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An unsent message to Varun

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To Varun, Crush

you were a boy on my bus, and somehow, you became a thousand unwritten poems. i fell for your eyes, your curls, and the quiet kindness you carried. i wonder if you remember the girl who kept looking back, the one who loved you in silence. then you graduated, and you were gone before i found the courage to confess. years later, i still wonder who you’ve become, whether you ever noticed me at all. i miss those bus rides, those stolen glances, and the “you” i never got to love. perhaps the saddest thing is that you became a chapter in my life without ever knowing you were in a story. i hope life is gentle with you, even if i remain a stranger in yours. I love you to the moon and back and I still miss you even though it has been most 4 years.

— Kanishka N.

2 hr. ago · It hppned at crpf, hyd 1
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To navya,

people will leave u nd u'll keep wondering why

— v

5 min. ago 0

To navya,

now i get it why purvi stopped talkin to u

— v

7 min. ago 0

To Kenny,

one more thing... i love you. i hope you give yourself the same love and tenderness i've always been so happy to give you. loving you has always come so naturally to me. bc you really are just so lovable. you always have been.

— prieta

1 hr. ago 0

To Varun, Crush

you were a boy on my bus, and somehow, you became a thousand unwritten poems. i fell for your eyes, your curls, and the quiet kindness you carried. i wonder if you remember the girl who kept looking back, the one who loved you in silence. then you graduated, and you were gone before i found the courage to confess. years later, i still wonder who you’ve become, whether you ever noticed me at all. i miss those bus rides, those stolen glances, and the “you” i never got to love. perhaps the saddest…

— Kanishka N.

2 hr. ago · It hppned at crpf, hyd 1

To bella, Crush

i love you from the bottom of my heart and i will never stop doing so. I think about you all the time and its depressing when you "cant go out with me" it breaks me in two but id wait a million years for you. I love you so much bell.

— Flavio

2 hr. ago 0

To Tatum,

Fuck there’s so much I wish I said to you before it happened. I remember identifying your body. It looked nothing like you. Your blue eyes were gone I don’t know how to describe it. I just wish I could see you one last time. I was the last one to see you and I’m the luckiest person on earth because of that. You had such a bright future, I wish you were still here. I wish I could just talk to you.

— Anonymous

2 hr. ago 0

To sorana, Friend

there were things i wanted to say but never got the chance to, mainly because you left, just know that wherever you will be in the world, i wint forget you or wont stop loving you. You cannot be replaced sori. Love you.

— Anonymous

2 hr. ago 0

To Tatum,

It’s officially been 4 years since you passed. I miss you everyday. I wish I could go back and stop it. I wish I could’ve been there for you. It’s my fault. I love you to Saturn and back.

— Xander

2 hr. ago 0

To kenny,

pt2) it's still there. you're still there. but divided, like it's always been. none of it was real . i cant come back, this was the reason i needed. you don't have to worry about me anymore. one less subject to write about

— prieta

2 hr. ago 0

To kenny,

pt 1) ive read too much and ive seen too much. do you write beautifully though. the inner world that i knew is still there. I was hoping it would grow and expand. it did. just not in the way i was hoping or thinking it would. i didnt want it to expand for me, why would i care about that? i always wanted it to be for you. because you're enough. you've always been. not perfect, not like there weren't any rough patches to work through, but your essence was enough. it made happy. even now. I'm…

— prieta

2 hr. ago 0

To mr.perfectly,

if i told you i still miss the way we used to be, would you understand that i'm not asking you to come back? that sometimes, i just wish i could visit a little longer the place i used to call home.

— snoopylover

3 hr. ago 0

To Dante M., 22, Ex

You hurt me so much in a way that I should never forgive you, but I can't get my mind off you. I still think of what could've been if our circumstances were totally different. When I spoke to you, I genuinely felt like I was talking to my future husband. I wish I could play with your hair, kiss your soft lips, get lost in those grey eyes, have your voice waltz me into a stupor, and lie on your chest every single day. I wanna be there for you always, and you mean so, so much to me. You're the…

— nerdy girl C.

5 hr. ago 0

To someone,

four more days. my costume is pretty good. im sorta excited for tom actually. but i feel like smths gonna mess it all up. but hey that would be my fault for ghosting everyone right! its weird bcs someone genuinely cares that its my bday soon and asked what i want. didnt know what to say, not used to ppl actually wanting to give me smth. also glad that i got an old friend back. i dont wnt to rethink what im about to do though.

— apple

7 hr. ago 0

To Matilda A., 15, Ex

You knew I was struggling, so you left me. The last thing you ever said to me was 'I love you'. Exactly a year later, I met someone who treats me right, and loves me in a way you wouldn't. I'm so happy and i can even listen to our song, and it doesn't hurt. I have everything I ever wanted and yet i still think of you sometimes. But i'm happy it's over now.

— Anonymous

7 hr. ago · Hampshire 0

To Adam H.,

I am quickly falling into some kind of love with you. But… You are so far away from me. I’m listening to you sleeping on the other end of the line now. Soft rhythmic breath keeping time in my head. I want you pressed against me like that. Warm and limp , in a dream. Safe in each other’s arms to watch the sun rise. I hope I can see you next year - live and in flesh. To touch you with more than just my words from the other side of the country. I want desperately to make you a coffee my dear.

— E.

8 hr. ago 0

To Maya, Friend

Ur a bitch

— Anonymous

8 hr. ago 0

To Sylvester,

So r we gonna pull her or no? lock in bro

— sylvester

8 hr. ago 0

To Me,

LOCK IN BRO WORK GET TO WORK STOP LOOKING AT RANDOM STUFF

— Her

9 hr. ago 1

To Waddesdon,

27/10/2022 i miss you so much, i miss your deep blue eyes, pale skin, long dark brown hair but most importantly I miss the chance I could have had with you that night at waddesdon manor. Idk where you are, you probably forgot about me, never got a name from you but everytime before i sleep i keep on thinking back to you, youre so beautiful. Pls find me on insta @27november2022_ i hope you didn't forget about me...

— E A.

10 hr. ago · United Kingdom 0

To L,

Aweee yes it isss🥹 Might try it as well tbh

— Her

11 hr. ago 1

To Sarahi E., Friend

I'm truly, deeply sorry about all the immature decisions I have made throughout all the years. Regret fills me everyday, it's unexplainable. I cannot believe the things I've done to you, to him, to those all around me. I'm so sorry for making you feel what you felt. I'm sorry for the unfair treatment I've brought. I truly am trying to better myself as a person. I want to treat those around me so greatly. However, this isn't about you. Thanks for being one of the dearest friends I've ever had.…

— AA

14 hr. ago 0

To Dad, Parent

Why are you doing this to yourself? You need help, but I suppose it's too late for that now. There is no fixing you. You want to be like this. You enjoy feeling miserable. What the fuck, why? I can't remember the times I'd look at you and feel only trust and comfort. I cannot fucking believe you'd raise your fist like that. Fuck you, I miss you. Even then, the you in the past, the one I remember and reminisce about, that's just an act. isn't it?

— AA

15 hr. ago 0

To Yasutora A., Ex

You should never be in a relationship, much less in a poly group. You're far too selfish.

— Anonymous

16 hr. ago · FL 0

To bella, 22, Crush

I have loved you longer than i've loved myself. I can't ruin this friendship but its always and always will be you bell

— ik you know

16 hr. ago 0