Unsent messages to a crush

To sidd, 18, Crush

I never told you how I really felt about you and now we're graduating so now I never will. I have wanted you from a distance for years, but just when I figure myself out you show up. the one i've always wanted. I got scared and didn't even realize until it was too late. and now you will barely talk to me and will only stare from a distance, a distance I so desperately long to close. I don't know. I'll get over us someday, maybe after graduation.

— Anonymous

To my crush,

I know you might now love me right now. I know at some point you did like me but I don’t know where you stand now, it’s so confusing. I say it’s just a crush but I’ve liked you forever now. I cannot wait for the future, and I pray that we somehow end up together.

— Anonymous

To Adam S., Crush

I hate that you've been ignoring me. I have wanted nothing more than to talk to you. I miss you even when we're in the same room twice a week. Sometimes, I have this big feeling that we're meant to be but maybe that's just fantasy. I'll never forget the first time you introduced yourself to me. I hold onto that memory like my life depends on it. The idea of never seeing or speaking to you again kills me. Silly me, for I've fallen in love with you. I hope this isn't the end.

— E

To gae., 13, Crush

hey gae. sono io mi manchi molto anche se siamo nella stessa classe . tvb❤️✨💫 so potevamo essere amici ma vabbè . possiamo chiamarlo destino.💭

— Anonymous

To Girish D., Crush

I can list so many things I like about you, given the slim chance you actually know about this website and found my message to you and are curious about what I love about you. I'll list them; Your eyes, your smile, your voice, your laugh, your happy face, your focused face, your intelligence, your manners, you're polite, you were never rude to me, I love your culture tho I still want to learn about it, I love your name, your curly hair, your style, & I feel joy when I see you. 🩵

— Anonymous

To Girish D., Crush

You're so beautiful, Girish, and I've liked you for about a month(?) or so. You're so polite, smart, silly, and quite similar to me, and you make me happy even if you don't notice I'm there. We haven't had a class together since 9th grade, so you probably don't remember me. I love you so much, and I may sound weird right now, but Girish I do genuinely love so many things about you, I wish I could tell you...but I'm just the quiet girl. You're so beautiful, and I really want you to know that.

— Anonymous

To Manja, Crush

This writing is sincerely from my heart..... Aby minta maaf sangat dekat manja walaupun dah berkali kali aby minta maaf tapi kalini aby betul2 rasa sedih and menyesal sangat. There's so much things i lost from you because of my behavior..... Aby tak mintak pun jadi macamni :(. Please dont break the promise to marry each other sayang.... I love you so much sayang. Take your time and please let me try again to be a better person for you....

— Ai

To T, Crush

Rowing's over and I won't see you again. That's not true, I might physically see you, but talk to you? No. I texted you and you haven't responded and it's been days. Maybe I'm too anxious.

— ARP

To Charles S., 18, Crush

You hurt me, yet I still want you so bad. You made me feel so special and wanted. You made me think you wanted me back. How dumb I was to think that you were different from other men. How foolish I was to think you would be better. But at the end of the day you're just a man. I was stupid to think that you wouldn't have hurt me. Cause at the end of the day, who would want someone like me. Apparently not you.

— Anonymous

To Mike H., Crush

My world revolved around you and you forced the responsibility of saving your life. The trauma in my life began when you took yours. 25 years I lived with the guilt of not understanding you were asking for help. I was only 16 and thought I loved you, and I had no life skills. No one offered me help, no one asked me to talk about it, no one knew you told me. I've lived with guilt, fear of abandonment, fear of allowing someone to get close to me, and you took my life when you took yours.

— S

To T, Crush

Maybe one day I'll be able to tell you. But, uhh, otherwise, i dunno. I've noticed the way I write changes with whatever I've read last. Even on paper, I guess, nothing is mine. Not even my style.

— ARP

To Hardy, 29, Crush

First entry this May, to more entries to come! Anw, I had a chance to bond with your mom 💙 my heart is just so happy. If I could, I would.

— Sway Late

To T, Crush

Idk if i run my mouth about this website then you might end up seeing this message. I prolly will, but rowing is over and i don't think i'll ever end up in a conversation with you again. Dammit. Damn my social anxiety. Damn my stupid mind and my stupid pessimism. Damn the fact that i only like myself at rowing because i can be free there and nowhere else. Damn hating myself after max. Damn my aggression and damn not thinking before i speak. I don't love war and that text wasn't a bet. Sorry. Cya

— ARP

To T, Crush

I love you. I wish you knew. I hope you do. After Max, I thought I couldn't love. I thought my only love was the feeling of rowing on the river. You've been so kind to me, more than you'll ever know. Even if it was just being nice. But no one just picks up my glasses off the grass after I get my hat back from R and gives them back to me, especially after watching from such a distance. Idk. That was so effing cool of you and you'll never know. Thanks.

— ARP

To kko, Crush

it was for the better. you did it for your own good. i will always watch you from afar and cheer you on. just know i still care for you. i love you so much.

— rjl

To kko, Crush

even after we parted ways, i kept on looking for you. long after i had already left my own innocence behind.

— rjl

To kko, Crush

i wish we could go back to how it used to be. i much rather lose anyone but you. its all my fault. i would choose to be by your side in every lifetime. i love you so much.

— rjl

To kko, Crush

from now on, i will write you at least one letter per day. theres so much i wish i could build up the courage to tell you.

— rjl

To kko, Crush

i loved you. for years i did. and i still do.

— rjl

To Kadence J., 13, Crush

I wish you chose me and not her even though I know she was probably a better choice. I know Im not as pretty or as smart, but I love you more, and I'm willing to fight for it. I will be waiting I hope you know I will be waiting for you to let go. I love you Tiny

— S D.

To G. O., 13, Crush

HEY . SONO IO . MI MANCA IL MODO IN CUI PARLAVAMO E SEI ANCORA MOLTO IMPORTANTE PER EM . TI VOGLIO MOLTO BENE E SO DI AVERTI DETTO DI NON SCRIVERMI MA VOGLIO ANCHE OGGI CHE TE MI PARLASSI COME MI PARLAVI IN GENNAI 2025 QUANDO ERAVAMO VICINI DI BANCO . TI VOGLIO BENE . CIAO .❤️‍🩹

— Anonymous

To Noah, Crush

I love you. But is it really love? Can I really love you? Could anyone love me? I don't know. I don't think I'll ever know, right up until the day I die. But do you love me? You probably don't. You just see me as a friend, if anything. I don't know if I'll have the courage to tell you. And I know that if you don't like me, it will tear our small friend group apart. And I know we'll each find our other half. So I'm sorry. I'm sorry I don't want to be honest with you. I'm sorry, Noah.

— MK

To adrià M., 16, Crush

it feels wrong to pick the crush option cause i think you were way more than that. i wanted to tell you that i wasn’t being casual about any of it. that i was paying attention to every small thing, that it actually mattered to me. but i saw how easy it was for you and i didn’t want to make it heavy or awkward, so i just went along with it. i think you left thinking it meant less than it did, and i didn’t correct you.

— Anonymous

To guillem, Crush

i know you have a girlfriend and i know you'll never like me, but i wish we could at least be friends.

— Anonymous