An unsent message to someone

To punk,

then go on then! leave! no need to wait for me since my efforts are so "half assed and one-sided". i trust you, your judgements and your perception on the situation. it sounds like you have all the info you need to make a good decision, right?

— mouthy

To Carol,

You told me "goodnight beautiful" and my heart skipped a beat. It was the first time I told u I had an ed. And yet you made it seem so...natural? I didnt feel guilty in the least.

— Her

To bhoomi,

i dont want to be friends anymore. i stopped wanting to when i slowly saw how one-sided it was. i didnt expect a lot from you, but i wish you didnt lie and blame me. im still going to respond to all your half assed attempts to be friends but my respect for you is dwindling and i saw how you treated nandini and raavee and khyati and khushi and how you're treating me now with mansi. hate you forever

— Anonymous

To dadu,

im going to get myself back up. im going to do it for you

— Anonymous

To Tatum,

I just got ft with your mom, she was showing me pictures and she pulled out THE dock picture. I forgot that existed, god that was so amazing. She looks rough, I feel really bad, I might have thanksgiving at your place like old times. Remember when we use to go out in the corn field and stargaze? God I miss you. I’m starting to forget your face and the pictures really reinforced that. I love you so fuckin much

— Xander

To someone,

It’s all my fucking fault. If I would’ve just been nicer, if I would’ve just let her stay, if I would’ve just shut the fuck up she’d still be here.

— Anonymous

To someone,

I thought it was all a huge nightmare and that she was fine and just ignoring me

— Anonymous

To someone,

I don’t think I told you this because I haven’t told anybody. Tatum and I were fighting, and kinda not talking, that night I came home, she was at my house I was upset she was there and told her to leave, she kept apologizing for what she did and I told her I wasn’t going to ever forgive her.

— Anonymous

To someone,

Because I didn’t think it was real. I didn’t believe it actually happened for months. I’d still text her and actually got mad and thought she was ghosting me, it was like December when it finally it me and I hardly went to school after that.

— Anonymous

To my headache,

it will never be enough, will it? i talk to tons of people all day and know how to navigate this shit. its literally my job if i don't give exactly what you want, then I'm a bitch, I'm cruel, i don't understand, and on and on and on. yet, when i leave, that's when you seem to "love" me the most and the best, apparently... why is that? is it because the idea of me is easier to shape the further away i am? the images, poetry, and symbols are easier to tolerate (and shape and curate) than living…

— mouthy

To someone,

Like the 26th was our dumb Halloween dance then the next day she passes and it’s never mentioned or anything, I still just don’t understand I hate to try and act like I’m accusing you of anything because I’m not grief hits everyone differently it’s just something I’ve always found confusing. I remember that week vividly and I did end up becoming sick a couple days later but still I never saw a change in you, maybe I was blind.

— Anonymous

To someone,

I’m not trying to say anything at all it’s just kind of weird that you never reacted at school or told any of us I mean you went to school a day after it happened and no one noticed how?

— Anonymous

To someone,

I thought so too for the longest time, I was wrong, she died 27th, her funeral was November 24, I mixed the days, I know it’s shitty.

— Anonymous

To someone,

I thought she died October 24th

— Anonymous

To grace,

bruuhhh ur so cute even

— gravy

To navya,

now i get it why purvi stopped talkin to u

— v

To Varun, Crush

you were a boy on my bus, and somehow, you became a thousand unwritten poems. i fell for your eyes, your curls, and the quiet kindness you carried. i wonder if you remember the girl who kept looking back, the one who loved you in silence. then you graduated, and you were gone before i found the courage to confess. years later, i still wonder who you’ve become, whether you ever noticed me at all. i miss those bus rides, those stolen glances, and the “you” i never got to love. perhaps the saddest…

— Kanishka N.

To bella, Crush

i love you from the bottom of my heart and i will never stop doing so. I think about you all the time and its depressing when you "cant go out with me" it breaks me in two but id wait a million years for you. I love you so much bell.

— Flavio

To Tatum,

Fuck there’s so much I wish I said to you before it happened. I remember identifying your body. It looked nothing like you. Your blue eyes were gone I don’t know how to describe it. I just wish I could see you one last time. I was the last one to see you and I’m the luckiest person on earth because of that. You had such a bright future, I wish you were still here. I wish I could just talk to you.

— Anonymous

To sorana, Friend

there were things i wanted to say but never got the chance to, mainly because you left, just know that wherever you will be in the world, i wint forget you or wont stop loving you. You cannot be replaced sori. Love you.

— Anonymous

To Tatum,

It’s officially been 4 years since you passed. I miss you everyday. I wish I could go back and stop it. I wish I could’ve been there for you. It’s my fault. I love you to Saturn and back.

— Xander