Messages jamais envoyés à quelqu’un d’autre

To someone,

Because of us, I really want to give up on us. I fought for us for so long, but it wasn't enough for you. Many times you gave up but I tried to save us, even knowing I was the only one hanging on. Now that I'm giving up, would you do the same as I did for us?

— Anonymous

To Alex W.,

Alex I’m sorry for everything. I wish how I could’ve just trusted you and opened up but I got scared and made you and the others turn against me. I’m trying to change and not follow other people’s hateful words because I did that to you. I never want to make someone feel as bad as I did to you. I still see you in everything. Cheerleading, therians, anything you did. I have a friend actually who reminds me of you. Her voice, her humor, everything. But I treat her better than I ever could to you.

— Anonymous

To Joe V., 18,

I wish I never met you. Don’t know why I fell for you so hard. You made me feel crazy. I wish you didn’t play with my emotions like that.

— Anonymous

To Clayton,

You set my soul on fire. My one desire was to love you and think of you with pride. And keep you satisfied...

— Anonymous

To Clayton,

No, this wasn't anything casual. I wanted to understand your soul.

— Anonymous

To Teenu, 18,

Hey tee guilty been eating me away and ive been thinking what if I had just listen to u and slept that night, things could have been different but i lost my temper and I'm so sry for that. I wanted to become someone who made ur life better but i became the one causing more pain Im sorry for the hurt, the disappointed and the person I couldn't become but i really did tied my best and i really did love you that will always be true. ughhhh god im sorry tee I'm so sorry sorry sorry I miss you.

— Anonymous

To Clancy D., 16,

We’ve been distance lately. I miss us, the way we would laugh all the time and conversations would come easy. I don’t think we are meant to be. The right person wrong time saying isn’t true because if it was the right person there wouldn’t be a wrong time but this is the wrong time so maybe you aren’t the right person. I’m so sorry. I won’t break up with you because you’re happy and I love you. I feel guilty acting happy in our relationship and I wish I can tell you this when you’re more mature.

— Anonymous

To Teenu, 18,

Hey tee... I hope ur doing well, I can't say the same for me. These days have been really hard with my dad drinking and lots of fights happening, there's no one i could turn to after ur gone but i would close my eyes block off the argument and think about u, ur voice, ur sweet smile, ur adorable eyes and ur tiny soft hands. They have been keeping me from losing myself but something well most of the time i find myself crying... Well just wanna say I miss you very much okay take care

— Anonymous

To someone,

I miss you and the way I felt. I'd relive all the pain because it made me feel human. You never knew the pain you were causing and I can never truly hate you even when I want to. You were my soulmate but I'm not yours. My soul wanders outside my body and yearns for what you unknowingly fulfilled. I love you but it's not romance. It's something deeper. Something words can't explain. Something that I don't comprehend. I want to hold hands, lie on the grass and just exist together.

— Anonymous

To Rafaella T.,

I miss the old you, but at the same time I hate who I was before. I love who I am now, and I hate the new "you". I think overall you were one of the worst friendships I've ever had and I regret trying to "fix" you and going back to our friendship so many times, only for you to repeat the same old mistakes.

— Anonymous

To V,

There are splinters on my tongue from all of the times I swallowed my own words. You make devotion feel like a disease to me. See, see all the notes I’ve woven - Catered to you, I am. Our song is a newborn in a mother’s savored womb, your heartbeat is the kick I feel for in spiderweb stomachs.

— L

To Fam,

2: someone shouted at me yesterday, I cried— I tried not to but I remembered how my science teacher 4yrs ago shouted at me in front of the class and how you guys always shouting at each other since I was a kid. I got the trauma and it's hard for me to control it when it got triggered— I find it hard to breath and I cry non stop. I hope you guys won't be like that in my next life. For sure I'll be carrying this for the rest of my life. I still love you guys, though.

— distnt daugh

To fam,

1:I never had the chance to say what I'm feeling. Sorry if I'm your distant daughter. I just want you guys to know that behind my isolation, I'm silently asking for help— for understanding. I'm struggling, I have to deal with a lot of things and fight battles so I chose to fight alone. Yk? I always got scared when someone shout at me, or when someone's shouting. I got the trauma from you guys when you fight when I was a kid, so don't be mad if I'm sensitive. You guys are the reason behind it.

— distnt daugh

To you,

speaking feels like dying

— fifteenyears

To them all,

Falling in love is a tricky one for me. I trust you, but I don't wanna get fucked up. You learned all my secrets. I like your responses. Though I want to keep you, the pressure feels awful. But you won't see this

— Anonymous

To Amare,

I fell in love with you the same summer I fell in love with Frank Ocean. There was so much depth to everything I was going through. I had never experienced anyone the way I experienced you. I know you don't think of me anymore, but when you cross my mind, I hear a subtle song... "I may be younger, but i'll look after you. We're not in love, but I'll make love to you. When you're not here, I'll save some for you. I'm not them, but I'll mean something to you..."

— Anonymous

To Clayton, 18,

I've written the most beautiful yet heartbreaking literature about you. I filled my notes app with feelings I never even got the chance to express. Once I convinced myself I was over you, I promised to never write about you again. I lied. Something about loving you was so poetic...

— Anonymous

To Calico C.,

I'll do anything for your return and safety, Cal. Join us, for I miss you more than you could ever imagine. Junia and I both share that sentiment over you. We would be much happier with your companionship. We need you, more than ever. Both in defeating the evil that is Howard, in which I'm sure someone as smart as you can see. Yet also we need you in every way possible. I will admit this, not so anonymously as I'd usually hope. But I love you. More than words can say. I love you, Cal. Join me.

— Solomon R.

To Bradlee C.,

I hope your doing better by the time you read this I love the sweet you the you that not many people get to see I do not love the you who is reckless and angry and unconsiderit of others, person who you have become. until this moment I've romanticized the idea of you that you are this grate person on the inside but i have excused all of the wrong you have done and the wrong you have done makes who you are so maybe i don't love you but the idea of you i have made in my head

— Anonymous

To j,

sometimes i think about what we could have been if I just would have said what i meant in the right way, its odd knowing a strangers favorite color but im glad we got to know one another and im at peace with myself and long for someone to love me the way you did we learned and grew together and i think loosing each other thought us bolth something that we didn't know could be taught

— Anonymous

To Destiny,

You gave me a nickname and I've never used it since you left me because its yours to use and yours only. My heart will always be open to recieve you again one day, my eyes will forever miss the sight of you smiling at me and the way you dipped your head whenever you were happy. I miss your hair and how you cut it terribly but it still suited you, how you were so open to me and made me feel so special. But you're straight and with him. I love you, star eyed girl, I just wish you loved me too.

— Mel G.

To H,

I hope I get to meet you every summer. Even if you ignore me. I might be selfish, but try not to hurt yourself so much. Be what you want, I won’t question it. I can’t stop you from doing what you’re doing. You’ve got a sort of staring habit, but it doesn’t bother me. You’re the last person I’d ever think would act in this sort of way. And to be clear, I would never hate you. Even when you left me alone. I was really lonely. But to be fair, it wasn’t your fault. I hope we could be a real couple.

— Anonymous

To Penny E.,

You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I love you so much

— Ell

To Anyone,

An inner part of myself would always ask, “What does it mean to be loved?” and I’d never stop thinking about it until I knew. Being loved isn’t being begged for nudes, my bra size, or my conditions. It was being seen without conditions, being asked your day without being sexual, and being yourself without being insulted.When I felt that younger part of me should’ve been begged for nudes by grown men knowing my age but never my consent, feeling seen almost felt foreign. Until I yearned for that l

— Anonymous