what i meant

To Kshitiz, Friend

Dear Buddy, I never imagined I'd lose you. You weren't just my best friend; you felt like home. If I ever hurt you or failed you as a friend, I'm truly sorry. Your baddie still misses you more than you'll ever know. Thank you for every laugh, every conversation, and every beautiful memory. I wish we'd met just once. You'll always have a special place in my heart. I'll always be grateful to you. You'll always be in my prayers. How can I forget my first male bestie? I can't forget you, bestie.

— Anonymous

To Renyi L., 21,

So to keep things short, I hope you’re well, and I wanted to tell you that I’m finally pursuing what I’ve always wanted to. I hope you are too. We always argued about whether money could buy happiness, and while I see where you’re coming from, don't burn yourself out please. If you want to be pen pals maybe you could post something on here under the name I put in the email and we could talk a little bit? If not I understand, just know that I still do care, and I'm praying for you all the time.

— Sam W.

To Renyi L., 21,

I didn’t mean for time to get the better of me. Day by day turned into weeks turned into what has almost been two years. The more time went on, the more things changed in my own life. Things are so different now, but even despite this, it wasn’t fair to disappear like you didn’t exist. I hope you know that it wasn’t just you. For my own sanity, I’d rather be a private person who the world could not care less about.

— Sam W.

To Nandani, Friend

Dear Jerry, you were never just my best friend; you were my sister. If I ever made you feel unloved or hurt you in any way, I'm deeply sorry. I still miss you more than you'll ever know. Thank you for every memory, every laugh, every conversation, and every moment that made my life brighter. You'll always be my sister in my heart. I'll forever be grateful that life gave me a sister like you, even if it was only for a while. I truly hope life is kind to you. You'll never be forgotten cutie .

— Anonymous

To reid,

i’ll pick him in the end. we won’t work. i love him. you won’t ever read this and ill never tell you this. he will always be a part of me no matter what. you give me love, but i dont love you. i chose this color bc its the same as my eyes that you love so much. eyes that wander to him. love, bug

— c

To peyton, Ex

will it be you in the end? did i ruin everything? i’ll always choose you no matter who im with you know that. i wish you’d talk to me or text me back on the flipper even if its a rude text. i love you so much- how can i be happy with someone else? your hurting my heart pey. i messed up bad please forgive me i need you. he doesn’t understand me like you do. 4 years pey, 4 years. i reread your letters every night. it can’t be him. it’ll always be you. come back to me. love, flatliner

— chloe

To Joe S.,

You need to do better for yourself before things get worse.

— Anonymous

To Jalynn L., 21,

I want to write this message because I feel that message will be the last I will sent, I don't think you will reply, I don't think I will ever send one again. I've come to realize that I will never have you again, I won't know you the way I use to. You won't every be mine, time has created a unmendable distance, I am no longer part of you. That realization is crushing, your soul is still engraved in every part of me. Letting you fall out of my touch will always be my biggest regret...I love you.

— S

To Noah Q.,

I don't think any amount of words or any number of tears could explain all that I've felt and everything I've thought about over losing you. I've gone through so many different phases of it, so many different rounds of grief, and none of them seems to be it for me. I still can't let go. I think the only thing that could've healed me is you coming back, but you're gone forever this time. I don't think you coming back could ever save me either. Especially after knowing I held no value to you.

— T

To Hargitt, 17,

I fear there is a power imbalance in the way I idolize you and the others. I feel subpar intellectually compared to you and I don’t think that is a healthy foundation for a relationship. So maybe I’m happy you’re leaving. Or maybe I’m just glad that I have an excuse for why this ended that wasn’t because of me. It’s quite relieving I can’t lie. I really don’t know if I would fall for you having had the time. I keep thinking about it but I genuinely do not know.

— Sofia

To A,

I really miss you.

— L

To gray,

if am being honest i think theres someone else. youve done nothing to prove to me otherwise. i dont even fully think your over your ex, i think you only ended up saying you liked me bc you realized i acctrally wanted to love you and didnt show lust to you. i dont think im the first nor 2nd option for you and it hurts alot.

