An unsent message to Jack

To Evan, 20, Ex

Idk why you don’t want me, instead you want people that are okay with hurting you, in moments of weakness I wonder if I hurt you too if you’d want me like you want them, but I could never purposely do that, I just know that when we dated you loved what I did for you, I wasn’t him or her so you didn’t love *me*, unfortunately you expected what we had with her but the way she talked abt you showed how she actually feels abt you and you didn’t listen, you’re an idiot, but I still love you for some…

— Anonymous

To Gaten,

I feel so ashemed for how I’ve acted but u should too. It’s both our fault. It’s been a long time since we last talked. Give me a sign if you still think about me. Unblock me on one of your social media accounts.

— Anonymous

To Jack, 13, Crush

You weren’t at school today and It really made me realize how good you make my day, today was boring and plain but with you around it’s always funny and more interesting, anyways thought I should write because I’m bored and the more I write the less crazy I feel for liking you. Literally can’t decide if I want you to see this or if I would die if you did I miss you see you on Monday. Sincerely- your favorite background character

— Anonymous

To Jimena,

I miss youuuu

— Anonymous

To Bubs,

Would it be bad if I took him back

— Anonymous

To Harvey Y., 18,

I miss when you call me squiddo, I miss hanging out, the weekly sleepovers. All of it. But you were horrible to ppl and I was blind enough to let you do it for so long while actively defending you, your mental state is no excuse. I'm glad we aren't friends anymore, I'm proud that everyone you hurt felt safe enough to come to me, to forgive me. But part of me does miss you. You were my best friend. I hope you're doing better. I've even put this in my fav colour so on the off chance you see…

— Kay Y.

To L,

I swallowed like 5 melatonin pills, how am I supposed to sleep while he has been writing non stop. I sent him most of them, so this could either make or break it. Let's see what happens. AUEHHSBWHWHHAHA I might answer in a few hours OMG HE ANSWERED OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG L L L HE TOLD ME THAT THE SECOND HE WILL SEE ME IN PERSON HE WILL ASK ME TO ALLOW HIM TO BE MY BF. I CANT ACCESS THE WHOLE MESSAGE WITHOUT OPENING IT OMG OMG OMG L WHAT DO I DO HELP AHH IMA UPDATE ON WHAT MY MACHO MAN SAYS IN A…

— Her

To L,

OMFG HAHAHHA DYK HOW BAD I STARTED LAUGHING AT YOUR MESSAGE? I'M TRYING TO MOVE ON FROM KYRA BRO. Omg omg omg omg I sent him like, half of the notes. And then this huge paragraph and it's almost 3 am there. And HE READ THEM AS SOON AS I SENT THEM, AND TOLD ME TO GO TO SLEEP, SINCE IT'S LATE, AND THAT HE DOESN'T WANT ME TO BE TIRED TMRW. HIS EXACT MESSAGES OMG I'M GONNA EXPLODE WHAT DO I DO: "Btw I need you to sleep" "and I'll answer to every single one of them" L OMG I'M TOTALLY TELLING YOU…

— Her

To Her,

ALSO GIRL MOVE ON FROM THIS KYRA DUDE, I MEAN THIS MACHO MAN GUY JS SOUNDS SM BETTER DJJSJSKSNDJ  Ik moving on isn’t smth ez I don’t mean to offend you or make u sad or anything or like imply you’ve not moved on js saying you write him almost as many notes as Carol 😭

— L

To Her,

AHHHHH I CANT HELP BUT GET HYPER READING UR NOTES HDHSJDJHDJS  ATP IM GONNA CRASH OUT LIKE YOU FOR EVERYDAY HE DOESN'T DO SOMETHING TO GET YALL TOGETHER SHSJAJSJKD

— L

To Carol,

The thing is that you're rly rly rlyyy nice and passionate and a total geek, so you have your own charm, idkkk😭 should I send you some of the notes? I feel like you'll take them badly, and I'm probably js overthinking it. I don't want to hurt you in any way, but I want to make sure that yk what you want. I'm sorry for being complicated. My biggest dream is to have a dog since I lost mine after a rly rough time. I dream of having a pug. A small one I can talk to whenever I feel down, even for a…

— Her

To Carol,

You are doing a lot already. But please, pleaseee see me and listen to what I need. If I tell you my whole identity is on that site, THEN, GOOD LORD MACHO MAN, STOP TALKING ABT RANDOM OTHER GIRLS YOU HAVE THERE (especially K)AND, MAYBE, JS MAYBE, TAKE A PEEK. BECAUSE WHO KNOWS? MAYBE THE GIRL YOU LIKE HAS A BUNCH OF STUFF THERE AND YOU CAN FIND OUT MORE ABT HER WITHOUT HAVING HER ASK YOU FACE TO FACE. Well, you do a lot, I can't complain, but, I'm sorry. I'm not easy to like. I just don't want…

— Her

To Carol,

How do I put this? Unless you show some maturity, actually focus on me. And not just surface leveled, but truly, show that I don't need to remind you. Show the girl YOU told THAT YOU LIKED that you are CAPABLE of putting 2 and 2 tg and actually planning a date. When she says she is interested in smth, actually focus on her specific details, make her feel special yk, and try to make her interested, show that you are into her as a human not only as a random opportunity. Show me that you like me…

— Her

To Kyra,

Another note, a few days later: "(...)I saw her at school. Laughing. Wearing expensive jewelry, clothes, surrounded by friends. She was laughing. (...)" Those days were not easy. You made me question my life. I had stopped eating. I had decided that you choice must have been out of revenge. I felt like I had lost my world. And then I saw the note. At the end was written: "keep ts hidden from your parents and I will too". How could you tell me that, when you were the one to tell your mother?…

— Her

To Kyra,

A small portion of the note from the night I found out: "(...)why? Why would she choose this? She promised. She promised she would never hurt me again, that she would love me forever. She promised, man :( I gave her a piece of my soul and she played with it. Did I not do enough to give back her love? Was I not enough for her? Did she simply want revenge? Is that it? I asked her one thing. One thing. I never wanted to be loved ts much. I never asked for much. She gave it to me. And I took it…

— Her

To Kyra,

I should have been told you how much you actually hurt me that day

— Her

To Oliver,

Its been years, i dont know what i want to say

— Anonymous

To someone,

Thx I forgot them lmao

— Anonymous

To someone,

Yeah circles is the most peak song ever. Make sure you get your slides done for lit dorky

— Anonymous

To My flame,

It's a letter to the fire I mistook for the moon; to the light at the edge of the doom. They say it was me to blame for I was attracted to the flame but honestly how could I ever resist stealing a closer glance at the lighthouse that was far and flickering yet a sun in my palace of doom? PS: Random beautiful lines that I wrote out of the blue as I was feeling blue. Btw it is from Moth's context.

— Red Panda

To someone,

PTV is great idk why you’re complaining dorkface

— Anonymous

To L,

L YOU'RE BACKKK! 🥹 HAHAHA nooo, it's js my way of being when liking someone, even in the least, ALTOUGH I SURE DO ATTACK HIM PRETTY OFTEN ON HERE😅 He sure is annoying though UGHHH THIS WHOLE SITUATION SUCKS, BUT IMA KEEP POSTING SO WE'LL SEE WHERE IT GOES 🥹

— Her

To someone,

PTV keeps fucking playing everywhere I go. My Spotify won’t stop recommending it. Please I can’t do it.

— Anonymous