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To devin, Friend

yk I think I'm liking you, but I can't. How can we talk again? You blocked me on everything. I really thought you were nice and could be my guy bsf, but so much happened. I just want you to know that I didn't picture u bad pls come by my grandma's, yk, around there

— Anonymous

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    I'm new to this, I don't know what I'm doing. I've never really had any romantic experiences. All I know is that I want you in my life. I want to experience this with you. I want a love that feels safe, consistent, and where we can both grow. I don't want to control you, I just want to know how to help you feel safe, too. I've been scared of letting someone in for so long. I've done a lot of work to get to a point of being more open to love. And then you popped up. I never planned to catch…

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    Why?? just why are you doing this to me?? 🤦🏽‍♂️

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    To Ishaan, Ex

    im sorry things turned out so sour, but its just not the same anymore

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    To Giuliana, Myself

    Seriously why do i share my feelings all the time? Why can’t I just keep to myself?? I shouldn’t have posted that. She wouldn’t have read it ON HER BIRTHDAY. If I wasn’t so stupid. yes I want her back YES I want my Sua BUT I’m pretty sure my stupidity just ruined everything. This is a lesson to myself. i wanted to be loved and i  just ruined it.

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    To Lexsie,

    I adore you so much I want to scream it to the world

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    To devin, Friend

    yk I think I'm liking you, but I can't. How can we talk again? You blocked me on everything. I really thought you were nice and could be my guy bsf, but so much happened. I just want you to know that I didn't picture u bad pls come by my grandma's, yk, around there

    — Anonymous

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    To nicholas w,

    when i told you the cops will eventually get your ass, remember those words when i see you in court.

    — yk who

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    To Miyu.shreshu, Crush

    Please don't pull away or hide what you're feeling when stress hits. I know society tells men to be strong and quiet, but with me, you never have to carry everything alone or pretend to be okay. u are my baby, and your comfort, happiness, and peace matter to me just as much as ours do. Hold me close, choose us consistently, and let’s work together to rebuild that steady, safe foundation we used to have. You and your love are enough for me—I just want us to be each other's safe space every…

    — Hori pippo

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    To Devin,

    I keep thinking about you every day; maybe we can talk again. I miss our convo on Insta. Love you; hope u are better

    — Anonymous

    2 hr. ago 0

    To Miyu.shreshu,

    Haloo- I want us letting it fracture during difficult moments.I am carrying a lot of quiet fear and guardedness right now nd comfused to but dw ily.Sometimes I act unbothered because showing how much I care feels risky,or I pull back because I am afraid of rejection. But the truth is, I just want softness, reassurance, and a space where I don't have to carry everything alone nd am saying this not for sympathy or being narcissistic,i just want u to the ONE. Nd for me Deepening our connection…

    — Teri horiii

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    To Miyu.shrehsu, Crush

    I want you to know how deeply grateful I am for your presence and for the love you give me every day. Choosing u isn't something I do out of habit-it is an intentional choice I make every single day because I genuinely want to know u care for you, and be ur safe harbor whenever the world feels overwhelming. Lately, though, there is a quiet grief I carry. I catch mysuelf feeling less like your priority and more like an option depending on how busy or stressful your day is. When distance creeps…

    — Anonymous

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    To Caffeine H., Crush

    Halo SHRESHUU kaisa hai<3i really want to know how u feel of me,There's all of a sudden big arguments letting u go from me but trust me i never want to leave u,no matter what kitna bhi. Jhagra ho jaye u r always miyamura to my hori.. rits been more than 5 months us facing all this,we r tired of this,i really miss old us,ik u love me always the more which made me stayed but as u said take carexof my organs..can u take care of my heart,don't let it break it's very easy to break,no need to perfect…

    — Ur amoeba I.

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    To For the Love,

    To the person I haven't met yet, I hope we find each other when we're both ready for something genuine. I'm not looking for perfection. I just want someone who chooses me consistently, communicates honestly, and makes me feel safe enough to love without fear. I want the little things: random updates, late-night talks, genuine affection, reassurance, and a love that doesn't leave me questioning where I stand. I've been hurt before, but I haven't stopped believing that there's someone out…

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    To Robbie,

    I wish you would just listen. I wish I listened to you when I had the chance. I love you more then words and I'll never get to show that to you and im sorry I left. Im sorry I keep texting u when im h1gh too I know you hated when people were h1gh bwvause of your family. Ill never forget wtv we had

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    To kennedy,

    FUCKK WHY DID YOU FIND THATT ON YOUR BIRTHDAY TOO

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    To V,

    Js wanted to say, all the tiktoks that you see in my liked, are ALL, ABOUT, YOU. I love you, and I mean, everything

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    I miss youuuu

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    To someone,

    For someone who wants me to suffer, you seem to care about me more than almost anyone else

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    To D D., 26,

    i have no idea what even ur favorite color is lovely. but blue seems ur style. i wrote down every interaction we had. i love u and i miss u. i wish it could be like the old times. i wish i could hug you. u saved my life. i listen to all ur fav songs cus and i watch every movie and show you like so i can look a lil into ur life. and it gives me closure. im sorry if i ever overstepped any boundaries. ilysm.

    — Anonymous

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    To Giuliana,

    It’s ok that it was awkward, I still really appreciated it and tysm! I hope we can reconnect soon.

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    To aj,

    why didn’t you respond to my text? do you hate me? did you laugh? i just feel like you don’t care, what’s your problem? you talk to everyone else but when i talk to you you’re dismissive and blunt and just weird what is wrong with me? did i do something?

    — h k

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    To anyone, Myself

    i never thought that i would admit this out loud but i feel lost, just like my friends don’t like me as much as i do; i just feel like a background character in my own life not even just in some scenarios my whole life right now. someone that i’ve gone to school with for a year asked me what my name was yesterday i don’t know if other people really don’t notice me or if i just feel that way.

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    To ethan A., 13, Friend

    i don’t like you, or at least i don’t think i do. i guess i don’t want to like you but some part of me does even though i dont, i think of you as a friend but i feel sometimes that you’re a little more but i don’t like you and that’s where im struggling. i don’t stress over what to say to you like the guys i like, i talk to you like you are one of my friends and people keep telling me that you like me. i just wish that i could have a guy friend without them liking me or people thinking you like…

    — Anonymous

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    To aj, Crush

    i really like you and i hoped that you would notice me ever since the gummy ring in fourth grade, i never forgot and now you don’t even remember me. or maybe you do and you don’t want to admit that you know i exist. i just wish i told you how i felt before it was too late and you got too popular to the point where it felt dangerous to tell you

    — Anonymous

    6 hr. ago 0