what i meant

To Levochka, 19, Friend

I dreamt about you the other day... I told you that I dreamt a dream in my dream.. But I didn't say much because it about you... I don't know what we were doing, but I remember telling you to date me :)))) ahahahahahah.... Oh my, how spineless am I?? Anyways, you agreed directly and I held you tightly.. We played for a bit and I woke up(in my dream), and told myself that it's just a dream.. And it will never be real.. I kinda wish it was but who cares. Blehh :))

— Anonymous

To Levochka, 19, Friend

Another one.. You left, it feels normal.. I mean it should feel this way.. But why am I sad.. It's almost like a part of me is going somewhere far away.. It's not like we know each other very well, yet it feels as if we do. It's not like we ever hung out. Its not like we are supposed to be like this.. I hate it. Make it stop before I ruin it, again.. :/ Bye

— Anonymous

To Levochka, 19, Friend

Gosh.. I can't believe im writing this..Yikes. Anyways, I think I'm slowly falling in love with you.. Sounds weird and shocking as well.. I didn't mean to, but I can't. I hate the way I act with you. I hate the way I text.. I hate everything I do to you... It's almost like we're dating.. I love it yet I hate it.. I don't want this to end like my first one :/ And I truly don't deserve you.. I'm not even your type... Why am I even stressing.. Bye :)

— Anonymous

To PyotrBD, 19, Ex

This might be the last one :).. I love you and I really really hope we never cross paths in love again. I will try my best not to ruin another friendship....:(((( And I miss you.. I miss being your friend.. Goodbye, my first ever boyfriend:) I love you.. I hope you meet someone who truly treasures you. :) Goodbye.

— Anonymous

To PyotrBD, 19, Ex

I think thw thing is have for you is different from earlier... I am sorry for the way I have acted towards you, my dear.. It was just an experience, I love it very much. But perhaps the thing we had was built up with not much understandings and we needed more depth.... :/ I am sorry for ruining the friendship between you and me.. And I think I'm falling for someone close to me :/(again). I just hope that I wont do that between me and him :( I really do like him... Bye:(

— Anonymous

To PyotrBD, 19, Ex

Hi.. I didn't write much.. I dreamt twice or thrice about you in total and I do really love you... But lately I think this feeling is slightly changing. I still want you to talk to me but I feel like, us separating is better for both of us :)... I cried thinking about us, yes "us".... Quite shameful isn't it? ;).. I love tou so dearly.. I never should have let you go. But letting you go made me meet so many new people.. I love you so much. But its time for me to let go...

— Anonymous

To rylee J., 14, Crush

i wish we could’ve danced. i miss you baby. and im sorry that i ever loved you, you are just so perfect and i wanted to be the one to tell you.

— elin K.

To Charly, Ex

I saw sparks.

— Anonymous

To Kshitiz, Friend

Dear Buddy, I never imagined I'd lose you. You weren't just my best friend; you felt like home. If I ever hurt you or failed you as a friend, I'm truly sorry. Your baddie still misses you more than you'll ever know. Thank you for every laugh, every conversation, and every beautiful memory. I wish we'd met just once. You'll always have a special place in my heart. I'll always be grateful to you. You'll always be in my prayers. How can I forget my first male bestie? I can't forget you, bestie.

— Anonymous

To Renyi L., 21,

So to keep things short, I hope you’re well, and I wanted to tell you that I’m finally pursuing what I’ve always wanted to. I hope you are too. We always argued about whether money could buy happiness, and while I see where you’re coming from, don't burn yourself out please. If you want to be pen pals maybe you could post something on here under the name I put in the email and we could talk a little bit? If not I understand, just know that I still do care, and I'm praying for you all the time.

— Sam W.

To Renyi L., 21,

I didn’t mean for time to get the better of me. Day by day turned into weeks turned into what has almost been two years. The more time went on, the more things changed in my own life. Things are so different now, but even despite this, it wasn’t fair to disappear like you didn’t exist. I hope you know that it wasn’t just you. For my own sanity, I’d rather be a private person who the world could not care less about.

