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An unsent message to Jack

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To Jack, 13, Crush

You’re so pretty and so funny, I know you’d never want someone like me but god do I think so highly of you, I’ll do anything for a moment of your attention. Come talk to me I’m nice, I promise. Also if you ever get this, I’m a guy I’m just trans. You’ll be stuck in my head forever #15

— Anonymous

54 min. ago · Canada 0
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To Carol,

You insisted I sleep, since I will be tired again tmrw. I wanted to talk more though. I wish you were here, in person, and I am curious to see if you are romantic as a bf. I haven't recieved this many messages every morning in a while, altough I keep falling asleep at 2-3 am...

— Her

2 min. ago 0

To Carol,

You asked me what my favourite flower was. I answered that I truly love any that are deep red. You then asked me my fav colour, again. I laughed and answered :"you know it's red, I told you so alr", you laughed at my answer, before replying :"alr, mine used to be green, but it has become blue after seeing your eyes and red after hearing your choice"

— Her

4 min. ago 0

To Dhaval Shah,

You're the reason I open substack 20 times a day, but I can't say it to your face because it sounds like something else

— D

8 min. ago 0

To Veer Tandon,

The first time I ever said those three words, I didn't hear them back. Because you had to end it before you fell in love, didn't you?. I held your face in my hands, Veer. I heard your heartbeat against my chest. How could you not have known. It's been more than a year and I can't let anyone else in anymore. I wish you'd have let me apologise to your mom. I wish it wasn't one-sided.

— Anonymous

11 min. ago 0

To Tylermay, Ex

I'm sorry for everything really. You were my first love and I destroyed you. I did sleep with him and I think it hurts worse that you think im lying to get your attention. I never wanted you to know at all

— Anonymous

13 min. ago 0

To Christina L,

I saw a picture of you today and you had grey roots and it made me tear up a bit because you're growing older, and I wish I could keep the memories of my favourite teacher right there and have you stay the same.

— Anonymous

20 min. ago 0

To Veer Tandon, Ex

Congratulations on graduating babe. I watched the livestream and cried when you walked. I'm so proud of you- sending love from far away

— Anonymous

25 min. ago 0

To J, Parent

You are one evil man, I hate you so fucking much and I would rather have never been born than have you as a father you disgusting piece of human garbage

— Anonymous

51 min. ago 0

To Jack, 13, Crush

You’re so pretty and so funny, I know you’d never want someone like me but god do I think so highly of you, I’ll do anything for a moment of your attention. Come talk to me I’m nice, I promise. Also if you ever get this, I’m a guy I’m just trans. You’ll be stuck in my head forever #15

— Anonymous

54 min. ago · Canada 0

To Jo, Friend

I liked you so much, you were my biggest crush but you said you only saw me as a friend. It’s over now I’ve moved on but I’ll always wonder if you just got scared and you lied because people don’t flirt like that for fun. You’re a good friend the best I could ask for but I’ll always wonder if we could’ve been something more

— Anonymous

60 min. ago 0

To K,

somehow, every day, I’m still reminded of you. To be honest, I miss you a lot. I do understand I stopped our friendship. On Halloween night I told you I liked you. On November 2 you texted me finally saying you didn’t like me. And you were just joking. I was already depressed, but it just got worse from there. It was really important to me for you to understand that I did like you. I do know that you stalk my reposts to be honest I do too whatever. I hope you find somebody that loves you the…

— G.S

1 hr. ago 0

To Dominick M.,

I love you so much. I can't express it in words. BUTTTTT I wanna kiss you to show how much I love you but I'm too nervous.

— Addi J.

2 hr. ago 0

To someone,

I’m gonna puke now!! Have fun!

— Anonymous

2 hr. ago 0

To someone,

No it was not fucking great.

— Anonymous

3 hr. ago 0

To someone,

Oh. That’s just fucking great.

— Anonymous

3 hr. ago 0

To someone,

Accidentally called my bf dorky #fairs what the fuck

— Anonymous

4 hr. ago 0

To Tatum,

Hey, I miss you so fucking much. I don’t know why, I need you so badly right now. I hope you’re okay lmao, how’s heaven? I’m still trying to stay sane but I think I’m one fight away from you. I love you to Saturn and back.

— Xander

4 hr. ago 1

To someone,

Get out of my fucking head. You’ve moved on completely.

— Anonymous

5 hr. ago 0

To felix,

i think about that day i cried in front of you at school often. I blamed it on the brownie. really, it was something you said. “it just feels like you dont really wanna talk to me.” im sure you meant no harm by it but my stupid high self spiraled. i really dont feel good enough for you. The reality is i always love talking to you, and listening to you talk. i just wish i was good at it. i always end up nodding along and saying nothing and it feels like im not interested but i am. i love…

— J

10 hr. ago 1

To E,

time can’t change how much love i have for you.

— Anonymous

11 hr. ago 2

To Nay N., 15, Myself

I’m so bored

— Anonymous

12 hr. ago · New Zealand 0

To K W., Crush

Yeah okay I feel pathetic now. I recognise the back of your head in crowds. You smile at me but its just because your nice. Don't stop being nice. But please stop being dry, I didn't add you on snap just to get one snap a day. Good luck on Friday! I wish we actually knew one another- I genuinely want you. Yikes gang i'm yearning... perhaps we will have a class together next semester and YOU will be the one to fall this time?

— Anonymous

17 hr. ago · canada 1

To Ferlin king, Ex

I miss you so much, I understand I ghosted you but you knew why I had to, wish you waited. Why did I have to come back with you and a other girl, can it just be us and only us again?

— Faz

18 hr. ago 0

To fons,

I wish you would’ve just ignored me, cause I don’t have it in me to ever fully leave you behind. It’s my own fault and I know that, I’m sorry. I just missed you and I remember how I acted and what I said, and I’m sorry for putting that on you. It’s so difficult without you sometimes but I know it isn’t good for us to speak and we shouldn’t be. Please keep me blocked. I can’t do this much more. It hurts the same every time every time please stop

— Anonymous

20 hr. ago 0