what i meant

An unsent message to Bebeghurl J.

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To Bebeghurl J.,

I cannot stop thinking about you. I worry about you every single day. I want to be sure that you've eaten, and that you're getting enough rest, and that you're okay. I want to go to you and see you and be with you and hug you and smell you and hear your voice and see that smile and reassure you that one day we'll be together. You've been appearing in my dreams like you always do, and I've been trying to work myself to exhaustion and make my body want to sleep longer, to be with you longer.

— Anonymous

Aug 31 3
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To myself,

It's 1h30 am. I overate tonight. I did get my period back tho. Thank god

— Anonymous

3 hr. ago 1

To Kyra, Ex

He told me he started to learn it just for me. You would have already been able to play it if I had asked you, except he means it and you didn't

— Her

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To ...., Crush

everytime i have to face you i get reminded of all the moments we shared. i miss you. way too much

— Anonymous

3 hr. ago 0

To emilia,

tule takaisin, mutta älä tule.

— ...

11 hr. ago 0

To someone,

Fuck I miss you. I hate seeing you.

— Anonymous

11 hr. ago 0

To Arminas,

I genuinely do love you even if you don’t love me the same way <3 I told you I’ll always use yellow so you know it’s me :)

— C

12 hr. ago 0

To navya,

is this a slow burn of enemies to frnds to lovers '' ?

— v

12 hr. ago 0

To Jimena,

Idk what to sayyy tonight other than I miss youuu. I’m so lonely frrrrr I might play with someone random ppl in the hall like play eye tag and “accidentally” brush against them bc I’m bored and these ppl keep looking at me but I will NOT end up liking or dating these ppl. I’m only for you Bebe.

— Anonymous

22 hr. ago 1

To someone,

I hope this gives you the closure you needed. You can text me whenever, if you want.

— Anonymous

yesterday 1

To someone,

Because it’s not for you dumb fuck

— Anonymous

yesterday 1

To someone,

Yes, I will not check. It's too confusing.

— Anonymous

yesterday 1

To someone,

I’m still gonna dorky. I didn’t even think you still checked it. I doubt you ever will again.

— Anonymous

yesterday 1

To someone,

You don't have to say anything on the websites anymore

— Anonymous

yesterday 1

To someone,

You were the best thing that ever happened to me and it’s 100% my fault everything happened.

— Anonymous

yesterday 1

To someone,

I'm sorry too

— Anonymous

yesterday 1

To someone,

I do know dorky. I know I destroyed everything. I don’t know why I can’t stop trying. I’m sorry.

— Anonymous

yesterday 1

To someone,

Okay, I will not say anything ever again

— Anonymous

yesterday 3

To someone,

Fuck no Alex. I want nothing to do with you. This is the most you’ll ever get from me. Ever. You ruined every single chance I gave you. Get that through your dense head.

— Anonymous

yesterday 2

To someone,

So my first mistake was actually Tatum. Can we call?

— Anonymous

yesterday 1

To someone,

Your first mistake was believing that every post was from me. There are so many things I want to tell/explain to you, but I would never express them on the websites.

— Anonymous

yesterday 1

To someone,

I genuinely believe losing you and treating you how I did was the second biggest mistake of my life.

— Anonymous

yesterday 1

To someone,

I’m gonna get better and stay better this time

— Anonymous

yesterday 1

To someone,

I got better, then much worse

— Anonymous

yesterday 1

To someone,

Years you’ve said that lie

— Anonymous

yesterday 1