— Anonymous

To maroto, 15, Ex

Was I stupid to love you? Was I reckless to help? Was it obvious to everybody else? That I'd fallen for a lie. You were never on my side. Fool me once, fool me twice. Are you death or paradise? Now you'll never see me cry. There's just no time to die.

— mei

To someone,

And I know that you love me You don't need to remind me I should put it all behind me, shouldn't I? But I see her in the back of my mind All the time Like a fever, like I'm burning alive Like a sign Did I cross the line? Mm, hm Well, good things don't last And life moves so fast I'd never ask who was better 'Cause she couldn't be More different from me Happy and free in leather

— Anonymous

To someone,

i'll never experience teenage love and i don't know what's the point if it's not love.

— Anonymous

To Ellie, Ex

Words will never describe everything I feel about you. You defend her when you know what she did to me and you didn't give a shit. You would love her more than anything even if she's a lying, incel, raping, piece of shit. Your love was always conditional and I was to dumb to realize that. I had to throw my fucking life away to make sure you didn't waste yours. The way you ruined me but made me feel like I was all that mattered, I hope you see so you can hold yourself accountable for once.

— El

To Rich I.,

Yan, I know you don't like poems. But I still think about a poem I had written and shown to you. I was surprised when you said you liked it. I was flustered, but happy. I wrote it about you, for you, though I never admitted that. Why would I? Anyways, I'm fine with only being a spectator in your life. I would have been selfish if I stayed as your friend while I held feelings for you. I've seen the things you do. I still think you're amazing in the most beautiful way.

— Y

To Leo, Friend

You don't even know I love you. I've told about my ex, and its probably pretty obvious I still love for them, but there's you too. And it's so confusing and weird and I just dont know why. How can my heart hold room for two people when neither will ever have me? This is so stupid. Not you though. Never you. I love you, and I love them. I dont know what the hell im supposed to do with all this

— E

To Ray H., 40, Ex

The answer had always been yes, you just never asked it.. You talked about it but never actually asked it. Maybe in another time line things will be different, I hate you but I can never unlove you. I just dont agree with how you treated me. I wasn't perfect but I was just trying to survive you and when I knew I couldn't anymore i broke, I'm still standing here in some messed up way trying to walk away from someone I'm still in love with. Someday ull see this someday maybe.

— M H.

To leevaughn R., 16, Ex

you thought the breakup was mutual, yet you were my worst heartbreak. you'll never see the things I have wrote about you, because nothing could prepare me for the embarrassment. I hope to see you again someday. I love you.

— Anonymous

To Xie, 18, Ex

I know you never want to talk to me again, but I want you to know that I have been changing. I'm starting therapy soon and I wish to reach out to you eventually when I know I'm ready. I'm sorry for everything I put you through and I wish to prove to you how sorry I am and how much I changed, if you'll give me one last chance. I miss you, I miss you even as a friend and I don't think I actually moved on. I'm so sorry for everything, and I'll prove it to you if you'll give me this last chance.

— ATL D.

To Mina, 18, Ex

Fuck, i still miss you. I don't even know if I miss you or the memory of you but it's driving me insane. I still love you. I'm forever thankful we're still friends. Summer months never hit the same since last year

— E

To Satoru G., 27,

I'm so, so sorry. Ik you'll never believe me, I know everyone sees me as a monster, but I am sorry. Everyday I convince myself that what I'm doing is right, that this is for our future and the future of youth. But I know it's a lie. I know I'm digging a deeper hole for myself. Did you notice i made the background your eye color? From memory. I miss you and your touch that night years after I left. Im sorry, and i do love you, but I'll never tell you that. I agree with u too. our souls are tied

— S G.

To Tweety,

do I ever cross your mind? do u even think about me?? miss me? bcs I do, I don't even know why I still have this feelings for u when I know for myself that you would never even consider being in a rs w/ a girl. but damn I keep thinking about what we couldve been yk? I really like you! I still do, even if it's like 4 months after we parted ways. WHY CAN'T I JUST MOVE ON

— Marcy