what i meant

ఎక్స్‌కి పంపని సందేశాలు

క్షమాపణలు, వీడ్కోళ్లు, అంతా ముగిశాక చెప్పలేకపోయిన ప్రతీదీ. ఇక్కడి ప్రతి నోట్ ఒక ఎక్స్ కోసం రాసిందే, కానీ ఎప్పుడూ పంపలేదు.

నోట్ రాయండి

To Robert M., Ex

I was falling for you. I know that wasn't the plan. I have no resentment from the choice you made to walk away. I know you've made mistakes in your life, but all I ever wanted and deserved was the truth from you. Instead I got no answers, no explanation, and no closure. I am reminded of this everytime I look at my son and somehow I dont have the ability to hate you.

— Anonymous

May 3 0

To Jason L., 19, Ex

please reach out again. life is short and you are important to me. it's always your choice, but i never want to shut you out. i need you to know the door is ALWAYS open for you. please don't misunderstand but i have to much i want to clarify to you. i just dont want you disrupt your life. i hope we talk again but it's okay if we don't.

— J B.

May 3 · Houston 0

To Maxwell, Ex

You had no right to ask them for that. Any of them. They were hurt by it, annoyed by it, and they want to be left alone. The words you thought dripped like honey from the corners of your mouth dripped instead like clotted blood. You are disgusting. I hate you, all of them do too. You were a sheep dressed in sheep's clothing, and you thought you were a wolf.

— ARP

May 2 0

To Erin, 19, Ex

Happy birthday, I wanted to wish you a happy birthday to show I do still care and support you even if you will never speak to me again. I know you won’t see this but I wish you the best of luck.

— Anonymous

May 1 0

To Elliot M., 13, Ex

I love you so much and I miss you.

— Skylar S.

Apr 30 · Los Angeles 6

To kamil G., 22, Ex

i miss you. i really do, the way you’d cuddle me to bed or wipe my eyes. i miss the way you’d stroke my hair and laugh with me. we had so many jokes. we laughed so much. we were soulmates, but this wasn’t the right time for us. maybe in another life, my heart.

— Anonymous

Apr 30 · uk 1

To Allysa Q., Ex

I should've asked you for help when I needed it. I should've told you that I still loved you and still wanted you in my life. It just seemed so hard to fix. You've moved on and it's been long enough that we don't know each other anymore. But I miss you. And I'd get to know you all over again if I ever got that chance. But I know I don't. I'm sorry I was so immature. I'm not 17 anymore. I'd like to believe I'm good now. I'd be good to you.

— Anonymous

Apr 27 1

To Johnny A., 18, Ex

I am so far away i really wish we can go back to each other. I miss u badly and the time we went ice skating :c

— Anonymous

Apr 27 · CA 0

To Josiah, Ex

I'm sorry we had to end, please still love me.

— J

Apr 26 2

To lincoln P., Ex

if you're ever reading this, I'm sorry. I never wanted anything to go the way it did and I'm sorry that it did. I hope you'll see this one day. I'm sorry. please reach out. I miss you.

— someone

Apr 26 · australia 2

To Tzvi, Ex

I cant express myself well with 500, not even with a book i would, i dont know what im trying to prove, make you understand, know or need but i seriously hope you are as pathetic as i am for you, i adore you but i really need you to stay in the same place as me, i cannot let you go, i will not let go our experiences and the things ive felt, it was too big to ever forget or try to recreate. Im selfish, i really wanted to go on even if it was killing us. Do i really love you? I love you.

— its obvious

Apr 25 0

To Tzvi, Ex

and i still do in a way. Youve moved on by now or are trying to, you dont know how much ive been suffering since i decided to break up, ill never get over you, youre just a big piece of my life wich i cannot ignore, and i really need you to know that. Youre special, talented and id do anything to just experience that again. Ill never be what you want, but you are what i need, im not the gender you need, im not the person that you need either. Im rambling, but thats because i love you, sadly.

