Messages jamais envoyés sur la culpabilité

To Nathaniel B., 15, Ex

Im sorry I didn't message. I loved texting you but sometimes I get so tired and silence is so much easier, I should've told you at the start so you never misinterpreted my silence. I'm like this with everyone and no matter how much I try I just can't change this part of me. I know its hard for you to start conversations, I should've still tried but it really is too late for that now. It's been months since we broke up and since we last spoke. Please stop ignoring me. I'm sorry I hurt you.

— AI M.

To Bas G., 21, Ex

I think about what happened all the time, you are constantly in my head. I still love you but to be honest I don't think I could ever forgive you I hate the way everything was my fault. You had no consideration for my feelings and I hope that everything that I went through will come back around to you. Whether that's directly to you, your future daughter or anyone you love. When it completely destroys them I hope you think of me. I hope I never leave your head and I hope your stuck with regret.

— Hana K.

To my husband, 61,

I was told you past last year. We never got a chance to reconcile. You told me I would never forgive you. You were so wrong. I have actually fought for you. I have actually taken what happened and wrote to the government asking them to make additions to programs in schools for extended information on the dangers of pornography. You were sick. I am not angry with you. In fact, I admire your strength that you went and worked on what you were experiencing. I miss you and love you.

— Anonymous

To Orange,

“How’s it going?” No, that’s not the right way to start a conversation after years of silence. The truth is, I have no idea what to say to you, and I’m guessing you feel the same. I’m sorry you had to deal with me. I blame myself for my decision to tell you how I felt even knowing that it wasn’t true. But, I can tell you that the reason I did it was desperation. When I saw we were growing apart. I feared I would loose you as a friend. My best friend, thank you. Goodbye.

— Purple

To marcus, Child

there's not a day i didn't think of you since we last saw each other. i'm sorry for everything i did, i know how hurt you have been. i wish i could go back and do things right so that maybe we didn't have to hurt so much. i've been recovering from everything, and didn't want to reach out until i'm out of the woods completely. take care of yourself always. and i'm always here in case you need me. i love you so much. forever and ever.

— k A.

To Clay A.,

i write to you in a lot of anonymous messages sites and its lowkey pathetic but i'd rather do this than be unfair to you and reach out again after all i've done. im sorry for being a hypocrite, i miss being friends with you. and i hope you never find my messages

— Spongebob

To Jordyn R., 22, Ex

What we were. Was everything. Everything to me. I tried and fought so hard to fix something I broke. And I really did think I was going to get to do that. Unfortunately that went wrong today. And I apologize for everything I did and didn’t do. I waited to long to fix my mistakes. Despite my constant efforts to fight for us. I came up short. And that will haunt me forever. But I love you. I always will. I’ll meet forget the times we had together. And will look on them fondly. Best 3 years ever ❤

— Gerardo A.

To a friend,

It's been a year already and part of me is still waiting for you. You were a sweet boy and i wished we could have stayed friends forever. I miss you and i want to talk to you. Sad to admit it you were the right person but wrong time and I hope one day we will be friends again

— Anonymous

To Elin, Friend

I know you’re okay know (at least I think so), I can’t help but worry. You confided in me your depression and suicidal thoughts, and I’ve helped you. At least I tried. I know there’s only so much I can do for you but I keep on worrying. I made myself appear strong for you and now I don’t dare to be weak. Perhaps it’s my own mistake for not setting boundaries. But I’ll be weak here instead, where you’ll never know. I love you. Please don’t leave me.

— Anonymous

To Noah B., 17, Ex

Hey.. I don’t know if you’ll ever see this but I miss you. I can’t bring myself to delete our chats, my sketches of you. I’m trying to move on by compartmentalizing, but it’s hard when I still don’t have answers. I’m sorry you felt that becoming strangers was the only way to fix things. I’ll always be your energy and your cheerleader, even if it’s hard. It destroys me that I can’t say this to the face I never got to see, but you still have a home with me, okay? I love you, always & forever, bye.

— Kavya

To Norah M., 13, Friend

Im sorry i really am, im so sad all the time and it's difficult to talk to people but I really do care and I don't want you to feel like you aren't good enough, I just need to get better and I can be better for you. I'm sorry for how I made you feel, I care I promise

— Anonymous

To m C., 16, Crush

i wish i could say it all to you, the words that bubble up in my throat but never have the courage to spew out. i hope to never ever lose ya you are special in a way youll never know

— Anonymous

To my crush,

i wish i could have told you how much i loved you . i miss the old you i miss the version of myself i was with you . you are here with me even now but i lost you a long time ago i hope . at one point of time even for a brief moment you loved me there will always be a part of me that want a part of you. i will leave and never come back . in the end you were more than a best friend you were everything

— Anonymous

To No one, Myself

I've been really struggling with depression over the last few weeks, I often think about self-h4rming. I have too many responsibilities to do such a thing. But I can't find value in my own life at times. I want to feel better, to be successful, but I fear I will never 100% be healed. Everything has gone wrong. I feel so stupid.

— Anonymous

To someone,

i hope you never see this, sorry for even writing.

— a B.

To Alice,

met you for the first time and it was really nice. though i felt like you were too good for me? dont get me wrong, i really did like the hangout, maybe we need to hang out more. though i did love how close we felt. youre hugs were firm but assuring lol.

— Anonymous

To mum, Parent

im sorry that i cant take care of you properly, youll never see this but just know i love you

— Anonymous

To z,

found out im insecure and scared of things being taken from me, but that doesnt excuse what i did. you deserved better. im sorry

— h

To zuzanna,

i really did like you and i regret not acting on it properly. i miss the summer, everything felt right. i regret ignoring you and not telling you why. i know its probably all in my head and one-sided but it felt so real. i miss our calls and texts. i still think about you everytime 'please be rude' comes on sadly. its been ages so i think its time for me to let this go lol. i hope you get into your vet school, maybe we talk again one day and laugh over the miscommunication. :<

— b

To Gasan,

I will love you forever baby. I‘m sorry for hurting you.

— Anonymous

To Emily B., 19, Crush

Emily, I have no way to say this in person, but I’m crushing. I’m crushing hard and it’s really frustrating because I don’t have the courage to say it to your face. Don’t ever change who you are because you’re perfect. I’m sorry I am afraid. I’m sorry that all I’ve said is a quick “hi” but with every wave, every smile, this is what I mean.

— Anonymous

To Aubrey P., 20, Crush

Aubrey, I’m sorry, I never should have pushed you to the point I did. I can’t help but feel like I’m to blame for what happened. I’m always here for you, and I will take the confessions you made to me when we were closer to the grave.

— Anonymous

To mom, 38, Parent

I'm sorry I wont ever meet your expectations. I wish you wouldn't always assume i'm always lying. I hate this. I wish could actually open up to you without you snooping too far. I can't wait to get out of this goddamn house. I love you, I do, its just I can't be myself when im near you. I wish things were how they were before I grew up. I miss how we used to snuggle in your bed. I wish we could just be normal.

— felicity G.

To wilber V., 16, Ex

Hey wil, its me again. I miss u everyday. Im sorry it never worked out. I hope youre happy. I wanna let yk none it is ur fault and it never will be.

— Z