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To someone,

It feels fake because you don’t know the full thing, I don’t remember a lot of it because I blacked it out.

— Anonymous

45 min. ago 0
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To someone,

Genuinely what the fuck dude. I can’t believe you said that. You know damn well I’ve talked about her for years how the fuck could you say that

— Anonymous

32 min. ago 0

To my ex, 18,

You said you "kinda just lost it," but I still think about you every day. You said you'd still consider me a friend and that you couldn't just block me out of your life because your family still thinks I'm great. Even though you don't hate me, I can tell you want nothing to do with me now. Before I blocked you everywhere after our breakup, you reached out asking to play games together. I felt like nothing more than someone you felt forced to keep in contact with. I had nightmares about you…

— Anonymous

34 min. ago 0

To someone,

It feels fake because you don’t know the full thing, I don’t remember a lot of it because I blacked it out.

— Anonymous

45 min. ago 0

To someone,

You’re actually really fucking shitty for that dude. Why would I fucking lie about that.

— Anonymous

47 min. ago 0

To someone,

Something feels so wrong about this idk if you’re lying or what the fuck you’re doing but it feels so fake as if you are role playing and none of it’s real

— Anonymous

57 min. ago 0

To Diana, 21, Ex

Nope. That’s why I said something. Guess you have to find a new place to talk about me though. Maybe a journal?

— Evan

1 hr. ago 1

To Evan, 20, Ex

That was actually you? Now I’m embarrassed

— Diana

1 hr. ago 1

To Diana, 21, Ex

I saw all your notes to me in purple. Im not ready to leave her yet.

— Evan

1 hr. ago 1

To myself,

i hope your dreams came true

— Anonymous

2 hr. ago 0

To Mikey, 19,

QUIT TRYING TO TEXT ME I MADE MYSELF CLEAR!!

— Anonymous

5 hr. ago 0

To my parent,

i still don't forgive you for that day i ripped my homework. i was in 4th grade. you got so made at me for ripping that sheet of paper that you threw a glass jar of rocks at me, cutting and bruising my body badly while getting glass all over the bed and floor. you took my wired mouse and whipped me with the cord, leaving heavy, swollen, bruises and bursting blood vessels while i was screaming at you to stop and that i was sorry. i remember how badly it burned. i don't forgive you for this and…

— Anonymous

6 hr. ago 0

To Z, Friend

Maybe I secretly wish you liked girls.

— Anonymous

7 hr. ago 1

To V,

Idk if ur gonna see this, but I'm like sooooo afraid that I'm annoying you and that our relationship is drifting apart cause of me. I'm sooo afraid, I wanna cry, but like I'm holding it together for now. I love you soooo much. Ur probs not even gonna see this fr fr

— Joseph Badal

7 hr. ago 0

To noorania,

You are my peace in this troubled world, I love you more than you can imagine. I love and cherish your littles face expressions and your softness. Life feels easy with you.

— your fishel

7 hr. ago 0

To ok lets go,

last part) I will be kind. I will be patient. I will extend understanding, even when it costs me something. But if someone insists on playing in my face despite that patience, kindness, and restraint, there is a very sharp side of me that will come out. And it's interesting because, when we were talking, you told me you wanted to see that side of me. Remember? I told you she doesn't come out often. And I told you that I know exactly how deeply I can cut when I've been pushed to that…

— Anonymous

8 hr. ago 0

To ok lets go,

pt3) Guess who else I observed so carefully? Guess whose emotional temperature I constantly gauged? Guess whose moods I anticipated, whose reactions I calculated, and whose feelings I accommodated so they wouldn't dysregulate? For YEARS. I don't even have to answer that question because you already know. Even my restraint in not naming it outright at this stage of my post is an act of mercy. But I hope you understand that you shouldn't have to question the answer. It should be painfully…

— Anonymous

8 hr. ago 0

To Lise,

I’m sorry if I hurt you when I left, I needed to focus on my mental health but I still really do love you. I wish you well, love your princess

— Anonymous

8 hr. ago 0

To ok lets go,

pt 2) I had to take care of her emotionally. I had to assume the blame, even when it wasn't mine, because otherwise, she would dysregulate. And when she wasn't okay, everyone paid for it. But guess what? I loved her. And this was my way of making sure she felt loved. I shrank myself to preserve her fragility. I accommodated her because it was easier than dealing with the consequences of her emotional instability. But that accommodation came at a tremendous cost. My personhood. My essence. Who I…

— Anonymous

8 hr. ago 0

To abdeldaïm,

you’re the closest anyone has ever stood to my soul, i love you in a way that feels deeper than words.

— Anonymous

8 hr. ago 1

To ok lets go,

pt 1) Let's go alllll the way in, then. NUCLEAR. Because there's no going back. Not now. You want to talk about feelings? Let's talk about them. There's a reason you felt so familiar to me. And still do. You want to know why? Because you remind me of my mom. Growing up, I constantly had to gauge her emotional temperature so that, regardless of what she was feeling, I could adapt and remain safe. I became an expert at detecting moods, shifts, and the slightest nuances from a very young age…

— Anonymous

8 hr. ago 0

To Amr R., 17, Crush

When I first saw you I knew I was hooked , I have never seen you for nine years , but now everytime I look at you I feel complete, you complete me sweetheart, and I pray every night and day that you're my destiny. Sometimes I fear that my love for you will be beyond the limitations of my mere body and kill me , but I guess it's the best way to get killed. Especially by you.

— Anonymous

8 hr. ago · Montreal, Canada andEgypt 0

To Sir,

bubbs... have you decided yet? feelings arent necessary, yk. you see alot about me, thats why you are able to evaluate me with such colorful words! it seems like you might be getting tired though.... thats okay. im patient. anything to hear back from you sweets ;)

— Anonymous

9 hr. ago 0

To Evan, 20, Ex

I keep feeling like I’m pissing you off when I’m pissed off and then I get sad but it’s not even anything and I think too much, your silence scares me way too much

— Anonymous

9 hr. ago 1

To direct plz,

no more of this indirect shit. say it with your chest. i know you can. Ive seen plenty of your writings, so i know you can do it, i believe in you pooks ;)

— Anonymous

10 hr. ago 0