Unsent messages about confusion

To You,

I work so hard. I've spent our entire relationship learning better communication and taking care of everything. used to be more back and forth but now there is nothing, just me taking care of everything again. I'm very tired and I don't understand how you don't see this is killing me; I've tried explaining it in all the ways I can, but I don't think you ever will. I hate how conflicting this is because I don't want to leave-- I love you, and you are the only one who I like spending time with.

— Anonymous

To M E.,

why dont you just tell me how you feel. i feel insane trying to figure it out and yet you act like you dont care. was is casual when we laughed about how daniel caeser was the only thing i listened to and that same day u put him on ur note?? i think not. but ik u dont feel the same coz i see how u look at every other girl here. so why dont you talk to me..?

— J K.

To someone,

i wanted to tell you how much i liked you...but you never even told me your name. and what i found out really hurt me. u liked my best friend and she knew how much i liked you. i still think about u tho...

— Anonymous

To Samar, 15, Crush

I rlly rlly like u and u don’t understand much I love u. I liked u for so long and it hurts me that u don’t think of me the same way and instead you like my friend. Now I’ve been told she likes u too and I wish u luck cuz there is nothing I can do expect watch it happen. But I will always love you and I hope one day you will see my love and like me and maybe treat me like I deserve to be treated I’m going to let you go cuz I need this for me, so this is my last time talking about you I love you.

— R S.

To myself,

Go to therapy, get help. I know you won’t listen, because its been a century since you first noticed that you are not okay. You are so afraid of being caught you form plans to help you escape. It’s not a game, ending with you stopping being a coward and committing IT. The only thing that has been blocking you from IT is the fear of how your family would react, you don’t want to leave them alone, it’ll hurt them. Try therapy, before you are careless enough that you are taken out by something else

— Anonymous

To Hardy, 30,

Yearning at 12:11AM. I want to be with you, but I know I can't.

— Sway Late

To Dilshan,

There were moments when I asked myself if it was alright to make a move but it was too risky. What if you were in a relationship with another person or think I’m too desperate to be with you? Now, I’m letting the thought of you to drift away from me. Maybe you were a lesson I needed to learn. That alone is not regret but a signal for greater things meant to last.

— Anonymous

To Dilshan,

I still remember you even after that one encounter that turned me off. I don’t know why but I expected something to happen but there was none. Maybe I was too delusional and held on to the possibility of creating a connection with you. Maybe I did idealize you many times and honestly, you were really one of a kind. Mahirap akong makalimot. You have a place in my heart. I hope you reach your dreams and find what you’re looking for in life. Thank you for the memories.

— Anonymous

To someone,

I just feel so sad and depressed. I cannot tell if I just don’t like what’s around me and what it’s doing to me or that I just don’t like myself. I just want to close my else, not to feel or be concerned with anything, and never wake up.

— Anonymous

To pipa, 15,

hi pa, i never thought i'd write you one of these. aku sebenarnya nak mintak maaf, sebab aku held so much weight and hate for you, i never realised that when we actually became friends again, and you were going through sm pain and suffering, i feel bad for you. i realised that the 'kifarah' or karma i wanted you to receive didn't actually give me anything. it didn't benefit me. so im sorry, aku harap yang the rest of the year for you lebih baik daripada sekarang.

— R

To R C.,

-continued- im sorry for the behavior of my campus for causing this chaos. You didnt deserve that...i wish I couldve done something more. I also wish you knew how bad I feel constantly thinking I could've done something more. Everyday I miss you, Everyday I think about you, Everyday im wondering how youre doing...what youre doing..Everyday I constantly replay that day and what could've been different. I overthink about all the details im not aware of when it comes to the campus (continued)

— K B.

To R C.,

So, its been a bit since I wrote something...the past few weeks have been a doozey..so here's goes. Last week Wednesday, marks the day I started my anti anxiety medication, and the day you were let go...what a day. Today marks a full week that has passed since then. I am still in shock, confused, angry, sad, depressed, anxious, overwhelmed, I still cant believe it happened, I miss you very much and it still doesn't feel real. I wish i could fully put into words how sorry i am(..to be continued)

— K B.

