Неотправленные сообщения о растерянности

To Alexa, Ex

I’m sorry for initiating no contact like that I know we probably broke up for the better and going no contact might have helped but I still regret it I’m sorry if I hurt you and I think I did I miss you but I’m to scared to msg you again I feel like you would’ve moved on by now which makes me scared to msg you and I’m worried if I msg you it’ll make things worse I’m sorry about everything how I was before we broke up also how you said you’d break my legs if we ever met again was funny cya around

— Anonymous

To Salman A., 13, Ex

I’m so sorry, I want you back but not as my lover but as my friend, I understand if you don’t want that, but just now this, whenever you feel left out, send a text or give an call, I’ll answer and/text back right away, I know that it might seem desperate but true me, I’m not, I just hate seeing/knowing that someone is sad and I could just fix that but just talking to them, so yeah, anyways hope you can give me your forgiveness and trust back.

— Anonymous

To Afia M., 19,

It was always you.It is still you.It will always be you.I left without words, consumed by fear and guilt,because I thought our love was prohibited.I tried to make myself believe being with a guy would fix me ,erase my feelings for you, but he only ruined me.I lost myself trying to escape what I truly felt, from whom I truly loved. In leaving you,I hurt you and destroyed something beautiful, and I regret it deeply.I am truly sorry for everything. I still love you, and perhaps i always will<3

— Anonymous

To Yo S., Friend

Damn, it’s been 3 days without communication and I should admit it all, I miss you, I miss how we communicate and cheer each other up. There are times that I’d hope to see your name on my notification but it never really happened. I hope you’d stop drinking alcoholic beverages thinking that it would help you move on, but it would not, and it’s bad for your health. Take good care of yourself yo, prioritize yourelf pud, Sayang kaayo atong streak!

— Bossing

To TOM S.,

I never really wanted to end things I once asked for, its just me, I am the problem, age gap and your child was not a big deal, it was all me. I am also scared to lose you and our connection but on the other hand, I am scared of what my parents would say, I am scared of the uncertainties of the future, and I am not ready to face it all. So I chooses to push you away, I chooses to let you go, knowing that it would be the best choice for now. YES it wasn't easy but I had to.

— YANZIES R.

To Thomas, 22,

it’s me. surprisingly, we still talk (casually) up to this day. i know you only message me whenever you feel like i’m slipping away from you, and it’s for the sake of keeping me in your life for God knows what reason, what i know though, is that it’s not love, it will never be love. you don’t know how many times i wanted to walk away from you because i know too well that i deserve better. because i’d like to believe that i deserve a love that can give more than what i can offer.

— A

To Brooklynn F., Ex

I never wanted to hurt your feelings by telling you and I doubt you'll ever hear this but you're a terrible person. You disgust me, the way you manipulated me was terrible, I have nothing but hate for you in my heart, what's worse is I let you do it twice. I wish you luck in life because I don't want to hold onto this spite anymore. You lied to me more times than I can count. I'm not usually not a hateful person, but you are the worst thing I have ever encountered. I hope you NEVER contact me.

— Anonymous

To Tabatha R., 25, Friend

What is meant to say was I miss you. And I have said it before, but I mean like I miss you miss you. I miss when you would come over for dinner. I miss when we would just hang out on the couch. I miss feeling tired but never wanting to call it quits. I miss being around you. I want that closeness of being your friend but im scared that you will leave if I ask you to be present the way you were.

— Anonymous

To T, 22,

it’s me. i hesitated sending that moon photo to you. i know, i know —i look so desperate when i do that, i am unfortunately fully aware of it. but hey, at least this time i did not remove it like how i always do because i regret it a second later. i want to tell you all the good and bad about my life right now, but i won’t simply for my sanity. i don’t know why i do this, i hope the day that i begin to not care about you comes quickly. i miss you.

— A

To Thomas, 22,

it’s me. the car i rode otw to school reminded me of your smell, and coincidentally, the song that was playing had your og name in it. for a moment, i felt a pang of loneliness because of the thought that i couldn’t escape the little things that reminded me of you. just when will this season of yearning will last? i hope it does right now, so i can move forward with my life without you in it. all my life, i was forced to let go of so many things, when will the keeping begins for me?

— A

To Thomas, 22,

it’s me. i am writing once again in hopes of overcoming the pain of yearning, and not in hopes of you coming across this letter. today felt normal, but it seemed new and refreshing, because for a long time, you were constantly on my mind, wondering how you were doing. but today marks the first time that i did not think much of you —it felt nice, sure, but i know i will still long for you at the end of the day. i still miss you, FK. i hope you enjoyed your summer vacation in japan.

— A

To my parent, 16,

i'm trans and terrified to tell you but i need you to know the real me. please don't hate me

— Anonymous

To myself,

no tengo a nadie. estoy completamente solo

— Anonymous

To pablo, Ex

perdí mi virginidad contigo y ahora me tratas como si no existiera

— elena

To a friend,

fui violada y no puedo decírselo a nadie

— Anonymous

To riley, Friend

watching you battle depression while i can't help breaks my heart every single day

— Anonymous

To a friend, 17,

i'm pregnant and scared. i don't know what to do

— Anonymous

To lucia, Crush

no sé cómo decirte que estoy enamorado de ti desde hace años

— Anonymous

To my parent, 17,

perdóname por no ser el hijo que querías. hago lo mejor que puedo

— Anonymous

To maya, Friend

i know you're struggling with your eating disorder. you're not alone and you're stronger than you think

— Anonymous

To valentina, Ex

eres la razón por la que creo en el amor verdadero, aunque no funcionó entre nosotros

— Anonymous

To myself, 19,

your anxiety is lying to you. you're not a burden, you're not too much, and you deserve to be loved exactly as you are

— Anonymous

To kai, 17, Friend

i've been cutting myself for two years and you're the only one who noticed the scars. thank you for caring when no one else did

— charlie

To phoenix, 19, Friend

you're the only person who makes me feel like i'm not completely fucked up. when i'm with you, all the noise in my head finally goes quiet

— Anonymous