry, aku harap yang the rest of the year for you lebih baik daripada sekarang.

— R

To R C.,

-continued- BUT i know you support me, knowing you do support me is what is getting me by with all these conflicting thoughts. Point is, I miss you SO much, I hope youre okay, I cant wait to, hang out again, travel again, laugh again, be silly again, open up again. I miss your voice, I miss your eyes, I miss your smile, I miss your laugh, I miss your face, I miss your scent, I just miss you so much. Someday things will get back to normal...even better than "normal". Goodnight for now, i love you

— K B.

To R C.,

-continued- I think you get the point of how sorry I am, and what ive been thinking of lately. 2 days ago, I saw your position posted so I applied, today I was called about it. I do wonder if one day youll resent me for taking over, but I wouldve been upset if it was anyone else. I did it becauee in a way I feel it'll bring me closer to you. And I also...i do know that you know being at my campus is destroying my mental health, i know you understand, im just sorry, i feel selfish. (Continued).

— K B.

To R C.,

-continued- im sorry for the behavior of my campus for causing this chaos. You didnt deserve that...i wish I couldve done something more. I also wish you knew how bad I feel constantly thinking I could've done something more. Everyday I miss you, Everyday I think about you, Everyday im wondering how youre doing...what youre doing..Everyday I constantly replay that day and what could've been different. I overthink about all the details im not aware of when it comes to the campus (continued)

— K B.

To R C.,

So, its been a bit since I wrote something...the past few weeks have been a doozey..so here's goes. Last week Wednesday, marks the day I started my anti anxiety medication, and the day you were let go...what a day. Today marks a full week that has passed since then. I am still in shock, confused, angry, sad, depressed, anxious, overwhelmed, I still cant believe it happened, I miss you very much and it still doesn't feel real. I wish i could fully put into words how sorry i am(..to be continued)

— K B.

To joel,

asdsadaasd

— s S.

To big t,

doing jack shit wont get you any closer to an engineering job. the more you waste time doing nothing after telling me of all people you have to do life stuff was a dead giveaway i was nothing more than a week long excitement. you say that like the co-captain and student council president doesn't understand the concept of business. don't keep your team waiting and next time don't tell someone you're seeing you make excuses not to go outside, coward. ps, an hour and 30 minutes isnt long distance.

— Anonymous

To the old me, 13, Myself

i wish i could've slapped you in the face so hard but i think i would have just made things worse, as if every minor convenience didn't make everything feel like a stab wound dude someone should've intervened but there wasn't anyone around willing to do it and it only took you till something irreversible made everything feel real, you wanted to feel the love of the world and it just gave you the only thing you could give back, hate. but i'm so glad i escaped, nobody deserve to be evil forever.

— milo

To someone,

I don't know who else to say this but I really want to feel romantic love. Sure. Friends and family are nice. But I want to be loved by someone who could understand me in a way nobody else ever could... and also, maybe get railed real good.

— Anonymous

To mikey, 14, Crush

now let me just tell the truth, I really really liked you. so much that it made me want to rip my heart out of my ribs and chuck it into a meat grinder. not just because you were hard to get, but because I couldn't read any signs. you weren't just a friend to bond to slipknot over, I really did like you. I swear that it's way easier to tell with other people. god damn.

— Anonymous

To Paola C., Ex

You were the one that was acting like i was the only one that hurt our relationship, but you didn’t even care when i made that present. All you did was talk about kira did ur edges and all of that while i just stood there defeated cause you acted like you didnt care. But look where i am at now, im still in love with you and the thought just hurts so much. I feel like the bad guy in this story. I hate you but love you paola. have a good life.

— MVP

To Nitha, 17, Crush

I am afraid of losing you. Ur sooo great that I sometimes feel u deserve someone better cuz deep down ik u will leave me. Your the love of my life I love ur voice I love ur eyes I love when u talk abt something I love it when u make that weird sound when ur tired I love how beautiful u are. I love u so much.i will always love you.

— Vava

To Logan T., 18, Crush

Hi. Do you feel the same about me?? I'm so excited to see you. I'm already finding my clothes for when we hang out. Please want me back or just tell me you don't already, I'm just tired of this feeling and the suspense. Is the hangout a date or am I crazy? Hopefully not just crazy :) 😂 anyway, enjoy what ur doing rn. If u see this, are we hooking up after or? Make sure ik

— Anonymous

To Shandiin T., 18, Ex

I'm sorry. I hope you know I have been punished for my actions and I hope you can find peace

— Anonymous

To Vega, Ex

I'll learn how to move on, I'm sorry I'm having a hard time to. I'm sorry for everything.

— Anonymous

To ash B., 16, Ex

you really liked the backrooms and slate blue. i tried making the colour as similar as possible :( i still miss you anytime i hear french, or think about the sun or flowers or alnst. youll never see this, but im sorry for how things ended, and my dms r open, even tho you dont like me anymore

— c

To Daner,

So for now we will text about cats, and the world, and I guess I will see you in the apocalypse

— Anonymous

To Daner,

I miss you. I don’t think I will ever be over you. Your ghost follows me around every day and however illogical and impossible I can’t stop the wishing I could just kiss you again, just lay in your arms again. I have dreams about it too, and they crush me. I want to see you, but I still love you and I don’t know if it’s a good idea because I think you have moved on. Which destroys me. I still feel that connection to you like i never have. I wish i didn’t still think you’re my soulmate

— Anonymous

To Taiba C., Friend

Sorry if my words or my actions ever hurted you. I really liked you.. as a person as a human being.. u are such a beautiful soul. I'm sorry but I can't afford the distance we have rn. I hope we stay together like we were.

— Anonymous

To Faiz, Friend

The bond I have with you cannot be compared with anyone, i don't have a message i never sent you, but I have a lot of thoughts i couldn't say to you. Just like, how much lucky I am to have you and how precious this friendship is for me. You did things i never knew someone could do for me. I mean I'm not good at explaining but u are the calm in the choas. And u are the choas in my boredom. You are someone I really really feel connected to. You are my only friend i wish to talk every day every hr.

— Anonymous

To Namra R., Friend

You're the best person I've ever met. I never thought we would be so close, you've always been my favourite even when we were not close but you're genuinely a Supercalifragilidticexpialidocious person to me

— Anonymous

To Umra R., Friend

You are the best person I could get. You are my safe place, my home and my comfort zone. You always listen to the things i say even if it's cringe I just love the way how u are with me unlike others.

— Anonymous

To Mubasshir I., Friend

I just want to tell you how precious you are for me. You are the person I love to be with. You are someone I'm glad to have.. you are a lot to me. I hope we stay together i just wish.. we form something unbreakable I want you by my side always and I hope u feel the same. You are the flower I talk about you are hidden in the things I look and admire. I can't help but be confused about the thing I have with you.. a little crush? Or something more.

— Anonymous

To Adam, 17,

Do you like me? Do you think of me as I often as I think of you? At the cinema, I couldn't quite focus completely on the film. I had your name on this loop in my head. How should I approach my feelings? I want to hold your hand and kiss you and be able to tell others that you're mine. Maybe writing this is weird, but I need to get my thoughts out. I'm sorry for not responding to your texts, I'm scared my friends are right and I'm too obvious in how I feel.

— Anonymous