— its obvious

Apr 25 0

To Tzvi, Ex

Your name is so unique, if you ever find this itll be obvious who i am wich makes all of this less special. I love your name, i know you dont like yours, but i adore it. Im probably disturbing your peace by this, im selfish for writing this, maybe youve already moved on and im the prideful one thinking you will seriously spend your time trying to see if i did i love you, wich was one of your biggest concerns. I do, i do love you, and i need you to know that+

— its obvious

Apr 25 0

To Adrian, Ex

I’m sorry I didn’t show up. I hope you don’t hate me. Idk if you want me around still but regardless, I hope life treats you with the love and care you deserve. I may not be there physically, but I’ll always be rooting for you, even if we forget about each other. Because you deserve nothing but the best. <3

— Anonymous

Apr 24 0

To Hans, Ex

Honey Bear you were my first love and opened my heart and world up to the sun. They say the first heartbreak is the worst and i understand why now. As the pain has diminished gratitude replaces it. You taught me more about what i want and what i don’t. I have a deep seated peace of my love for you rooted in acceptance that even though i’m not in love with you anymore or will ever be again I can still have love for you and feel love when i think of you. That is where i decided to leave us and you

— Anonymous

Apr 18 0

To Charlotte H., Ex

I wish I'd never let you go, at the time it felt like my only option and what you wanted. I should have tried harder to keep you in my life. I see you sometimes online and I wonder if I should reach out. But I never have the heart. If anything I'm still that shy boy who asked you to the Christmas dance 3 days before Halloween in 6th grade. Who spend a good 4 to 5 months building up that courage. Who couldn't go further than hugs.

— JT G.

Apr 12 · Florida 0

To R, Ex

i cried in my bathroom today to a song that i used to think id never relate with us also tell your friend Niz to stop talking shit

— Josh

Apr 12 0

To jadiel R., Ex

chkhen, meeting you in 2021 was the most fun and the most i had probably ever connected with someone over a video game nonetheless. i know you want nothing to do with me now but i genuinely don’t know how we got here. i never wanted to stop talking to you truly meant that i’d always hve love for you, you became apart of my life my lover my friend. i’m supposed to act cold and like i’m moved on and you are doing a good job at that but deep down i feel yearning. i had so much left to give

— Anonymous

Apr 11 · NH 0

To Kim A., 30, Ex

As we got older our love started to split apart both of us saw it happening but did nothing to stop it. I loved you like I never have loved anyone before all I ever wanted was to help you succeed in life to love you and watch you grow but I never got the help from you I needed you let all of my help and work go to waste making me feel unwanted and useless to the point I couldnt live like that anymore. I hope you find the happiness in him you didnt find in me. I'll always hold a place for you....

— Anonymous

Apr 7 · Texas 0

To Ayden S., 15, Ex

Its not fair that you were always allowed to be upset with me but anytime I got even slightly upset with you it was a huge problem. You're the one that never defended my name and got to go out and talk to 20 girls but the second I talked to ONE guy you lost your mind. I miss you more than anything but I'm still so God damn mad and lost and confused about how things ended. Im sorry that I will never stop loving you Ayden.

— Dahlia

Apr 6 · Las Vegas, Nevada 1

To Blue, Ex

Too often I wonder if you still think of me like I think of you. We didn't end on bad terms but I definitely took a step away. I needed time but I guess saving my flame lit our bridge on fire. I still think the world of you even if I don't seem like it. I wonder at night what goes on in your head. I dream of what could've been but I know it can never be. I just want things back to how they were. Please acknowledge me. Talk to me, anything. Please. I want my friend back.

— Red

Apr 6 3

To Nathaniel B., 15, Ex

Im sorry I didn't message. I loved texting you but sometimes I get so tired and silence is so much easier, I should've told you at the start so you never misinterpreted my silence. I'm like this with everyone and no matter how much I try I just can't change this part of me. I know its hard for you to start conversations, I should've still tried but it really is too late for that now. It's been months since we broke up and since we last spoke. Please stop ignoring me. I'm sorry I hurt you.

— AI M.

Apr 6 · Hawaii 0

To Bas G., 21, Ex

I think about what happened all the time, you are constantly in my head. I still love you but to be honest I don't think I could ever forgive you I hate the way everything was my fault. You had no consideration for my feelings and I hope that everything that I went through will come back around to you. Whether that's directly to you, your future daughter or anyone you love. When it completely destroys them I hope you think of me. I hope I never leave your head and I hope your stuck with regret.

— Hana K.

Apr 6 6

To Madysen, 16, Ex

You hurt me through our whole relationship and you were toxic but i was to blind to see and now i see it all but i cant help but still love you and want you, im with someone new but my heart still yearns for you, i would do anything to get my pretty baby back, to have you with me, and it hurt how you moved on in 3 months while i was still stuck loving you. You said we would try again. But i guess not everyone keeps their promises, i promised to love you forever and i will. I love you baby

— KJ

Apr 4 · Trinidad and Tobago 1