— Sam W.

To Nandani, Friend

Dear Jerry, you were never just my best friend; you were my sister. If I ever made you feel unloved or hurt you in any way, I'm deeply sorry. I still miss you more than you'll ever know. Thank you for every memory, every laugh, every conversation, and every moment that made my life brighter. You'll always be my sister in my heart. I'll forever be grateful that life gave me a sister like you, even if it was only for a while. I truly hope life is kind to you. You'll never be forgotten cutie .

— Anonymous

To reid,

i’ll pick him in the end. we won’t work. i love him. you won’t ever read this and ill never tell you this. he will always be a part of me no matter what. you give me love, but i dont love you. i chose this color bc its the same as my eyes that you love so much. eyes that wander to him. love, bug

— c

To peyton, Ex

will it be you in the end? did i ruin everything? i’ll always choose you no matter who im with you know that. i wish you’d talk to me or text me back on the flipper even if its a rude text. i love you so much- how can i be happy with someone else? your hurting my heart pey. i messed up bad please forgive me i need you. he doesn’t understand me like you do. 4 years pey, 4 years. i reread your letters every night. it can’t be him. it’ll always be you. come back to me. love, flatliner

— chloe

To Joe S.,

You need to do better for yourself before things get worse.

— Anonymous

To Jalynn L., 21,

I want to write this message because I feel that message will be the last I will sent, I don't think you will reply, I don't think I will ever send one again. I've come to realize that I will never have you again, I won't know you the way I use to. You won't every be mine, time has created a unmendable distance, I am no longer part of you. That realization is crushing, your soul is still engraved in every part of me. Letting you fall out of my touch will always be my biggest regret...I love you.

— S

To Noah Q.,

I don't think any amount of words or any number of tears could explain all that I've felt and everything I've thought about over losing you. I've gone through so many different phases of it, so many different rounds of grief, and none of them seems to be it for me. I still can't let go. I think the only thing that could've healed me is you coming back, but you're gone forever this time. I don't think you coming back could ever save me either. Especially after knowing I held no value to you.

— T

To Hargitt, 17,

I fear there is a power imbalance in the way I idolize you and the others. I feel subpar intellectually compared to you and I don’t think that is a healthy foundation for a relationship. So maybe I’m happy you’re leaving. Or maybe I’m just glad that I have an excuse for why this ended that wasn’t because of me. It’s quite relieving I can’t lie. I really don’t know if I would fall for you having had the time. I keep thinking about it but I genuinely do not know.

— Sofia

To A,

I really miss you.

— L

To gray,

if am being honest i think theres someone else. youve done nothing to prove to me otherwise. i dont even fully think your over your ex, i think you only ended up saying you liked me bc you realized i acctrally wanted to love you and didnt show lust to you. i dont think im the first nor 2nd option for you and it hurts alot.

— Anonymous

To maroto, 15, Ex

Was I stupid to love you? Was I reckless to help? Was it obvious to everybody else? That I'd fallen for a lie. You were never on my side. Fool me once, fool me twice. Are you death or paradise? Now you'll never see me cry. There's just no time to die.

— mei

To someone,

And I know that you love me You don't need to remind me I should put it all behind me, shouldn't I? But I see her in the back of my mind All the time Like a fever, like I'm burning alive Like a sign Did I cross the line? Mm, hm Well, good things don't last And life moves so fast I'd never ask who was better 'Cause she couldn't be More different from me Happy and free in leather

— Anonymous

To someone,

i'll never experience teenage love and i don't know what's the point if it's not love.

— Anonymous

To Ellie, Ex

Words will never describe everything I feel about you. You defend her when you know what she did to me and you didn't give a shit. You would love her more than anything even if she's a lying, incel, raping, piece of shit. Your love was always conditional and I was to dumb to realize that. I had to throw my fucking life away to make sure you didn't waste yours. The way you ruined me but made me feel like I was all that mattered, I hope you see so you can hold yourself accountable for once.

— El