احساسِ جرم کے نہ بھیجے گئے پیغامات

To Brian A., Crush

I ponder if the choice you made was really yours or it was affected by others around you. I wish you didn't have to lie just to make me feel better. All the people I hated became your closest allies. Maybe you're just someone who cares alot about what others think. Anyway, was that choice really yours or was it someone else's? I did lots of dumb things, I'm aware. Just wish you'd said it. Maybe it was a mistake from the start. It was never our choice to make, I guess. Bye, lovely stranger. 12/25

— Anonymous

To Rehan,

I'm so sorry I never saw your efforts. I'm sorry that I never showed up or showed you my true feelings. I was going through so many family problems but I could never tell anyone. it's not that I never felt anything. I couldn't see past my problems. I hope you are happy with her , she's so much better for you than I ever could have been. You were the first guy to be so kind to me. I'll always remember you.

— Anonymous

To Jahangeer,

I hope one day I wake up and forget that it ever happened. I'm sorry I got so attached to you. I promise I won't come back.

— Anonymous

To Jahangeer,

I really wish I could tell you how much I really wanted it to work. I'm sorry for what happened to you. I wanted to be there for you and I couldn't because my own childhood trauma was getting triggered. I didn't want to ruin things but I have so much trauma too. It's hard to trust anyone when you've been betrayed I get it. I've been through it too. But I was willing to try for you. I wish you would have told me what you feel. I'm tired of hurting and I wish things were different. I miss u 💔

— Anonymous

To adri, 16,

soon you'll be 17, and i don't know you as well. we've texted a couple times but i can tell i'm not your bestfriend. it's okay tho cause i know i was for some time. i'm not ashamed to say it was the best time of my life. sometimes i wonder if we think of each other at the same time. maybe you don't even think about me. idk. i do. everyday.

— G

To Kishan N., Crush

I wish I never liked you. Moving on from someone who I never meant anything to isn't easy.

— Angrypikachu

To Kishan N., Crush

I know that we barely even talked at all but is it still wrong to like you? I hope not. I wanna tell you everything, every little thing that I felt, there's so much I wanna tell you but I'm scared, I'm scared that you wont like me back and its okay. You moved away and I miss seeing your stupid face. Even if I couldn't talk to you just walking next to you in a crowd was enough for me even if you never noticed me. I know its stupid but I like you so much, I contemplate telling you every day & cant

— AngryPikachu

To Atsumu M., 26, Crush

I wish I could tell you how I really feel, maybe I can if you actually wanted, I have these feelings that I hadn't had before, I didn't realize how much I missed you until you were gone, but I still love you

— Shinsuke K.

To Maggie H., 13, Ex

I’m sorry for overreacting, but at the time I was scared. Your friends threatened me, and I took that and called it “abuse”. The main reason I dated you is because I can’t say no. I’m truthfully sorry, and I hope you have a good day if you’re reading this.

— Keaton T.

To Vi,

You always used to say that everyone thought your favorite color was purple. I could tell it bothered you. I still chuckle about it sometimes. Your favorite color is yellow. I wish I never made you uncomfortable. I don’t know what I did to make you feel that way. I remember first getting out of the hospital, and running to see you. I’m still angry, but, I think I miss you.

— Anonymous

To Tamanna V., Crush

I love your voice, your presence in class and the way you behaves. You're different than everyone I love you so much I know you never noticed me but I do, everyday. I waits for you to see your cute smile every lecture ends my eyes searches you. we met last year and this our last year together I wish I could ever let you know that I loves you and just for you I don't go to any other girls. I started studying to look good in front of you I could never forget your beautiful eyes. You're everything

— V

To Andrea F., 20, Crush

I just wish you had given me a chance. I'm so alone, Andy. It took so much courage to do what I did and you just ignored me. Why? What did I do? Is it just the way I look? I feel so disgusting. I knew I didn't have a chance with someone as perfect as you, and I know you don't owe me anything; I i just wish things were different. I wish I was different. I'm so ashamed.