To big t,

doing jack shit wont get you any closer to an engineering job. the more you waste time doing nothing after telling me of all people you have to do life stuff was a dead giveaway i was nothing more than a week long excitement. you say that like the co-captain and student council president doesn't understand the concept of business. don't keep your team waiting and next time don't tell someone you're seeing you make excuses not to go outside, coward. ps, an hour and 30 minutes isnt long distance.

— Anonymous

To someone,

I don't know who else to say this but I really want to feel romantic love. Sure. Friends and family are nice. But I want to be loved by someone who could understand me in a way nobody else ever could... and also, maybe get railed real good.

— Anonymous

To mikey, 14, Crush

now let me just tell the truth, I really really liked you. so much that it made me want to rip my heart out of my ribs and chuck it into a meat grinder. not just because you were hard to get, but because I couldn't read any signs. you weren't just a friend to bond to slipknot over, I really did like you. I swear that it's way easier to tell with other people. god damn.

— Anonymous

To Logan T., 18, Crush

Hi. Do you feel the same about me?? I'm so excited to see you. I'm already finding my clothes for when we hang out. Please want me back or just tell me you don't already, I'm just tired of this feeling and the suspense. Is the hangout a date or am I crazy? Hopefully not just crazy :) 😂 anyway, enjoy what ur doing rn. If u see this, are we hooking up after or? Make sure ik

— Anonymous

To ash B., 16, Ex

you really liked the backrooms and slate blue. i tried making the colour as similar as possible :( i still miss you anytime i hear french, or think about the sun or flowers or alnst. youll never see this, but im sorry for how things ended, and my dms r open, even tho you dont like me anymore

— c

To Daner,

I miss you. I don’t think I will ever be over you. Your ghost follows me around every day and however illogical and impossible I can’t stop the wishing I could just kiss you again, just lay in your arms again. I have dreams about it too, and they crush me. I want to see you, but I still love you and I don’t know if it’s a good idea because I think you have moved on. Which destroys me. I still feel that connection to you like i never have. I wish i didn’t still think you’re my soulmate

— Anonymous

To Taiba C., Friend

Sorry if my words or my actions ever hurted you. I really liked you.. as a person as a human being.. u are such a beautiful soul. I'm sorry but I can't afford the distance we have rn. I hope we stay together like we were.

— Anonymous

To Faiz, Friend

The bond I have with you cannot be compared with anyone, i don't have a message i never sent you, but I have a lot of thoughts i couldn't say to you. Just like, how much lucky I am to have you and how precious this friendship is for me. You did things i never knew someone could do for me. I mean I'm not good at explaining but u are the calm in the choas. And u are the choas in my boredom. You are someone I really really feel connected to. You are my only friend i wish to talk every day every hr.

— Anonymous

To Namra R., Friend

You're the best person I've ever met. I never thought we would be so close, you've always been my favourite even when we were not close but you're genuinely a Supercalifragilidticexpialidocious person to me

— Anonymous

To Mubasshir I., Friend

I just want to tell you how precious you are for me. You are the person I love to be with. You are someone I'm glad to have.. you are a lot to me. I hope we stay together i just wish.. we form something unbreakable I want you by my side always and I hope u feel the same. You are the flower I talk about you are hidden in the things I look and admire. I can't help but be confused about the thing I have with you.. a little crush? Or something more.

— Anonymous

To Adam, 17,

Do you like me? Do you think of me as I often as I think of you? At the cinema, I couldn't quite focus completely on the film. I had your name on this loop in my head. How should I approach my feelings? I want to hold your hand and kiss you and be able to tell others that you're mine. Maybe writing this is weird, but I need to get my thoughts out. I'm sorry for not responding to your texts, I'm scared my friends are right and I'm too obvious in how I feel.

— Anonymous

To Vega L., Ex

I'm sorry for ruining things. I carry so much guilt. I wish so badly that we could go back to the way things used to be. I may not be the person you'd want anymore but to me it's always going to be you. If I were to be with someone else I'd only end up looking for you through them. I'm not your first and I might be person you might never want to go back to. I've been trying to accept that. It's so hard. I miss YOU. So much. I'd change everything about myself and I'd still continue to wait.

— Char