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To Yo S., Friend

Damn, it’s been 3 days without communication and I should admit it all, I miss you, I miss how we communicate and cheer each other up. There are times that I’d hope to see your name on my notification but it never really happened. I hope you’d stop drinking alcoholic beverages thinking that it would help you move on, but it would not, and it’s bad for your health. Take good care of yourself yo, prioritize yourelf pud, Sayang kaayo atong streak!

— Bossing

To Seán, 21, Crush

Life was beautiful with you, it was already beautiful before but with you it felt like i finally reached a stage where i was truly home. Life without you is different and i will always miss you.

— Anonymous

To Seán, 21, Friend

I miss you even after a year and i’d do anything to be with you now cos everything got worse after u left. I miss u and I hope u come back soon, one day. Even if it dont make much sense, u were important and i still remember u fondly for some reason. I really still hope u come back to me one day.

— Anonymous

To Tabatha R., 25, Friend

What is meant to say was I miss you. And I have said it before, but I mean like I miss you miss you. I miss when you would come over for dinner. I miss when we would just hang out on the couch. I miss feeling tired but never wanting to call it quits. I miss being around you. I want that closeness of being your friend but im scared that you will leave if I ask you to be present the way you were.

— Anonymous

To T, 22,

it’s me. i hesitated sending that moon photo to you. i know, i know —i look so desperate when i do that, i am unfortunately fully aware of it. but hey, at least this time i did not remove it like how i always do because i regret it a second later. i want to tell you all the good and bad about my life right now, but i won’t simply for my sanity. i don’t know why i do this, i hope the day that i begin to not care about you comes quickly. i miss you.

— A

To Thomas, 22,

it’s me. i am writing once again in hopes of overcoming the pain of yearning, and not in hopes of you coming across this letter. today felt normal, but it seemed new and refreshing, because for a long time, you were constantly on my mind, wondering how you were doing. but today marks the first time that i did not think much of you —it felt nice, sure, but i know i will still long for you at the end of the day. i still miss you, FK. i hope you enjoyed your summer vacation in japan.

— A

To my parent, 16,

i'm trans and terrified to tell you but i need you to know the real me. please don't hate me

— Anonymous

To dakota, 19, Friend

you moved away to university and promised we'd stay close but you've become a stranger. i miss who we used to be together

— Anonymous

To Thomas, 22,

You don’t know it, but I added your city in my Weather App. Maybe that alone speaks so much how much I want you in my life, but you don’t want me and I understand that that’s all you can offer me. I am still navigating my way into moving on and figuring out if what I felt was already something deep, but one thing’s for sure — I miss you so much, Thomas, I hope I held you tighter and kissed you longer until I can’t anymore. I wish I looked back at you that night.

— A

To my parent, 18,

mom you say mental health is just an excuse but i'm literally drowning and your denial is making everything worse. i need help

— Anonymous

To river, 17, Friend

you're addicted to your phone and social media and it's destroying our relationship. i miss the person you were before all this started

— Anonymous

To willow, 17, Sibling

you're my twin sister but depression makes you feel like a stranger. i miss laughing with you and i don't know how to bring you back

— Anonymous

To best friend R., 27,

i can never forgive myself for not checking in on you more often when you stopped responding. i thought you might wanted to be left alone, wondering what i did wrong. it took weeks until your last online stat updated. in 2 months, i only asked you once how you've been. 2 days later you were dead. i didn't know you were in the hospital fighting for your live. if i only messaged you more often. perhaps you would have told me and i would have had the chance to visit you. i'll miss you forever.

— Anonymous

To dani, 18, Friend

you left our friend group chat and blocked all of us. what we did was fucked up and we all know it. i miss you every single day

— Anonymous

To brooklyn, 20, Friend

you were supposed to be my maid of honor someday. we planned our weddings together when we were twelve. i miss my best friend so much

— Anonymous

To cam, 18, Friend

i replay our last conversation over and over wondering if there was something i could have said to make you stay. probably not but i can't stop thinking about it

— Anonymous

To riley, 18, Friend

you're struggling with suicidal thoughts and i'm terrified of losing you. please stay. the world needs you in it, i need you in it

— Anonymous

To my parent,

mom i know you think i'm just being dramatic but my anxiety is real and it's killing me. i need help but i don't know how to ask without disappointing you more

— Anonymous

To my parent, 16,

i know i'm not the easiest kid to love but i need you to try harder. i'm falling apart and i need my parent, not another critic

— Anonymous

To my parent,

dad you haven't hugged me since i was like 12 and sometimes i just really need one. i know men don't cry but i do and i need you to be okay with that

— jordan

To parker, 17, Sibling

you're my twin but sometimes i feel like we're complete strangers. i miss feeling close to you and i don't know how to get back there

— Anonymous

To madison, 17, Friend

i cut myself last night for the first time in months. all i wanted was to call you but we're not friends anymore so i just sat there bleeding and crying alone

— Anonymous

To skylar, 18, Friend

i know you don't want to hear this but you need to leave him. he's destroying you and everyone can see it except you

— Anonymous

To my parent, 17,

mom i know you're doing your best raising us alone but sometimes i need you to just listen instead of trying to fix everything immediately

— Anonymous