— Anonymous

To my parent, 56,

I just want my daddy. I want you to just be nice to me. I want you to be nice to my mommy. I want you to think that other people are important and shouldn’t die because they don’t look like you. I wish you weren’t an ass, and I want a hug. I’m sorry I blocked you, but you’re being mean and I’m mad at you. I miss my daddy. Where did you go? I wanna go home.

— Anonymous

To myself,

I promise to be your protector and friend. Sorry if it took me so long to understand, you are the only one I have for the rest of my life. Love youuu.

— Anonymous

To pipa, 15,

hi pa, i never thought i'd write you one of these. aku sebenarnya nak mintak maaf, sebab aku held so much weight and hate for you, i never realised that when we actually became friends again, and you were going through sm pain and suffering, i feel bad for you. i realised that the 'kifarah' or karma i wanted you to receive didn't actually give me anything. it didn't benefit me. so im sorry, aku harap yang the rest of the year for you lebih baik daripada sekarang.

— R

To R C.,

-continued- I think you get the point of how sorry I am, and what ive been thinking of lately. 2 days ago, I saw your position posted so I applied, today I was called about it. I do wonder if one day youll resent me for taking over, but I wouldve been upset if it was anyone else. I did it becauee in a way I feel it'll bring me closer to you. And I also...i do know that you know being at my campus is destroying my mental health, i know you understand, im just sorry, i feel selfish. (Continued).

— K B.

To R C.,

-continued- im sorry for the behavior of my campus for causing this chaos. You didnt deserve that...i wish I couldve done something more. I also wish you knew how bad I feel constantly thinking I could've done something more. Everyday I miss you, Everyday I think about you, Everyday im wondering how youre doing...what youre doing..Everyday I constantly replay that day and what could've been different. I overthink about all the details im not aware of when it comes to the campus (continued)

— K B.

To R C.,

So, its been a bit since I wrote something...the past few weeks have been a doozey..so here's goes. Last week Wednesday, marks the day I started my anti anxiety medication, and the day you were let go...what a day. Today marks a full week that has passed since then. I am still in shock, confused, angry, sad, depressed, anxious, overwhelmed, I still cant believe it happened, I miss you very much and it still doesn't feel real. I wish i could fully put into words how sorry i am(..to be continued)

— K B.

To the old me, 13, Myself

i wish i could've slapped you in the face so hard but i think i would have just made things worse, as if every minor convenience didn't make everything feel like a stab wound dude someone should've intervened but there wasn't anyone around willing to do it and it only took you till something irreversible made everything feel real, you wanted to feel the love of the world and it just gave you the only thing you could give back, hate. but i'm so glad i escaped, nobody deserve to be evil forever.

— milo

To Shandiin T., 18, Ex

I'm sorry. I hope you know I have been punished for my actions and I hope you can find peace

— Anonymous

To Vega, Ex

I'll learn how to move on, I'm sorry I'm having a hard time to. I'm sorry for everything.

— Anonymous

To ash B., 16, Ex

you really liked the backrooms and slate blue. i tried making the colour as similar as possible :( i still miss you anytime i hear french, or think about the sun or flowers or alnst. youll never see this, but im sorry for how things ended, and my dms r open, even tho you dont like me anymore

— c

To Taiba C., Friend

Sorry if my words or my actions ever hurted you. I really liked you.. as a person as a human being.. u are such a beautiful soul. I'm sorry but I can't afford the distance we have rn. I hope we stay together like we were.

— Anonymous

To Adam, 17,

Do you like me? Do you think of me as I often as I think of you? At the cinema, I couldn't quite focus completely on the film. I had your name on this loop in my head. How should I approach my feelings? I want to hold your hand and kiss you and be able to tell others that you're mine. Maybe writing this is weird, but I need to get my thoughts out. I'm sorry for not responding to your texts, I'm scared my friends are right and I'm too obvious in how I feel.

— Anonymous